I left Riley's house. My mind was racing, my heart was aching. Everything hurt. I tried everything I could to look for her after the events of my parents happened. I was only 17 at the time.

I can't tell if she knows or not. If she did she would never look at me the same way again. She would think I was a monster, but I had to do it. It was them or myself and I made the decision that I would save myself.

I got in, I text Riley, but she didn't reply. I wouldn't reply to me neither. The way I acted terrified the blonde. There's one thing I've learnt about Riley and that's she doesn't scare easily: at all.

I was so angry I thought she was involved somehow but that was a stupid assumption. She's six years younger than me she would only have been 12 at the time, and stuck in Wales. Half way across the world.

I need a drink. I opened my bottle of Disaronno, I cannot stand the taste of vodka or any other alcoholic beverages. I downed the bottle and sat on the floor. I cried. I hurt Riley, I really scared her, by towering over her, shouting. Fuck!

She literally ran away from me she was that scared. I necked another long sip of the liquor and I could already feel it working in me. It's probably because I've barely eaten today. I rested my head on the wall behind me.

The flashbacks of making love with Riley were going through my mind. I smiled to myself. They way she moaned my name, the way she arched her back when she was about to climax, the way her body felt. I felt my body react like it was happening again.

I needed to feel her again, I need to hear her laugh, or see her smile. I text her three times before going back to drinking my sorrows. Everything was beginning to get blurry. I need to lie down. I lied down in my current spot and the world started spinning. Then a wave of emotions hit me, and I felt like I was suffocating.

Flashbacks of the events of my parents were consuming my mind, my eyes, my ears. I need to get out! I can't move. I grabbed my phone Riley wouldn't pick up now, I'll send a text instead. I stayed in my position, my whole body started to shake, my breathing quickened, my heart was about to break my ribcage. My phone rung, I answered and Riley was on the line, finally. I didn't know what to say, my words went coming out, I needed Riley with me now.

She was on the way, but I couldn't wait, my body left me. The world went black. I woke up to Riley looking down at me. She was so beautiful. Her hair hanging over the shoulders and her smiling down at me. She was a true work of art.

Alexa's P.O.V-the morning after.

I woke up to shooting pains in my head. My alarm was driving me crazy. I got up and I fell back down. What the fuck happened last night? I looked to my nightstand, there were pain killers and a glass of water next to me with a note "You're going to need these, take them."

That's not my hand writing but I don't care, I need to get rid of this pain. I jumped into the shower and I felt something missing, my memories. I can't remember what happened yesterday at all. Its really irritating me. I got dressed and I could smell freshly brewed coffee. Someone's in the house. I walked into the living room and no one was there. I'm driving myself crazy. I went to pour myself a coffee and the front door opened.

I froze and to my surprise Riley walked in with two coffees to go and some breakfast. She looked stunning this morning. She had a black pinafore skirt on, grey leggings and a grey under top. Her hair was down, and she'd put no effort into it, but she looked beautiful.

She smiled at me. That smile is a lethal weapon. "Morning, Miss Scarlett. How is the head?"

I frowned. "It's been better. Not that it isn't a lovely surprise to see you but how do you know where I live and what are you doing here?"

She chuckled "Do you remember anything about last night?!"

I shook my head. "Sorry, I really don't."

She looked at me and she went to my bin and pulled out an empty bottle of Disaronno. "Does this refresh your memory?"

I rolled my eyes. "Riley, honey, please just answer my question."

She laughed. "Okay, after the incident yesterday. You text me asking for help and I called you and you weren't making any sense. So, you asked me to come over, I obliged, and I found you passed out on the floor over there and then I put you to bed. You proceeded to vomit best part of the night and then you asked me to stay with you."

My face flushed red. I'm so embarrassed, what was I thinking?

"I am so sorry, I-uh. Riley, what was the incident yesterday?"

Her face dropped, and she froze. "Alexa, do you remember anything of what happened yesterday?"

I shook my head. She brushed a hand through her hair and she leaned down on the counter sliding her fingers along her temples. She looked at me with fear and confusion in her eyes.

"Riley? What incident?"

She sighed. "Alexa, I showed you the album that you gave me when you moved away. You asked me where I got it from, I told you and you left and said you'd text me."

She was missing out part of that story. I walked over to her sliding my hands over her waist, her body flinched, and she gave me a weak smile.

"Riley, I know you're not telling me exactly what happened. Just tell me?"

She looked up at me. "Okay, Alexa. When you found out everything you assumed that I was involved in something. I honestly don't know what and you got very aggressive which. Scared me and I made a break for it out of the house and then you apologised and drank your sorrows last night I guess."

My eyes widened a fraction as I scanned her body.

"Alexa, you didn't physically hurt me. Don't worry." Riley smiled.

I pulled her into me. I felt so safe with her around, her body was warm, she tensed up and then she relaxed and pulled me in tighter. We hugged for what seemed like seconds and she pulled back.

"Yas text me saying that her boyfriend was taking her to school so what do you want to do? Are you safe to drive or?"

I groaned. "Why did I decide to get black out drunk on a school night. Is it okay if I catch a lift off you?"

She smiled. "Of course. We have plenty of time to grab a coffee if you want to leave now and get some fresh air?"

My eyes lit up. "Lead the way!"