upon her request, the plates that we didn't touch were packed in to-go boxes. so it filled the car with aromatic and spicy scents.

she huffed and said that you shouldn't throw away perfectly good food. she's adorable when she acts frugal like that.

my hopes of her smiling at my gesture were dashed, but even seeing her chew on the rice cakes indignantly was cute in its own way.

after we left the restaurant, i didn't want to take her home immediately. so i went in the opposite direction of her home.

she normally doesn't ask where we're going or what we're going to do. but even so, today she was silent, like she was stuck in her own thoughts.

we drove for a fairly long time to a cafe with a good night view from inside a car filled with comfortable silence.

i looked at her sipped on her tea we ordered just now.

it's been over a month, so it should be a distant memory. but i still remember her thrilling touch.

and her lips. i don't know why, but i long for them every time i see them. if she happens to touch her lips, i feel a surge of electricity as if i were still a teenage boy.

this incredible need i feel for her, is something even i have a hard time understanding.

when i spontaneously decided to marry her after finding out about doo-jool, i believed it was due to my strong sense of responsibility.

but now, i can't tell if i want to marry her because of doo-jool or if it's because i want to keep her by my side. the lines have been blurred.

this is the first time i've fallen for someone so deeply, and it's also the first time i've ever been rejected like this.

i parked my car at the parking lot of chaeyoung's apartment and peeked on her who was sitting at the passenger sit beside me.

she was sleeping.

and she looks uncomfortable sleeping in that position.

i quickly unbuckled my seat belt and tried to lower her backseat, so she could sleep comfortably.

but guess what? i woke her up.

our eyes met and we continued looking at each other for a few seconds.

we're so close.

"can i kiss you?" i abruptly asked, can't hold myself anymore.

she gulped and looked at my lips.

"if you don't say anything to the count of three, i'm going to take that as a yes. one..two..three." i added.

i put my hand on her cheek and we kissed, for the first time after that night.

her lips are so soft and sweet, making me don't want to let it go.

-

jungkook stopped the kiss but it seems like i want it more.

i tried to pull him again for another kiss and he leaned in but kissed me on the cheek instead.

"cellphone." he said.

"i'm sorry?"

"there's a call coming in."

"ah, y-you should pick up." i said, thinking i might be the one who prevented him to pick up the call just because of my desire to kiss him.

"i would like to, but it's your phone that's vibrating.."

i still looked at him blankly and realized what just happened between us, ignoring his words.

we just kissed!

"darling, someone is calling you. considering the person still hasn't hung up, it seems to be an important call. if you don't care to pick up, i'm completely fine with that, too." he added, pulling my chin, trying to kiss me again.

i gently pushed his hand and said, "i-i'm going to pick up!"

why is he fluttering me so much?!

but when i looked on the caller id of my vibrating phone, i became hesitate to answer the call.

and the mood became different.

"hello?" i picked up the call.

"chaeyoung, it's me."

"yes, dad. is something wrong? i'll be there tomorrow. don't worry." i said.

"thanks. more importantly, has ji-young contacted you?" my dad asked.

"has something happened with her?" i asked, why would my dad asked me about my younger sister when we're not living under one roof?

"i heard that she left school after finishing her morning classes, but she hasn't come home. she didn't go to the tutor center and she's not picking up her phone either. we argued yesterday." my dad told me, feeling worried.

"she's at a sensitive age. couldn't you have just been more patient with her?"

"i know. i'm wondering if maybe i'm in this situation because of my selfish desires. maybe i should just get a divorce. there's a lot of thoughts running through my head right now."

i suddenly remembered how i met my dad's second wife after hearing he said that.

"chae, say hello. this is the woman i'm going to marry."

"should i just not get married?"

i was only six at that time.

"don't say that. that would be rude towards the woman you married."