Taehyung left. He didn't even say goodbye. He said goodbye to Hoseok. But not me.

Well...he did all those things, even when I was asleep...

No...you're lying.

I watched as they talked. I watched as they walked and laughed together. I saw it all. Taehyung looks so genuinely happy when Hoseok smiles. Who wouldn't, right? He looks so much happier with Hoseok than when he hangs out around me. I know that. He's happier with Hoseok than I could ever make him.

I thought about that when we were at the movies. I thought about me and Taehyung. I thought about Taehyung and Hoseok. I even thought about me and Jimin... (A/N: Kookie you slut)

I wanted to go home right after the movie ended. I wanted to think in silence and in privacy. I want to leave...

But Jimin and Hoseok still wanted to hang out together. So Jimin dropped me off at my house and he left to God knows where with Hoseok. He chose Hoseok over me. Why is Hoseok stealing everyone I love?

I do have a reason. He took Taehyung.

Don't bring my hopes up, I'm hurt enough as it is...

I unlocked the door and went up to my room. On the way I found a note from my mom saying she was at a friends' house.

I laid in bed and looked up at the ceiling. I wondered if ignoring Taehyung until I sorted out my feelings was the right thing. In that time, what if I actually realized that I liked him? And what if he had already gotten over me since we weren't talking?

Dammit, Jimin...come home quick. I need someone to talk to...

Frustrated, I picked up my phone and just watched whatever came up first on my YouTube home page first. I don't even know exactly when I fell asleep, but when I woke up Jimin was sitting on the bed in front of me.

"You finally woke up." He smiled.

"What time is it," I asked as I sat up.

"Eight o'clock. Barely." He went back to typing on his phone.

"Who are you texting?" I asked, trying to get a closer look at his phone.

Jimin pulled away and faced the screen away from me. "No one, its nobody." Light blush forming on his cheeks.

"Awwww," I teased," Is it Yoongi? Did he finally text you back?"

"N-no, its Hoseok...and what do you mean 'finally'?!" He screamed.

"Sorry, sorry," I laughed. He laughed. We laughed together. It felt good after a day full of jealousy and disappointment. But I'm sure tomorrow will be better.

-

Today was...interesting. I enrolled in school. I'm excited about that. I get to be in the same class as Jungkookie and Taehyung! I'm honestly amazed at how fast I made friends in a country I've never been to. I already know Taehyung and Hoseok, so I wonder who I will meet next.

Today, when I saw Taehyung talking to Jungkook and getting straight-out ignored, it sort of hurt me, too. Taehyung is such a great guy and I know he likes Jungkook. And Jungkook likes him too! Even I can tell you that. So, why is he being so mean to him?

I wish I could ask Jungkook about it, but... I don't know. I just feel like he wouldn't talk about his personal life with me. I haven't known him for too long anyway.

Since I could tell he was bummed for whatever reason I left him home on his own. I still want to get to know Hoseok better. Usually, I wouldn't leave Jungkook alone for the world, but Hoseok... I just felt a strange urge to talk to him more. We walked around the park and took pictures together. He even bought me ice cream and drove me home. Could it be considered a date?

No no no

I already have Yoongi. Although...he hasn't messaged me in a while. So I admit it kind of hurt when Jungkook brought him up out of nowhere. Honestly, this crush I have on Yoongi has been going on for too long. And I'm not even sure if he likes me at all. But I'll keep holding on. At least until I get a decent answer. I've asked countless of times if he liked me, but he never gives a whole-hearted answer.

Its always something like Ha..that's cute or I don't think you can handle my swag.

So at least while I'm in Korea I might as well try to forget about him. Taehyung is a nice guy, but he's already reserved for Jungkook. I'll make sure those two end up together. Then...Hoseok. He's nice. And funny and cute. And he gives you that protective feeling. Yes...for now, Hoseok is fine.

I heard from Taehyung that Hoseok is looking for a roommate. I've actually been considering moving in with him as I stay in Korea. After all, I can't keep living off of Jungkook forever. Besides, Hoseok will take care of me. He said he would.

He really is a great guy.

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THE NEXT DAY- Jungkook POV

I woke up to the sound of someone shuffling around in my room. "Jimin," I asked tiredly, "What are you doing?"

"Getting ready for school obviously! Its my first day, I have to make good impresions."

"Oh, right." I forgot it was a school day. I forgot we still had school. Damn. I don't feel like going. Taehyung might be there...

I still need time...

No. Time's up, you've had enough of it.

I just don't feel like getting up...

"Jungkookie, you should get dressed too." Jimin suggested as he buttoned up his shirt.

"Oh alright then." I guess I have to.

---

I sat alone in the classroom. Nobody else was here. Well, it was early after all. Usually Jungkook would already be here too, and we'd be talking and laughing until the teacher arrived.

But I know it wont be like that today. Lately, he's been ignoring me. He's acted like this in the past but never to this extent. He reads my messages and doesn't respond, he doesn't answer my calls and whenever I try to approach him he leaves as soon as there's a chance.

Were my actions really worthy of this treatment? I mean, sure it was bad timing but it wasn't anything to lose contact with people over.

Alright, Jungkook. I see how it is.

I don't want to do this. I really don't. But for Jungkook, I'll do anything. If he ignores me, he has a right to do so. So I won't make him uncomfortable anymore. I'll leave you alone. And I'll wait until you're ready to be friends again.

--

Taehyung, depressed over what he was going to have to deal with for quite a while, sat in his seat with his head down. He didn't look up.

The rest of his classmates came in one by one. Jungkook was one of the last ones to arrive. But he wasn't alone. Jimin was laughing and smiling by his side. When Jungkook sat in his spot Jimin sat in the empty seat behind him. So he turned around and they kept talking and they kept laughing. Taehyung secretly eaves-dropped on their conversations. Useless banter, he thought, Jungkook doesn't seem to ignore Jimin at all.

On the contrary, it was as if Jimin and Jungkook have been friends for years. It seemed like they were closer than Taehyung and Jungkook ever were. Perhaps, Taehyung thought, I've been replaced?

-----

Class went by slowly for Taehyung. Class went by fast for the new best friends. Taehyung could feel Jimin looking at him at random moments during the teacher's lecture. But it didn't matter. He only cared if Jungkook looked his way. Nobody else mattered. But he didn't look at him. Not once. Taehyung did the same. It took a lot of strength not to turn his head slightly to the left to look at the beautiful bunny boy.

You can do this, Taehyung. He thought to himself. This is all for Jungkook. You can manage this much. I know you can, you've done much more before. So why is this so hard for you?

It was hard for him to try to ignore the boy of his dreams. It was so difficult he could hardly bear it. But he had to. He didn't want to make Jungkook more uncomfortable than what he had already managed. It hadn't even been more than 5 hours but Taehyung felt as if he couldn't do it anymore.

But he did. He kept going. He didn't look, talk or smile at Jungkook for the whole school day. It was a slow and painful day most definetly, but he made it. He should feel proud. One day was done with. It could only get easier. But he doesn't feel a sense of satisfaction or relief. He feels empty.

Jungkook...what are you doing to me?

---

"Jimin," I leaned across the desk to talk to him closer," Do you think Taehyung is acting strange?"

"He's always strange. What's your point?" He chewed on his sandwich.

"I mean...do you think he's not acting as strange as usual?"

"Now that you mention it..."

"What do you think is wrong?"

"Oh, I don't think, I know what's wrong." He pointed out.

"Okay, so what's wrong with him?"

"Not telling."

"What? Hyung, come on," I whined.

"No."

"Why not?"

"Don't worry I'll tell you."

"Okay so do it."

"When we get home."

"Wha- that's-," I was interrupted by Jimin shushing me. At first I didn't know why, but I obeyed. A little later Taehyung sat at his seat next to mine and both Jimin and I remained silent. He didn't overhear us did he?

I wanted to talk to him. I really did. But I just couldn't bring myself to do it for a while. More than 10 minutes passed when I finally dug up the courage to talk to him. But as soon as I was about to he got up and left again. Before, he went to the restroom. Now, I have no idea where he's off to.

Well, there goes my chance.

----

Jungkook and Jimin walked home together. They didn't talk. Jungkook was too busy thinking about Taehyung to speak. And Jimin was too busy texting Hoseok about some little kid's show. Jungkook didn't feel well. He didn't feel fine before, but now it was much worse. What's wrong with Taehyung? Did I do something? I don't remember doing anything. He was so talkative last time we saw each other but now...

Is it because I've been hanging out with Jimin too much? No, Taehyung isn't the type to do something like this for a reason like that. Besides, I already explained to him that I didn't have any feelings for him. Unlike the feelings Taehyung might or might not have for Hoseok.

What if the reason he's not talking is because he's too busy with Hoseok? That might be it. Maybe Hoseok told him not to talk to me because he thought I was a threat? Ha, no way... I'm no threat. I'm nothing compared to Hoseok or anyone else. I'm foolish to think Taehyung might even like me.

Before long Jungkook and Jimin arrived at their house. Jimin grabbed some snacks on the way to their room and waved hello to Mrs. Jeon.

Jungkook automatically threw his stuff on the ground and laid in bed on his back. He covered his face with his hands and checked his phone for any new messages from Taehyung. None.

"Aish." He whined as he threw his phone right next to his school stuff.

"What's wrong?" Jimin asked him as he sat on the chair next to the bed while eating chips.

"Honestly...I don't know." Jungkook sat up and smiled at the ground.

"You look awful. Like you're about to cry."

"I'm...fine." He lied.

Jimin sat in front of Jungkook and looked at the top of his head. "It's Taehyung isn't it?"

"No...," He paused for a second before changing his answer. "Yes."

"What did he do to you?" Jimin's voice suddenly grew stern.

"Nothing. That's the problem."

"What do you mean?"

"I mean..." Jungkook sighed and sat up correctly. "He hasn't talked to me in a while. I was just wondering why."

"Oh."

"Wait..." Jungkook raised his head to look at Jimin directly in the eye. "You said you knew, right? Why he was acting strange?"

"I do."

"Tell me."

"Do you really want to know?"

"Yes."

"Alright...but don't feel bad when I tell you."

"Of course."

"The reason Taehyung is ignoring you is, well I think. It's because you were ignoring him. And he doesn't want to make anything worse. I think."

"What?" Jungkook was genuinely shocked. He had only been avoiding him for a small amount of time. And it was so he could sort out his feelings. There's nothing wrong with that.

But...Jungkook thought. He is really sensitive sometimes. And he always tries to do what's most convenient for me and not him. Was he really doing this for me?

"That's..."

"What?"

"I haven't been ignoring him. I tried to talk to him today. He's the one ignoring me." Jungkook defended himself. Why am I so selfish?

"Jungkook, as much as I like you I have to say I think this is your fault."

"My fault?" He wanted to be angry at him. He wanted to lash out his frustrations on Jimin but he knew nothing would come of it. It wouldn't make him feel better either.

"Don't be upset when I tell you but, I've seen the way you've been acting around Taehyung. He tries to talk to you but you don't give him a chance. You walk away as if he wasn't even there."

Do I really act like that?

"You didn't act like this before. A week ago you weren't like this. Did something happen between you that made you act like that?"

Jungkook didn't want to tell him about the kiss and the encounter with the old guy.

"I don't know. I saw him with Hoseok and I just... I can't explain. I don't know why I'm acting like this."

Well...at least its not a complete lie.

"Is that what's wrong?"

"Yes."

"Jungkook, don't you understand?"

"Understand what?"

"Jungkook, I've seen the way you look at each other. I've heard you laughing and talking together. You must be more naïve than I thought if you haven't realized yourself yet."

"What? What is it?"

"You really have no idea?"

"No."

Jimin sighed. "To think I have to be the one to tell you this," he mumbled to himself. "You like Taehyung."

"What?! That's crazy, you're crazy."

"I'm serious." Jimin stated.

"Really?" Jungkook hesitated for a moment. "But...I cant."

"Why not?"

"Taehyung is my best friend. We've been together forever so why..."

"I cant tell you how you feel."

"But you just did! Agh," Jungkook was frustrated and confused. This was obviously not the first time the thought that he might like his best friend crossed his mind. But for some reason he felt like he had to pretend it was all new to him.

"I cant like him. I just cant."

"Why? Taehyung is a good kid. He's kind and funny. I'm sure he'd make you happy."

"No...that's not it. What about Hoseok?"

Jimin blushed lightly at the mention of Hoseok's name. "W-what about him?"

"Doesn't Taehyung like him? I was pretty sure he did..." Jungkook looked down.

"You're crazy."

"What?"

"Taehyung has no feelings for Hoseok. And Hoseok has no feelings for Taehyung."

"How are you so sure about that?"

"Trust me. Please don't see him as a threat."

"Okay then."

----

I feel awful. Heartless, emotionless. I feel empty. Who knew liking Jungkook was going to be this hard?

I changed so much in the past couple weeks. For the worse. I haven't been eating correctly, I stopped talking to everyone and I've stopped smiling.

Half of me feels like I'm exaggerating and should just let things with Jungkook happen naturally. But the other half tells me to be depressed because I know Jungkook could never return my feelings. I realize that. My other half is right. There's no point in trying to win over Jungkook. It can't happen. My best bet is to just ignore him completely and wait until my feelings have passed.

But the feelings haven't gone away. In fact, I feel like they're getting stronger. If this continues I'll never be able to get over him.

But I've been fighting it. With a little help from a friend. I wouldn't exactly call him a friend. We hardly know each other.

At the beginning of the semester he confessed to me. But I turned him down. What a better time to use him than this?

I admit, I felt guilty at first. I didn't like deceiving some poor guy into thinking I liked him. Now, I couldn't care less. And that bothers me. That I don't care about anyone's feelings anymore. But it helps. Jungkook is slowly reverting back to what I thought about him before we properly met, just one of the people who I go to school with. Nothing more.

Me and my 'friend' meet everyday at lunch in the janitor's closet. When i'm with him, I just let him do whatever he wants to me. To my body. I don't care. Its okay because I know he does it with love. That's something I haven't gotten from anyone else. Everyone else has already distanced themselves from me. So he's the only one I have left. I don't care what he does, as long as he helps me forget the people I used to know.

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"There he goes again," Jimin mumbled to Jungkook. "Why don't you talk to him?"

"I...cant."

"You've been saying that for almost a month and you've done nothing to close the gap between you and Taehyung."

"I'm sorry. Its just... I feel like its not Taehyung anymore."

Jimin leaned in closer. "You still like him, right?"

"I cant stop thinking about him."

"I can tell. Your grades reflect that."

"Jimin..."

"Yeah?"

"What do you think he does everyday at lunch? He leaves immediately and comes back 5 minutes after class has started."

"I don't know."

"You... you don't think he has a lover do you?"

"No, I don't."

Jungkook sighed.

"Eat. Apart from your grades your health is also declining. You shouldn't let him do this to you."

"You're right, I'm sorry."

"Go on, eat. I have to go to the restroom." Jimin stood up from his seat.

"Hurry back."

"I will."

But Jimin didn't go to the restroom. He was determined to find out what Taehyung has been doing all this time. He walked around the hallway and went inside classrooms looking for him. He asked passing students and teachers if they knew where he was, but no one had seen him.