"Shay, what do you mean there's something I don't know and neither does Troian?" "Ashley, what if I said I'm pregnant?" "OMG Shay, that's great news! Why would me and Troian be upset?" "Because it's not just anybody's baby..." "Shay, no..." "It's Keegan's." Ashley just stared at me for a good five minutes. "Shay, why?" "We were supposed to hang out as just friends but Keegan missed Troian so things got heated fast. It wasn't on purpose. I would never do that to Troian on purpose." "Shay, I don't know if Troian will forgive you for this." "I don't know if she will either. God, maybe I should get an abortion." "Shay, don't you dare say that." "But nobody wants this baby. I don't want it, Keegan doesn't want it and Troian doesn't want it." "Shay, have you talked to Keegan about this?" "About the baby, yes. The abortion, no." "Well, you need to." When we arrived at the hospital, me and Ashley ran through the hospital straight to Troian's room. "Oh my gosh!" As soon as I walked into the room, tears started rolling down my cheeks. "Ashley, I can't do this." I walked outside the room and just started crying more than I ever have in my life. I heard Ashley talking to the doctor and what they were saying broke my heart. "Are you a friend of hers?" "Best friend and cast mate. What's going on with the baby?" "Well, I'm sorry to say this, but it looks like she lost the baby."

I heard Ashley talking to what sounded like the doctor. "What's going on with her baby?" "Well, I'm sorry to say this, but it looks like she lost the baby." My stomach felt like everything was being squeezed and that I was going to throw up. I wanted to wake up, but I couldn't. I thought to myself. This was the worst thing I've ever been through in my life. My heart felt broken and now that my baby is gone, it feels like a part of me is missing.

When I got to the house, I walked upstairs and just stood in the doorway of the room that would've been the baby's nursery. Even though it wasn't painted, there was no furniture or anything, me and Troian always said that if we were to ever have a baby, this would be the nursery. I already knew Troian lost the baby. There was no way that a helpless human being survived what Troian is going through. I still haven't told Troian but I made a promise to her and myself that when she wakes up from this coma, whenever it may be, I'm going to tell her what happened that night, even if I don't want to. She deserves to know the truth.