"Noona..."

"Beomgyu what are you doing here?"

I held onto Yoongi's hand not even knowing what I would possibly do if I were to let go.

"I was actually waiting for you noona. Hyung can I talk to her?"

Yoongi looked intently at Beomgyu as if they were communicating telepathically. He sighed and nodded giving me one last squeeze.

I see his back as he takes the elevator to his floor. Turning back I see Beogmyu fidgeting with his hands and has that look of frustration that I know so well.

"Let's take a walk."

I smile and hold his hand leading him towards the backfield. Following he stays quiet and looks down at the floor.

He is probably thinking of what to say to me. Or maybe that is just my own mind. What should I tell him?

I let go of his hand once we are the field, staring at his dark eyes I let out a breath.

"I'll start."

"No, I think I should." I hear the nervousness from his voice but also how husky it was.

Had he been crying?

"Noona the truth is-"

"I know."

"How?"

"It's a long story but I don't think you would want to hear it."

"Let me explain."

"Hey you know I would always let you explain keep going."

We walked towards the seats near the field and sat down. I tried to not look at him knowing that it probably would make him nervous.

He took a deep breath and looked at me reaching for my hand. Instinctively I turned towards him and cursed silently for not doing what I was supposed to do.

His eyes were full of determination and it was clear he may have cried a little okay maybe a lot.

"So it's true noona. I like you."

Another deep breath.

"But the truth is I can't like you. Even if I had from the very beginning. If I had all my life. I couldn't and I won't."

Damn. How long has it taken him to say this?

"Beom-"

"I know what you're going to say. 'Beomgyu I didn't know how you felt. But you know I love Yoongi and I only see you as a brother.' Am I right? Don't tell me that I just want you to finish listening to me."

"Okay. Continue."

"I don't want you to like me. Yoongi-hyung is one of the best person I could've ever asked for. He is such an inspiration and you are his inspiration I don't want to take that away from him. Therefore, I will forget about you and not like you anymore so you and Yoongi don't have to suffer. Because to me, our friendship is more important than any of these feelings I may have."

I inhaled deeply and felt his words pour into me. I saw the quiver from his lips as if he was about to cry. Yet he held it in and stood strong.

"You are so brave. Braver than what you think you are. It takes a lot of courage for you to come up to me and tell me everything you feel. I don't think I would've still said yes if you had told me ages ago."

"Why?"

"The first person I fell for was Yoongi before I even met all of you."

He embraced me tightly not letting go of me. The stains from his tears started going through my shirt. He was crying but he didn't want me to see.

Wrapping my arms around him I smiled and whispered, "You know I will always be here. Nothing is going to take me away from being your friend."

I already knew what she was going to say. So why? Why are these tears coming out? Instinctively I hugged her hoping that she wouldn't see me.

But knowing y/n she always knows before anyone. Her smile flashed before my eyes and I couldn't help but smile at the idea that I won't take away her smile.

I didn't want to tell you. I was about to throw my feelings away without even telling you. I feared that I would lose you. I feared that you would view me differently but you would never. That's not the type of person you are.

I pulled away from the hug and looked at y/n. Y/n was smiling but I saw the pain in their eyes. It pains her to see me sad, that's just how much of a soft heart she has.

"I'll be okay. You should go inside Yoongi-hyung is probably waiting for you."

"No it's okay you are my main priority."

"Jeez, I am 20 I'll be fine."

"Right you just call me noona out of respect. Why I don't know."

She giggled and stroked the length of my hair, "I'm sorry it had to be this way."

"It's not your fault my feelings just kept developing knowing that it would have never happened. Also, I call you noona just cause Yoongi is my hyung so in my mind that makes you my noona."

"Right right but technically legally you are my oppa."

"Don't say that now it sounds weird. "

"No it doesn't! You make it sound weird!"

"Do not!"

"Do so!"

We both ended up laughing till actual tears of laughter fell out.

"Thank you. I mean it."

"For what?"

"For being you. Even after everything you've gone through already."

"After the car accident, I felt like I became braver. At first, I was like is this right? I still feel like I have to learn so much about Yoongi-oppa even after everything that happened. I remember lots of things now. But I still feel this weird hole telling me that I'm not the same."

"Well, the truth is you did change. A lot. But maybe that's why I feel for you even more. Because of how brave you became. You weren't afraid to tell everyone how much you loved Yoongi-hyung. That made me like you more."

"Beomgyu..."

"I'm okay you should go though. The girls were looking for you."

"Are you sure?"

"Yeah I'm sure."

"Well okay fine I'll go but you better not cry."

She stood up and walked away I watched as her silhouette became less visible to where she became the smallest vision.

My vision became blurred once more and I looked up at the sky.

"I won't cry. I promised I wouldn't cry."

I closed my eyes and slowly drifted off to sleep as I felt someone's hand under my head.

"Thank you."