Where was he?

Jisung tried opening his eyes, but immediatley shut them again after the bright light, blinded his eyes.

What happend to him?

He blinked a few times, fighting the light.

His vision was blurry but he identified his surroundings as a white and blue schemed hospital room.

He tried to move but as soon as he did, pain flushed through his whole arm.

Now it hit him.

He did it.

He starred at the beeping machine, that indicated, that he was indeed still alive.

He didn't know how to feel.

Was he happy?

Did he still want to live?

Nothing has changed.

He is still the same as before.

But no....

He knew one thing.

He didn't want to die.

Till the last second he didn't want to die.

If he deserved to live?

He didn't know that.

But he didn't want to die.

No he did not.

"He's awake, he's awake", a familiar voice yelled.

"Oh thank god"

There was a group of people standing at the other side of the room.

A person ran up to him and quickly two arms were tightly wrapped around him. The person started to sob hardly and Jisung could feel the persons

grip around him tighten.

This person was Minho.

If only Minho knew what kind of person he was crying over.

"I-I love you Jisung", Minho whimpered in between his sobs. "I love you so much". Jisung bit his lip hard, hearing the elders words.

"..no...", Jisung let out a shaky breath.

"......don't say that hyung. Don't.....say that"

"It's okay Sungie. You don't have to love me back. It's enough for me that you are here with me", Minho whispered, looking up to Jisung.

"Hyung you.... stop. I- we....", Jisung was unable to form a sentence.

"Shhh don't say anything. You have to rest", Minho whispered, while caressing the boys cheek. Jisung leaned into the elders hand, melting into his toutch.

Suddenly his face darkened. His eyes began to widen while he slowly began to crawl backwards on his bed.

His fingertips clinged into the matress and his breathing got unsteady.

"Sh-hit, s-shit-t", Jisung stuttered while tears started to form in his eyes.

He looked into Minho's face. Minho's expression was filled with sadness and horror while starring back at him.

In the corner of his eye he could see the other members that also had an horrified expression written over their face.

"What's wrong Jisung", Changbin said worried and everyone came closer, surrounding Jisung.

"Jisung talk to us", Chan grabbed the boys shoulders.

"Hyung I don't want to die", Jisung said. His whole body was trembling.

"That's a good thing. Isn't it?", Chan said in a comforting voice.

"I have to die", Jisung shook his head.

"What are you talking about huh?", Changbin said slightly angry. "Sungie why are you doing this to us", he yelled at Jisung while he started to tear up.

"Persons like me don't deserve to live"

"What kind of person?", Changbin asked.

"I can't tell you", Jisung whispered while turning his head into Minho's direction.

Why did he say that he loved him?

Did he knew about it?

Did he see how disgusting he was?

"Why? Why are you like this?", Minho asked silently and it felt like something in him died at that moment.

"I love you Minho. That's why", Jisung chuckled slightly, wiping the tears of his face. "People like me don't deserve to live am I right? Everyone knows that...everyone does. I don't want to die..... but I can't do anything about it", he laughed again.

"Pathetic isn't it?"

"Who told you that?", Minho asked concerned but Jisung just shook his head, crying.

"Jisung who told you that?", Minho's voice started to break.

"He would kill me if he knew....He said he would kill his son if he would turn out like that", Jisung yelled desperately.

"Fuck Jisung! I am so sorry", Minho deeply, engulfing the younger into a hug again.

"Jisung you should know that you should never feel ashamed about the one you love. Love in every way is beautiful. It's not disgusting Jisung"

"But it's not normal hyung"

"Who cares if it is. Who wants to be normal anyways?"

"Minho is right Jisung!", Felix said now.

"Noone of us thinks you are disgusting", Seungmin said.

"Jisung you should have talked to us earlier. You know we would never judge you", Hyunjin said.

"Are you guys serious?", Jisung asked nervously.

"Of course we are", Chan said softly before pulling everyone into a big group hug.

"You guys promise me that you will always stay with me, okay?", Chan said. "And if anyone has worries, I am always here to talk to you! You guys understood?"

"Understood!", everyone answered in reunion.

"Channie and if you have worries you can also talk to us", Jeongin exclaimed.

"Understood", Chan chuckled relieved.

Jisung started to cry for the fourth time now today but that time it were tears of joy.

He loved his friends.

He felt save and happy for the first time in a while.

He felt, he deserved to be happy.

He felt loved!

3 month later...

"Sungie baby wake up"

"Just a little bit more hyung. It's so warm and comfortable right now", Jisung groaned.

"But baby I am really craving your kisses right now. I don't think I can endure it for long anymore", Minho said overly exaggerated.

Jisung turned around while huffing softly before opening his eyes just to see the sparkling eyes of his boyfriend right infront of him.

"You are lucky that I love you so much", Jisung said while giving Minho a soft peck on his lips.

"Yes I am indeed lucky", Minho grinned. He threw himself onto the younger without a warning, leaving thousands of little kisses over his face.

"Ahhh hyyuuuung", Jisung fake whined.

He was unconditionally in love with Minho.

And Minho was in love with him.

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Welp I guess that's how the story ends.

I hope I didn't dissapoint you with the ending and if I did please don't tell me in the comments since that would be kind of unmotivating.

Anyways should I write more angst?

I feel like I got good ideas in my mind but I can't rly put them onto paper.

I dunno if it's because my lack of english skillz or the fact that it's hard for me to portray deep emotion in words......🙃

"Road not taken part 3"