My wounds are cut deep

They're purple and sore

Still bleeding more than ever

Recently I've felt as if they've been bleeding under my skin all along.

Waiting for me to give in

All I see is red

The bloods on my hands...

I watch it drip.

As I grip my hands together

It's everywhere

My hands stumble and shake as I scrub red off my bedroom floor.

Having trouble cleaning it?

Yeah, fine...sure...

I'm angry, upset

with myself even more.

I feel as if I've failed.

Told myself not again.

I won't do it again

Yet here I am...

Blood is all I see.

It dripping down the seams running like hot water.

Water that never comes to an end.

Even if you try to turn it off all it does is drip, drip, and keep dripping

I'm the only one to blame for this red everywhere that I see, all around me.

But that's okay.

Learn to forgive yourself more often

It's not such a big deal than you think.

Love yourself more when no one else can

You dont need them

I mean sure it's hard to breath and seems it's getting harder but just trust me.

Please

I'm still here, aren't I

I'm waiting.

You sit there hand all this love out but never to yourself.

Now tell me, . . . . .

Why?