Today is day 4. I'm too busy and exhausted. I think my body is on its limit now. But I need to work. I don't have the right to rest, that's what I think. I have goals and dreams and Im determined to achieve it.

Well anyway, I'm a bit okay now. Though still sad. I really like him.. I really do. But what could I do? He already shut me off.

Sigh.

Now, the only rhing in my thought is I don't want to be the nice person anymore. Though, it's my personality, but I have the urge to change. People always hurt me, take advantage of me.

I hate myself coz Im a people pleaser.

Well anyway, Im just giving evrything to the universe. It's out of my control now.

Then I crossed an article about manifesting "the one." I may have doubt or I may have given up, however I want to affirm my "the one." I know he's out there and I know I would know or feel once I see him. That's what i believe now, the reason I don't chase love anymore.

Let it be..

So this is my affirmation...

Thank you universe for giving me my Almeric. He is a foreigner, someone with blue or grey or green eyes. He is a guy who is 5"8 to 6 ft tall. He is a croatian or european. He is a very good looking guy. My Almeric is a guy who is funny and moody as well but he loves hard and will do everything for me, the woman he loves most. He is a very intellectual guy. Almeric makes me laugh. He chooses me every single day. He loves me the way I deserve. He accepts my situation.

My love, Almeric supports me, and cares for me. Im the luckiest girl. His heart is so pure that he never turns to other women but me. I love you, Almeric with all my heart.

Until then, I will live my life as I wait for him. I know it. I know he's just out there. I will wait no matter how long. But I believe the time we're about to meet is nearly there.