mundes

"So... Tell me." I sit next to Taylor. "Why are you being so distant?" I ask him. I mean, I know, we weren't close as before. I'm just missing the spark.

"I mean, I don't know what you want from me. I honestly don't want you leading me on. And if we're friends, tell me that will be just that." Taylor says to me. "Oh. So this is what that's about. Yeah, you're right. We are only friends." But I know it felt weird to say that.

I leave Taylor sitting on the couch while I walk over to the mini kitchen. I go against Matthew and whisper in his ear. "Taylor likes me?" Matthew turns around and chokes, "Of course not."

Taylor gets up and leaves the room. I stand straight in front of Matthew. "Matt, what did you do? Taylor and I were fine." He shrugs, "Told him you were straight. So now, I think he's pushing his feelings away."

"So he did like me. I mean, he should know that I'm pansexual. Why'd you say I was straight? Just because I've only dated girls doesn't mean that I won't try things with a guy." I say sternly.

"Shit. What do you like Taylor? And how can you be so sure he likes you?" Matthew snaps at me, forcing his arms crossed. "I mean, when I'm with him, I feel nice. I feel wanted. He gives me so much indirect attention just by when I walk in the same room as him. I don't know if it's a crush, but I do like him as a person."

Matthew shrugs and I still feel this heap of irritation. "Okay. Okay. Sorry, Shawn." Taylor soon comes back in after Matthews apology.

"I was just leaving." I tell the two and leave the room. Wait, my flannel that Taylor held on for me. I quickly open the door and see Taylor cupping Matthew's butt as their lips were locked together.

And oh, that's why Taylor was distant. Those hints to move on, they were probably directed toward me. But, I still felt like we had something going on...

- April 3 16