《Haikyuu Text Messages》5. Platonic Kuroaka
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Kuroo Tetsuro & Akaashi Keiji
(One-sided) Bokuaka (Bokuto x Akaashi)
SH / Suicidal thoughts / Angst
Akaashi's 2nd year / Kuroo's 3rd year
This is actually me venting lmao (I'm an Akaashi kinnie, is it obvious?)
hey kuroo-san
can we talk for a bit?
sure kaashi, what's up?
so... y'know that i have a crush on bokuto-san, right?
yes?
well we were hanging out today
and he was going to show sth in our chat
and i happened to glance at it
to see that he hasn't saved me in his contacts
what?
i'm sure you're mistaken
you two are rlly close
i saw my picture
and i know what we had written in the chat..
so i know that it was ours.
maybe his phone changed?
we both know it's not some technical issue
i'm really sorry, akaashi..
i just
i don't understand
ik that he doesn't fucking like me back but i thought we were friends, y'know?
was i wrong to assume so?
am i not worth his friendship?
i tried to help him through his tough times
i tried to be there for him when he needed someone
i didn't expect anything in return but..
i thought that he at least saw me as his friend..
guess not lmao
ik u don't like talking about stuff like this but i'm sure you'll feel better if you vent a bit
are you ok with that?
ofc :)
kuroo-san, am i just some piece of paper?
am i just some THING to write their troubles on and then just throw away?
every time i try to do smth nice for him, he acts like i'm SUPPOSED to do so, as if that's my fucking job.
i don't know how to express my emotions bcs i lock them up
why is that?
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it's my brain trying to protect me from emotional damage
tbh every friend i've had up until this day has used me
whether i like to admit it or not..
that was why i had pushed everyone away from me in the last year of middle school..
bcs if people think i wasn't approachable, they wouldn't want to be friends with me
and i thought that was better than ur friends leaving u
and if i didn't have any friends, i also wouldn't have anyone to judge me
or use me
i'm so sorry that happened to you keiji
you don't deserve that
well, bcs of that self-defense mechanism, people think that i'm a robot, that i don't have any feelings.
but not showing my emotions does NOT mean that i don't fucking feel anything
I'M STILL A FUCKING HUMAN BEING
fucking hell, a "friend" of mine even came up to me today and told me that i could be in a relationship if i had some emotions
that's horrible, keiji..
do you want me to deal with them?
no, it's fine..
he was right, anyways
no, he was not.
you do have emotions, beautiful ones at that
i don't deserve bokuto's love..
i don't deserve anyone's love tbh
i should just stick to keeping everything to myself
and just be a fucking robot ig
i don't think it'll be hard
since everyone seems to ALREADY FUCKING THINK SO
but that'll make you sick
i'm already sick, kuroo-san..
i sometimes imagine what it would feel like...
being dead, i mean
keiji. please don't.
nobody would miss me..
I WOULD
keiji please
it hurts so fucking much, kuroo-san.
not only bcs of bokuto-san
but it's the pressure of being "the perfect child"
i'm burnt out but my parents have no idea bcs i'm so desperate of their praise that i overwork my body to get good grades..
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sometimes i'd get so tired of studying that i'd have to punish my body
for not obeying my mind
for not being durable
for not being ENOUGH
do you.. still do it?
self-harm?
no, i don't.
you have too much on your shoulders, keiji..
sometimes you need to lay off of work and just take a break
but i won't be worthy of anything if i do so
i need to work and get good grades to make my parents proud
kuroo-san, you don't understand, i'm living off of my parents' praise
i can't handle the disappointment on their faces when they see i have gotten a B
they don't say anything but it's so evident in their eyes that it burns my heart..
i don't think i want to do this anymore..
this?
live..
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