God I'm so ridiculously nervous, what if they blame me, what if they never listen to me again?.

Looking into narutos room I see something strange throughout his room are thousands of mini sky lanters ... Okay fine not thousands but their were heaps!

Looking at them I saw each had a word written on it in perfect calligraphy glancing around I saw naruto with his head on his hand and ink on his face.

Looking at him I saw his breathing become laboured and his heart sped up when his body started twitching I ran over instantly understanding.

Shaking him roughly he jerked awake I watched his eyes fly around the room before landing on me he then went back to making mini sky lanterns.

"Naruto... We have to tell everyone today..." I spoke softly...

To answer he threw a piece of scrunched up paper at me reading it it said one word AFTERNOON

confused I left why in the afternoon does it have something to do with the mini sky lanterns?

Walking around I asked everyone too meet outside at 5 o clock for an important announcements.

I've been making these sky lanterns since eleven o clock last night after I woke up from a nightmare of seeing kiyoshi die over and over.

It was then I decided to write my words down, my last actual words will be said this afternoon before I send all the things I wanted to tell kiyoshi up to him.

It seems to me that words are just going to get me hurt I would much rather stay silent and write my thoughts down.

To me a person like kiyoshi needs the perfect send off.

I just hope he doesn't hate that his killer organised it... I'm sure the other kids will hate me

Later that afternoon naruto had finished there were exactly forty two blue and forty two pink sky lanterns

Just enough for two each for everyone at the orphanage...

The time now was exactly 10 to five so I decided it was time to call everyone.

Walking to the middle of the room "MIIINNNA!!" I yelled

It took two minuets for absolutely everyone to be here...

"Everyone could you all please come to my room and get your two different coloured sky lanterns" I murmured to them

Luckily they all heard so I didn't have to repeat myself one by one they went to my room and I handed them their sky lanterns.

Walking outside with mine and queenis sky lanterns I handed her hers.

"Guys... Can you all quiet down please we have some grave news to tell you" I said choking down a lump in my throat.

I cleared my throat and began...

" a couple of weeks ago you might remember queeni dragging me inside bleeding..." I choked out trying to hold in the tears chorused of agreement were heard

"Well that's not all, on my way home from ... Ji ji's I forgot about the villagers... And they saw me and chased me." I told them tears were flowing freely now

"I was so close to home when a knife thingy was thrown and it hit my leg so I couldn't run as fast., and then I was thrown by some fire just a couple hundred yards in front of the orphanage."

"By now I couldn't move... That's when they gave me those scarred words" I whispered

Looking into the crowd I could already see some of the older kids crying.

"When they uhh... Finished with me they were ready to kill me... They threw a sword at me that would have killed me ... But someone stepped in front of it."

I was full on sobbing by now...

"One of our nii San stepped in front of it..."

Gasps were heard throughout the yard everyone was crying now waiting for the news. I fell to my knees and said

"Kiyoshi nii San is gone I cried out

Thats when people started sobbing, I grabbed my hair tugging on it trying not to scream out in anguish.

I rose my head and released my lanterns... Soon everyone else had their own lanterns flying into the sky.

We sat there crying for what seemed like hours before everyone started to leave.

I just sat their staring blankly at the floor tears cascading down my cheeks I gave a start when a hand went on my shoulder.

Looking up I saw queeni telling me to go inside and rest careful of my leg I went inside only now noticing how dark it was.

Tomorrow everything will change no words or anything, no one else will be hurt because of me... No connections

That night I laid in bed thinking about what having people close to you does, tomorrow I would not talk again, I don't want people close to me...

I thought before falling into a seemingly endless nightmare where kiyoshi dies over and over and the villagers plus mistresses faces flying around in my head.

Your pathetic

Why did I die for you

Wolf in sheep's clothing

Monster

Demon

Murderer

Let's kill him

Let's finish what the fourth started

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