Chapter 7 ~ Traumatized

I opened my eyes and moaned as they stung, I blinked a few times trying to get rid of the burning sensation. It was probably like this from all the crying last night.

I sighed looking down at my healed hand and bit my lip closing my eyes, I hugged myself laying in a fetal position as I heard the different mind links from the pack.

The Shadow pack...

The pack that killed my mother...

I was now the Luna of this pack...

I looked around the room seeing it was empty of course, I stopped when I noticed a new white closet in the corner making me frown. Is that mine?

I sat up slowly hearing the bed creak from my movement, I looked down at myself seeing I was still wearing the white dress from last night.

Sarafina?

'They're really gone' she whimpered making me close my eyes, 'we're a luna now' she said and I shook my head.

I don't want to be Luna... Not of this pack...

I'm not able to reject him anymore right?

'No... Even if you could he would have to accept it. And I don't think he would' she mumbled laying her head on her paws making me sigh.

The door opened and I tensed sitting there, Mason walked in the room and I gulped as he was shirtless. He looked at me and stopped in his tracks "you're awake" he said and I just hugged myself looking away from him.

He cleared his throat walking to his closet and grabbed a t-shirt, "hope you slept well" he said

Yeah right...

I just had my family and friends ripped away.

I sleep was marvelous. (Note the sarcasm)

"You know I can hear you" he said making me tense, "and I do note the sarcasm" he said lowly making me shiver.

He sighed walking to me and I backed away nervously against the headboard, "Are you ok?" He asked and I looked at him like he was crazy.

"Do I look okay?" I rasped and he just stood there hovering over me like a giant, "I just had my pack ripped away from me. Of course I'm not ok" I said glaring up at him and he growled lowly.

"Growl all you want. I don't even care anymore" I mumbled looking at the wall staring at the shadow of the curtains moving softly with the wind outside.

"I'll send up something for you to eat" he muttered walking away and I just hugged my legs tightly. I wish I was in Daddy's arms right now...

***

I frowned feeling someone playing with my hair, I hugged my pillow tighter to me and my eyes snapped open as they tugged on my hair harshly.

I turned over quickly looking at them "Sorry you had a knot" Anna said quickly and I looked down seeing her braiding my hair "why are you braiding my hair?" I asked sleepily.

"Cause I'm bored. You've been sleeping all day" she said and I looked at the time seeing it was almost dusk.

"I'm sorry about last night" she whispered and I just closed my eyes "I felt your pain... So did Evan" she said making me frown "what do you mean you felt my pain?" I asked

"Your our Lina now. We can feel your emotions" she said and I sighed looking at her. "My pack is gone" I whispered and she sighed moving my hair nodding "they are" she said and I closed my eyes crying. She quickly hugged me and I sobbed in her shirt.

I'm so sick of crying...

The door busted open making us jump and I looked seeing Mason there, "go away" I said putting my face in my pillow. "Anna. Leave" Mason said and I heard him walk closer, I felt Anna tense up and she looked at me worriedly "Now!" He barked using his Alpha tone making her stand up quickly.

"I'll see you later" she mumbled looking down and I nodded, she walked out closing the door behind her and I just bit my lip feeling his eyes on me.

I heard him walk around the bed slowly and tensed when he came into my view. He stared at me intensely with his hazel eyes and climbed on the bed making me tense.

"You're crying again" he said

"No shit Sherlock" I muttered and he tensed, he reached for me and I flinched closing my eyes digging my nails in my pillow.

I felt his big hand on my upper arm and he grabbed me pulling him closer making the sparks go up my spine.

I frowned as he wrapped his arms around me holding me to his chest...

What?

He's holding me.

I laid there tensely not knowing what to do, he put his face in my hair inhaling my scent and I bit my lip as my pain was going away.

Damn mating bond.

I felt Sarafina purring against his wolf smiling widely, at least someone is having fun.

I closed my eyes putting my head against his chest feeling our muscles relax, I can't believe I'm letting him hold me.

After everything he's done to me...

His fingers rubbed my spine making my body shiver from the tingles. He traced his fingers up my back and moved a strand of my hair behind my ear, all I could hear was Sarafina growling.

Oh gosh shut up!

'He's actually touching us. Nicely might I add. You're not happy?' She asked with a frown.

Of course not. I would be pushing him away if it wasn't for you.

'He's our mate. We still need his touch. We need him and you know it' she said and I bit my lip,

Traitor.

I hesitantly moved closer against him feeling the heat radiating off of him which was really calming. "You smell like nature" I heard him say as he sniffed my hair.

"thank you?" I mumbled not knowing what to say. I opened my eyes and slowly inhaled his scent, he smelt like rain and vanilla.

'Ooh. A yummy combination' Sarafina grinned and I rolled my eyes. He moved my braid over my shoulder and nuzzled his face in my neck making me tense.

Please don't mark me...

"I won't" I heard him whisper making me tense more. Oh god he can hear me...

I gasped feeling him kissing my neck softly, I looked at the wall biting my lip and he ran his hand down my waist to my hip pulling me closer against him. I put my hand on his arm as he growled kissing my neck.

What the hell is going on?

One minute he's a dick and another minute he's nice and touchy.

Ugh! so freaking bipolar.

I gasped as he nipped as at my skin "I'm not bipolar" he said and I blushed darkly, "get out of my head" i whispered as he began kissing my neck again.

"I need to know what you are thinking" he muffled against my skin and I bit my lip closing my eyes feeling the pleasurable tingles.

I don't want to like this but I do.

Again... Stupid mating bond.

'Let me out' Sarafina growled huskily making me tense.

No.

'Let me out. I don't care if you don't want him. I want him. Now let me out' she growled and I shut my eyes tightly feeling her trying to claw her way out.

No. No. No. No.

I put my hands on his chest pushing him and he snarled at me pinning my wrists down making my eyes widen.

He bent his head kissing my neck climbing on top of me and I whimpered shaking my head feeling Sarafina going wild.

I already know if I let her out she's going to want to mate with him immediately.

I don't want that.

I tried getting my wrists free but he only tightened his grip on them probably leaving a bruise, "Mason" I whispered nervously and of course he ignores me.

I looked around seeing the bathroom door open widely.

I bit my lip nervously.

He's going to kill me if I do this...

I felt Sarafina getting closer to the surface as he kissed my neck more hungrily growling lowly rubbing my waist with one hand.

Now or never.

Goodbye world.

I quickly raised my knee making it connect roughly with his private area. He grunted wide eyes and I quickly pushed him off me kicking him to the floor making him land with a loud thud.

I sat up quickly as he growled loudly, I squealed running to the bathroom quickly as he ran after me. I slammed the door quickly locking it as he banged on it loudly.

"Open the fucking door!" He yelled making me whimper backing away. I looked around nervously thinking of something to do but nothing came to mind.

I'm freaking out!

I sat down on the floor hugging my legs and covered my ears trying to block out his harsh yelling, I shut my eyes tightly just wishing I can disappear.

Why couldn't he just reject me?

Is this how it's always going to be?

Me living in fear of my own fucking mate?

I don't want to live like this...

I opened my eyes letting the tears fall and looked up hearing silence, I took my hands off my ears listening to anything but it was all silence.

I slowly stood up looking at the door and my heart was racing in fear. I walked to it grabbing the door knob going to twist it.

The door busted open making it hit me and fall to the floor banging my head, I yelped loudly and looked up in fear as Mason stood there breathing heavily in anger making me whimper.

He walked to me and I backed away panting, "I-I'm sorry!" I cried backing up into the corner of the wall, I huddled myself into a ball trying to cover myself preparing for the worst.

"Please! I'm sorry sir, I'm sorry" I whimpered closing my eyes crying, "What did you call me?" He asked and I looked up at him panting.

"What?" I whispered in confusion and he walked closer to me making me cry out in fear, "Sir! I called you Sir" I said quickly and he bent down to my height making me whimper.

"Don't you ever call me that again" he growled making me look at him, "Mason? what the fuck" we heard and looked up seeing Evan standing there angrily.

I looked at Anna standing behind him looking at me wide eyed and Mason slowly stood up, "Evan-"

I stood up quickly running to them and Anna hugged me to her, I put my face in her shirt whimpering and I heard Mason growl.

"What did we talk about before?" Evan asked walking to him "you're supposed to be protecting her and showing her love like a real mate. Not fucking traumatizing her! Look how scared she is!" Evan said and I looked at Mason as a tear rolled down my cheek.

"Can't you fucking feel her fear? I sure as hell can" Evan said looking at me and Anna moved my hair, "come on. Let's go to my room" she said softly.

"No" Mason growled making me flinch, "Fucking Christ Mason! let her relax for once!" Anna spat grabbing me and pulling me out the room.

She wrapped her arms around me walking downstairs and I looked back at the room feeling Mason's emotions.

Anger.

Guilt.

Sadness.

And of course more anger.

What is that the only emotion he knows?

***

I sneaked downstairs listening to anything, I found out today that the pack has a curfew so nobody should be in the kitchen.

I haven't eaten all day.

All that crying and sleeping made me sooo hungry.

I lifted the long sweatpants as it went under my heels, Anna was way taller than me so her pants were too long.

I held the pants legs tip toeing towards the kitchen and frowned as a light was on making me tense. I stood there biting my lip debating on wether or not I should go in or just go upstairs.

"Are you just going to stand there all night or are you coming in?" I heard and shivered as it was Mason.

God damn it...

I sighed walking in holding the pants and bit my lip looking at him, he turned his head looking at me and I blushed as he looked at me up and down.

"I didn't know you were in here" I mumbled putting my hair behind my ear.

"What the hell are you wearing?" He asked and I looked down at my short shirt and my sweats.

"These are Ana's" I mumbled and he just stared at me with his jaw clenched. "Your stomach is showing" he said darkly.

Well done captain obvious.

"Yeah" I mumbled and he growled "I can hear your thoughts you know" he said and I tensed.

Shit. I forgot.

He turned around walking to the island and put a plate down, I looked at the sandwich and chips.

"You haven't eaten today" he said motioning me to eat it "how did you know I was coming?" I asked frowning "I didn't. I heard you coming downstairs. I was making myself something to eat" he said turning his back to me.

"So then that's your sandwich" I said looking at it "well done captain obvious" he muttered and I blushed walking to the stool.

I sat down biting my lip "thank you" I mumbled and he grumbled nodding making himself another sandwich.

I grabbed the first half and took a big bite from it, I moaned softly as it tasted amazing.

Gosh it feels like I haven't eaten in days.

Crying all day really makes you exhausted.

I popped some chips in my mouth and looked at him as he closed the bread bag.

I focused on him trying to break through his walls.

'Why the fuck is she so gorgeous?' He thought angrily making me roll my eyes.

Only he can make a compliment sound like something harsh.

'Grr. Your beautiful. Gahh!' Sarafina said growling dramatically and I choked coughing as she laughed.

He quickly handed me a bottle of water and I took it drinking the water. "Watch the way you eat" he growled and I just drank, he went back to his sandwich shaking his head and I bit my lip smiling.

You're an idiot Sarafina.

She smiled sheepishly and I went back to eating, I looked back at him seeing he was already looking at me. He looked away going to the fridge and I focused on him again as he put everything back in it's place.

"Stop" he growled looking at me and I tensed "I can feel you in my head" he said making me blush looking down.

What a hypocrite. He can read my thoughts but I can't read his?

"That's exactly it" he said and I growled eating. He sat across from me slamming his plate down and I stared down at my plate.

'Grr. So gorgeous. Gahh' Sarafina whispered to herself snorting and I smiled softly eating. She smiled at me laying down and I looked at Mason seeing him staring at me.

"What?" I mumbled

"I'm sorry for scaring you earlier" he said and I tensed

If scaring is what you call that... "It's fine" I said and he just looked at me "why did you push me off?" He asked

"Why wouldn't i?" I asked looking at him "it's bound to happen again" he said eating the chips.

"What traumatizing me?" I asked and he tensed "no" he said slowly and looked at me.

'He's talking about the kissing' Sarafina whispered smirking.

I know!

"I don't think so" I mumbled and he shrugged "we'll see" he said drinking something and I looked at him seeing him smirking making me blush.

"You're the first person to really knock me down" he said leaning on the island looking at me.

"Well I'm glad" I said eating and he chuckled shaking his head.

Are we actually having a decent conversation?

'Seems like it' Sarafina smirked

"I would appreciate if you don't do it again" he said lowly and I just snorted, "don't molest me then" I said and he just ate watching me.

I looked down eating and put my hair behind my ear "Are you ever going to let me see my family again?" I asked tensely and he just sat there.

I looked up at him making our eyes meet "I don't know" he muttered and I tensed.

"Please" I whispered.

"I'll think about it" he said and I nodded. He sat there tensely and looked down at his plate "Are you coming back to the room?" He asked not looking at me.

He wants me to come back?

"Do you want me to?" I asked and he ran his fingers through his brown hair and nodded.

"O-okay" I said blushing and he just ate looking at the table. I stared at my food playing with the chips "can I ask you something?" I mumbled and he looked at me.

"What?" He said huskily

"What happened earlier.... Is that going to happen a lot?" I whispered nervously and looked at him dead straight in the eye making him tense.

'Are you nuts? You never look an Alpha dead straight in the eye!' Sarafina growled but I just sat there.

"Depends.... No..." He mumbled and I frowned "no? Or it depends?" I asked and he just stood up and walked to me making me tense.

I gasped as he grabbed a handful of my hair yanking my head back. "Don't. Test. Me" he growled and I looked at him cringing in pain.

"How was I testing you?" I growled back and he tightened his grip pulling my head back more.

He growled walking closer to me and placed a soft kiss on my neck "trust me kitten. you don't know what your getting yourself into" he said in my ear making me shiver.

"I'm getting the gist of it" I muttered grabbing his arm, he growled in my neck licking me and I shivered closing my eyes.

He quickly let me go and walked out the kitchen leaving me there.

Jesus Christ.

'That was hot' Sarafina said and I rolled my eyes

Freak.