We were seated on the couch..seeing her bruised lip wants me to cry again,How can I be so stupid,She was an angel who came into my life and started changing me,she was there with me when i tortured her,hated her,threw bad words at her..but now when I want to love her ,cherish her she wants to go away from me... The past cannot be changed but the future is yet in my power.,but she did not know that that fateful night not only changed every thing for her,it changed everything for me too.It was pride for my status that changed me into a devil; it is her LOVE that made me a human.

That night made me a human who was animal until then,but never did I know she would want to end up her life, I let her go and walk away because I did not realize her worth, but finally when I did it was too late.

Suddenly something pained and I hissed which made me come out of my thoughts..tara was trying to touch my bleeding fist with her finger,seeing me hissing a flash of emotion ran through her eyes,is that care?,it went away as fast as it came!!

How can I expect her to even care for me after what all I did.Another another mistake today ,i kissed her,I was so angry when she was all monu monu..Yes I was angry but on myself because monu was there with her when ever she needed,where I failed to do that,I was angry on myself and I removed it by kissing her.No I need to stop it,I know the beast is still there somewhere in me,I need to kill that for my angel,my tara.

"So?", she said,earlier whenever she used to speak I got angry,she was a blabbermouth talking 24 hrs,i used to scold her because her nonstop talking irritated me.But now atleast a little word from her mouth is my life line.

"I want you to forgive me, or atleast give a chance for me to repent, give me any punishment in the world,scold all you want,but please stay with me", I asked weakly,how can i ever expect her to forgive me,but i am going to try untill my last breath.

"What do you think of yourself?How dare you come and kidnap me and ask me to forgive me?For your kind information i forgot all about you and my life,the day i almost died,now this is my new life,there is no you or anything related to my past in me now,you are like a mere stranger on road to me",she said..hearing those words broke my heart,which I doubt i had one until the day I realised my love for her.

"It is not a file on your computer tara,where you press ctrl delete and it gets deleted,its life i know u remember everything,if it is not here i pointed to her brain ,it will be atleast here i put my palm slightly where her heart is",I said.

"No!!you are dead to me!",she said..I remembered the same line used by me.

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She was all smiling,doesnt this girl ever get angry? I married her forcefully and dragged her here.The car stopped ,I pulled her into the house and locked it."

Dont think that I married you because of love or sympathy,you will b my slave,do you see that ?i pointed to the sofa,u r like that in my house,i will make your life horrible untill you die",i saw her face and guess what she is still smiling,now I was irritated to peaks,I caught hold of her manglasutra which i tied 10 min back,i pulled it she was crying and trying to snatch it from her hand but i broke it, her face became dead and she started to cry,i was happy now,then i bought a water bottle poured it on her head and rubbed the sindhoor,then I started pulling her saree,but she cought hold of it and pleaded me,I pulled her saree out leaving her in her blouse and skirt,i put the broken mangalstura n saree on the ground and lighted it with my lighter..she went forward but i cought her and trapped her,she cried heavily seeing the burning saree.

Then I realeased her and smirked "Haan..now u became a widow just after ten minutes of your marraige..I AM DEAD FOR U, you r no longer married to me but you r gonna stay here,do you know what the society calls a women who stays in a mans home with out getting married to him?",I laughed evily and inspected her sareeless body "by the way,I never noticed you in your cheap chawl clothes,you are hot,would be a good fuck!!",i smirked and went away and she landed on the floor on her knees sobbing loudly touching the burnt ashes...

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"you are dead to me ",her those words brought all the memories back,I couldnt bear those words from her mouth.

"Now,leave me I need to go to home and attend my office",she said .No i cant let her go.

"Stay with me please",I pleaded her.

"In your dreams Mr.kashyap,i am leaving",she said.i cant let my angel leave,she is the only reason i am living,the only one for the orphan me in this whole world.i need to act fast

"No u cant, we didnt have a divorce!",i said.

"I will send those papers to you,Mr kashyap",she replied.

"Okay if you dont want to live here,take me to your place,treat me how ever you want like your servant or anything",I asked hoping that she would agree. I don't know! I just wanna be with her all the time. I want hear about her day and tell her about mine. I want to hold her hand and smell her hair. All I do is think about her. And when she wants to leave I feel empty Like I am not whole. Almost dead. Its a feeling I have never felt before.... But, I just want to be with her all the time .... Its hurting me right now Im not with her!! It is killing me inside!

"No and treating people like slaves and furniture is your job ,not mine",she said and stood up.

"No u cant ",i shouted and she started walking..."if you dont stop right now", i said she turned back ,i took the knife from breakfast tray and slit my wrist.

"WHAT THE HELL R U DOING?",she shouted and came forward to stop the blood.

"Either you take me with me or let me die",i replied weakly because i am loosing my blood.."Go to hell ",she said and walked away but deeper i know she wilL come back and say okay,because my angel cannot see anyone hurt.Just as my eyes were about to close "Okay" she said and rushed towards me and caught hold of my wrist.

"okay for what angel?", i asked not letting her bandage my wrist."okay ,u can stay with me",she said and i gave my wrist to her smilingly...but she did unthinkable..she threw the first aid kit on my face,"do it urself and come out"she shouted and went away.

I know I am wrong on many ways,but I am desperate for a chance.I want to show how much i love her,I want to spoil her with luxuries, I want to cherish my angel,cuddle with her everynight but first I need to prove myself ,I need to live with her and show her i changed.I bandaged my wrist ,packed a small bag for me and came out.she gestured me to come.we went and sat in my car to drive to her home.

"NO..i am not sitting in your car,I dont want to use anything thats yours,either come in bus r stay here",she said.

I jumped out fom my car and wewnt behind her,i just want to be with her...bus or bullok cart does not matter.

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How is the chapter guys,did it reach your expectations,and yaa what do u think about aadi and tara?please comment and vote.

dedicated To neetha di because i loved her love again book a lot..if possible check it out..i loved it a lot!