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(Flash back/nightmare)

I lay on the floor of the forest blood all over the floor. Big sister was gone it was just me and brother. But brother was not here. He will come back. Why had she gone. I loved her. I run to big brother he's finally back .I pull on his coat getting him to look down I hold my hands up saying "tall bean upy upy" he smiles down but doesn't pick me up. Big sis would.

Big brother ignoring me....he has been for weeks. I run out crying it hurt so much the tears trickling down of my face leaving marks . I ran from the pain in my chest. He didn't love me anymore.

(End of nightmare)

I sat up sweating tears rolling down my face at the memory that usually faded but not this one. I was to tired to stop the next wave of fear and sleep. It pulled me under.

(Flashback)

Sirens blue and red wailing. I couldn't feel my body limp on the floor, covered in bruises cuts. My blood surrounding me as brother yelled at father. My mothers kneeled next to me. I had fallen down just stoping before lava. She was trying so hard to fix the cuts. I'm not sure why but happiness was all I could feel that mother was here. Father was not here all the time because he went on business trips . My heart sunk as I realised I would be left with my big brother. He always seemed different ever since he started going out. He left me in the house a lot and when he was home he just ignored me. My breathing was shallow. my sister, my twin sister she was going with mum.

Mum and dad got in a big argument, I don't think he's coming back.

(End)

I sat up gasping my body shacking with rage and anger and fear...

I stomped out the house papa confused, followed me. I stomped out getting hit with the cold.

I fell onto my knees in the snow all I could do was scream hard and long, tears gushing out. My form changing to a new one. A goddess. before it flickered turning normal once more.

Paza ran to me my body slumped in the cold snow. My pyjamas socked and cold to the bone. I whimpered moving away from the hit...., I was always punished for being to loud because of the hoglins we lived close to.

But it didn't come why wasn't he punishing me for my volume. He frowned leaning back. The annoying kid showed up trying to hug me but. I screamed hard until I couldn't anymore my throat dry and sore. My voice croaky and quiet.

But when ranboo came pushing everyone away.,,. That's when the next flashback hit

(Flash if the back)

"You stupid child. You are useless this is your fault" my father yelled. No no no. His palm hit my head hard. The men trying to push him back.the hoglins had come my mother didn't make it this time. She wasn't back in time, to stop farthest ager to calm him from the consuming rage. the world of the nether was cruel. They were nice I think, they offered me a cup of a warm brown thing. It was sweet. But they took father away even tho I needed him.they originally just came to get ride of the hoglins.

Blacknesss

(End)

I curled up whispering "no no no," my heart raced my voice panicked as mumbled "don't take him.. not now he's just..he he he" Philza patted my back as a worried techno ran out. I could trust him. I pressed against him whimpering "the the, he he, no" my breathing quicker and heavier but quiet.

Papa and Philza shared a worried glance