I lived at the pack house and things were fine. I was treated like I didn't exist even by omegas. I did chores that nobody wanted to do like feeding the prisoners, cleaning the shared bathrooms, washing the dishes after the pack dinner which were a lot.

The good thing was that the Alpha family had the top floor all to themselves. They ate with the pack once a week. I never saw them that much even if I did, I always kept my head down. I was beneath everybody so my head was always down.

I still went to school. I had about 4 months of high school left. I knew the only way out for me was to finish high school and apply for scholarships so I could build a better life for myself. It still hurts when I thought about Blaze and the fact that Sky was not talking to me made matters worse.

We attended a human high school which was about 45 minutes away by car. There were buses for pack members who didn't have cars, but since I became an outcast I was not allowed on the buses. So I had to walk to school and it took me about one and a half hour. It was pretty far. At school the humans were fine, they just wondered why my friends suddenly hated me. I was no longer with the popular group.

I preferred being by myself, it gave me peace and I didn't have hear how much of a disappointment I became or how I was a whore. I was the most hated person and everyone made sure I knew.

It had been threep weeks since my birthday and I was expecting my first heat. She wolfs go through heat after they mature and meet their mate. They experience heat only when they meet their true mates meaning they can't produce with anyone but their mates.

The heat was nature's way of saying go on already, have kids. It is painful for the females and she smells irresistible to all males and her mate will want nothing but to be with her.

All day I was in pain, the cramps were getting worse. The walk from school was the worst, I had no idea how I made it back. I could hardly stand up straight. I arrived when it was dinner time so only Mrs Benson was in the kitchen. It was my turn to do the dishes but she told me to go to bed and rest. She was not that bad. She showed generosity towards me which I appreciated.

My clothes were burning me so I took them off but it was not enough. I was burning from inside and the only thing that could make me better was my mate's touch. Only he could stop the hurt and make me his, but my mate didn't want me. He didn't care about me, he loved someone else. No amount of reading about heats or hearing stories about it could prepare me for the pain I was in.

I gave into the pain. If it killed me so be it, what was I fighting for? It was not like anyone cared if I lived or died. Sky took over to help with pain, she was weak but she held on. I let her have complete control.

When she gave me control, the pain was gone and I was in warm arms. It felt good, his scent was amazing. I tried to snuggle closer to him but he woke up and jumped out of bed. It was Blaze and it was like he was about to murder someone. He kept shaking his head and saying no.

"What's wrong?" I asked with a smile. I was confused. I had no idea what he was doing in my room naked. I tried asking Sky but she blocked me out. I was on my own and the look in his eyes scared the crap out of me.

"My fucking wolf took over and came here last night," Blaze hissed.

"Look, I'm in love with Victoria okay, it has nothing to do with you. I love her plain and simple and what ever happened here changes nothing. I will never love you."

"But we are mates you are suppose to love me, we are destined to be together forever."

"I don't care about that, I choose who to love. Don't ever tell anybody about this do I make myself clear," he said in his alpha voice.

I nodded because I couldn't find my voice.

"I said do I make myself clear omega?" he asked holding my chin painfully hard.

"Y-yes Alpha Jones," I whispered. He put his clothes on and said words that destroyed me beyond repair.

"I Blaze Jones the future Alpha of the Firestone pack reject you Sophia Turpin as my mate and luna," he said not looking at me and walking to the door.

"I accept your rejection Alpha Blaze Jones," I said quietly. I saw him put his hand over his heart and walk out the door stumbling.

I didn't cry, I had no energy left to do anything. I had no one and desired death so much. I wished I had energy left to kill myself but I didn't. How could the Goddess let this happen to me. I closed my eyes and hoped to never wake up.

I woke up to somebody calling my name. I opened my eyes hoping to see hell or something but I guess I was not that lucky. I was still alive in the same room, same pain but at least I had energy to move around. I opened my door and Mrs Benson was standing there with food.

"You have been up here for 4 days and I can't cover for you anymore. Here eat and come do your work," she said with sad smile and left.

I wanted to hug her and thank her but I had no right words to express my gratitude. She gave me food and a smile and she became my family. I took a shower and ate. I felt dead inside and I looked like it.

I knew something was wrong with me me but I couldn't tell what. It occured to me that I had to end my life. There was no reason for me to live. I had no reason to hold on.

The pack house was in a frenzy preparing for the Blue moon where the luna ceremony would take place. The clouds will cover the moon and the moon will shine first on the new luna to show that she has the blessings of the Goddess. It was a beautiful thing to witness apparently, I had never been to one. I didn't want to attend this one either. My poor heart couldn't take anymore hits.

A week before the luna ceremony Sky told me to live and be strong for our unborn pup.

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