BEN'S POV

Parties have never been my thing but somehow everyone seems to love going to parties.

It was loud and annoying. But my team was celebrating so i had to be here

We finally became national champions and they were going crazy about it.

Everything feels too real for me. I wish i could make things different.

I was never the perfect brother. The one thing i could have done right i did wrong

"Why tf are you all by yourself and why the hell are you drinking water" Sam shouted so loudly, it wouldn't matter cause the music was so loud

I ignored him and continued sipping my drink

"Bro you've got to see this" Andrew came running in, he looked really drunk

"Abey is messing with some fag dude" he laughed

Some fag? Who says that?

"Come on bro, let's go see" Sam nudged me

I stood up, leaving my glass behind, even i was curious, i wanted to see what the excitement was about

I got upstairs where almost everyone gathered, it wasn't so loud in here. Appearantly everyone had gathered round. I pushed through the crowd

I noticed a smaller dude on the floor with just his boxer. I've not seen him before, but what does it matter

I noticed he had dick drawings all over his body

Everyone was laughing, giving side remarks, taking pictures.

"Ben my boy" Abey walked up to me. He reeked of alcohol

He was laughing just like everyone else

"Came to join the fun?"

I moved slightly away from him

"What's going on?" I asked watching the shy dude on the floor. He looked a mess

"I caught this bitch in my bathroom, you won't believe he was watching me strip"

"You had your fun huh?" He laughed as he kicked the boy on the floor, who just hid his face in shame

He kept laughing

"I bet he enjoyed it, got aroused from watching me? fag"

I exhaled

I hate getting involved in things like this

I faced Abey

"Bro come on its not worth it, let it be"

He laughed

"Why? Cause you're a fag too"

I sighed

"Hey get up" i reached out to the smaller dude

He hid his face obviously embarrassed

Everyone started making boo sounds.

"Ben, what are you doing"

I ignored him

"Dude if you don't get up i might have to carry you and i know you wouldn't want that"

He stood up immediately, still hiding his face

I took off my varsity jacket placing it around his shoulders

"Cover yourself"

I turned to leave but Abey stood in my way

He smirked

"Why are you helping this fag?"

I shot a glare at him

"Didn't your mom ever tell you that 'fag' is an inappropriate word?"

He scoffed

"Why? Cause you're a fag too? Ahh i see now. Hey everyone his little sister is also a f"

I didn't let him finish his sentence. I rushed him immediately

I hate being violent but nobody says shit about Ava and leaves in one piece

Most people kept shouting

'Fight fight fight'

But we were quickly pulled apart by the other members of the team

I smirked when i noticed blood running from his nose

"Ben wtf" Sam said holding me back

I pushed him off

"Don't you ever say trash about my sister" i glared at him

Abey sat on the floor laughing

I pushed pass everyone

"Let's go" i shouted at the smaller dude

I felt so furious right now. This is why i hate parties, you always see things like this

When we got outside

I shouted, kicking the trash can in front of me

"Fuck, fuck, fuck, fuck!"

I exhaled

"Hey you, did you really do what he said you did?"

He looked down, holding my jacket tightly obviously cause of the cold

"No i didn't, it's just.." he bit his lip

"Never mind"

"Yeah whatever. I need my jacket back"

He looked at me shocked

"But then I'll be, but, I'm basically naked and it's freezing"

I shrugged

"So?"

He scoffed in disbelief

"Why are you all football jocks alike?"

"Here, you can have it" he took off the jacket

Was i supposed to do more?

"I don't get why you're acting all entitled and what do you mean by football jocks? What more do you want?"

"The least you could do is leave me with the jacket or maybe get me home safely" he scoffed

Am i really hearing this?

"Look at you being bold, having balls to speak. Why didn't you speak out when they treated you like that in there?" I pointed towards Abey parents mansion

He kept quiet

I sighed

"Look, don't let anyone bully you because of anything at all? There's no such thing as a faggot to me, so i don't care about whatever they said in there. They're just immature and stupid. You have the right to love who you want to love, it's not a crime to feel"

"Here" I pushed the jacket back to him

"You can have the bloody jacket back"

"Thank you" he mumbled

I walked down towards my car

I could have given him a ride but what do i care

I just want the night to end already. Thank God ill be out of this shit hole real soon

When i got home everyone was asleep. I walked quietly upstairs. I stopped when i got to Ava's door

My heart was racing fast. I remembered what mom told me yesterday.

I pushed her door slightly, gently not to make a sound.

I noticed Ava and Aliyah tangled in each other's hold

I closed the door gently, smiling

I walked back downstairs

I received some emails this morning from some schools that i applied to

I deep my hands in my pocket

Wait

My phone

Fuck. I kept it in my jacket

Sorry for the late update