'I'm in love with the shape of you, we push and pull like a magnet do. Although my heart is falling too, I'm in love with your body......'

I'm standing in front of Hunter with his thumb on my lip and my eyes are still closed when I swear I can hear background music. Like in the movies when you get a dramatic or intense scene and the perfect music for that moment starts playing.

Then in an instant, his thumb is gone and I open my eyes to see him fumbling around the shed to get to the actual source of the music.

'Last night you were in my room, now my bed sheets smell like you. Every day discovering something brand new. I'm in love with........'

"Hey Em, what's up?"

Of course, it had to be Emily!

Wait a minute! I let the words of his ringtone sink in.

"Yes babe, we're still on for tonight....they won't be home till tomorrow afternoon......."

He's trying to talk quietly but the shed is so small, I can hear every word.

"Ok....love you too. Oh and don't forget your toothbrush," he adds, whispering.

What the actual fuck!!!

"Sorry that was just Emily making sure we're still hanging out tonight before the parentals get home tomorrow, and before you ask, she put that ringtone on my phone."

I just state at him completely dumbfounded and he has the decency to look embarrassed, then he looks at the ground avoiding eye contact.

"So do you want to go get something to eat?" He asks.

"No!"

He looks up at me surprised.

"We could go for a swim in the spa, I know you enjoy the spa when it's raining."

"So that's it! You're just going to pretend like nothing's going on."

"What are you talking about?" He says, pleading ignorance.

Now, who's playing dumb!

"Oh, I don't know? Maybe the way you've been acting weird lately. The looks, the touching, the flirting, the mixed signals! Do you have feelings for me or not?" I say, getting louder and louder.

"Maddie you're my best friend and....."

"AND WHAT?" I shout when he stays silent too long.

"And things between me and Emily are getting serious!"

I stand there shaking my head.

"I'm sorry if........"

"THAT'S IT!, I can't do this anymore!"

He looks at me confused,

"Can't do what anymore?"

"This, us, I can't be friends with you anymore!"

"Maddie, what are you talking about?"

"I'm in love with you Hunter!"

His jaw drops to the floor and he just stands there staring at me.

"I can't pretend like everything's ok anymore, I've been hiding my feelings for you for so long now and I'm tired.

I'm tired of getting mixed signals from you, I'm tired of you flirting with me and touching me all the time, knowing it will never lead to anything and I'm really tired of watching you and Emily being so happy together!"

"But......but we're best friend's, we've known each other for years. I would've noticed if you were in love with me!"

"Well, you haven't! I've been hiding it for around two years now and........."

"TWO YEARS!" He shouts.

"Because I knew you just saw me as a friend. But it's too hard, I can't do it anymore."

"So that's it! you're just going to cut me out of your life. What If I don't want that? I don't want to lose you as a friend Maddie."

"I can't be around you and Emily anymore, I can't do it!"

"So you want me to choose, is that it?"

I feel so hollow, how did we go from being best friend's this morning, to this only a few hours later.

But there's no turning back now, I've made my declaration and I've made my decision, I'm not going to change my mind.

"That's just it Hunter; I'm not making you choose...I'm choosing for you,"

I quietly tell him, feeling completely deflated.

"Maddie please don't do this!" He pleads.

He looks so sad, I look at the ground so he can't crack through my resolve.

"I'm sorry, I have too."

And with that, I grab my bag and board and move towards the door.

Hunter grabs my arm to stop me before I walk out into the still pouring rain.

"Maddie, please!"

I shake him off, push through the door and carry on walking.

As I walk home in the rain the shock of what I've just done starts to hit me. I can't stop the tears, I've just lost my best friend....what was I thinking?

I stop and turn around, I take a couple of steps but then turn back towards home.

It's too late now, he knows I love him and he doesn't care.

We can't go back to how we were and I just can't be around him and Emily anymore pretending everything is fine.

Maybe this is for the best, Emily no longer has me in the way and I can start to move on from Hunter.

Before I get home I try to pull myself together, I can't deal with mum right now, I just want to be left alone.

When I walk through the front door, mum yells from the kitchen.

"Is that you Maddie?"

"Yes mum," I yell back.

"Back so soon?"

"Hunter's going out with Emily and I'm going to take a shower and hang out in my room."

"Ok honey, remember I'm going out with some friends tonight and there's some leftovers in the fridge."

"Ok."

Thank god she didn't see me and that she will be out tonight.

I hop in the shower and cry, actually more like sob.

I try to be quiet so mum can't hear me and I curl up into a ball in the bottom of the shower and just shake with the force of my crying.

Wow, this really hurts, like physically hurts!

When I finally stop crying I sneak out of the bathroom and jump into bed. I'm sore from crying so much, so I just lie there staring at a picture of me and Hunter posing for a photo at our first surfing competition, when we were thirteen.

Damn it, I start crying again.

Everything is ruined!

What am I going to do now, school is going to be so awkward, we have all the same friends.

Oh man, and what about his family.

We see each other all the time. His sisters are like my sister's.

I'm an idiot! That's really all there is to it.

I ruined everything cause I'm an idiot!

I'm so tired that I finally drift off to sleep.

When I wake up it's dark, the rain has stopped and the house is quiet.

I roll over and switch my bedside lamp on, sitting next to it is a note from my mum.

'Didn't want to wake you, honey. Gone out, won't be too late and remember there's leftovers in the fridge. I made some chocolate muffins too, help yourself. Love ya!'

I hope she doesn't want any muffins because I feel like drowning my sorrows in chocolate tonight.

I sit up and look around for my phone.

That's right it's in my bag that I threw in the corner when I got home.

I hope it's not wet.

When I pull it out it looks pretty dry, thank god.

I've already had a shitty ass day, I don't need anything else going wrong.

When I unlock the screen I see ten missed calls, six voicemails and four text messages just from Hunter and one missed call from Emily and Sienna.

I decide to ignore everyone, I've finally stopped crying and I'm hungry.

I open the fridge in search of food and immediately my eye's focus in on a newly opened bottle of wine. Mum's ok with me having some once in a while. Now that I'm only a few months away from the legal drinking age she's a bit more lax.

But tonight mum isn't here and I'm in desperate need of drowning my sorrows, and as much as I love chocolate, this bottle will have a much more gratifying result!

I leave the leftovers in the fridge and head back to my room with the bottle and a plate full of muffins.

After I've devoured the muffins, I take the lid off the bottle and let the alcohol do what it does best!