my eyes snapped open at the thud sound that echoed throughout the whole house, i figured that Heejin would be back and with that thought my whole mouth dropped. Taehyung was in this house!

i rushed downstairs not caring to grab a shirt passing through the stairs with speed but as I reached down i didn't see Heejin but I saw Taehyung sitting there on the ground with a bowl that had some batter beside him, his hands covering his face. The kitchen was a mess with flour decorating the table heavily and milk covering the floor.

'what the fuck happened here?' i thought but quickly snapped when i heard a sniffle, i reached to my nose and figured 'stupid its not you, its him.' i widened my eyes and walked towards him, i patted his shoulder and he looked at me,

god his face was covered with flour and his eyes puffy and nose even puffier

"w-what happened? are you okay?" i asked and that's when i realized that Sooyoung wasn't lying when she said i was socially incredibly awkward. 'is that a question to ask Jeon?' He then without saying anything else replied

"i-i can't do anything without her, i thought i could wake up this morning and make pancakes for you as a form of apology, b-but i can't do shit. i used to make pancakes with her daily! i can't even stand, i feel numb. I FEEL NUMB. i realized that even though it hurts, i am nothing without this pain" i slowly went and embraced him before he could say anything else, he started shaking and sobbing on my chest continuously and all i could do was hold him for now, for now.

last night

did people actually expect me to go to Sooyoung's house after that and hear she and seulgi's uncontollable moans? the fuck!

where was I? i am currently in the bedroom of Hirai Momo, yes the nerd of our school. she doesn't exactly talk to anyone except for me, because we are 6th cousins, we spent a whole 6 hours figuring out which numbered cousins we were.

i asked her whether i could stay because my brother believed that i am staying at Sooyoung's house, and today's a thursday meaning its the foursome day for the boys so yes i had no other choice

Momo welcomed me sweetly and honestly we had a lot of fun, watching HULK and that is something i would watch after a break up.

i saw Momo sleeping on the other bed in the bedroom, i sighed and turned my head back and stared at the ceiling, 

'tomorrow she is leaving' as that thought kept repeating, i was scared of the fact that what if she doesn't want to see me tomorrow. she didn't bother asking whether i was after i told her that i will not be at her house. i-is she pissed? did i confess too fast? did i ruin our friendship? NO i didn't, if she can't mature up and face the fact that i like her and instead start ignoring me, its not my fault that i confessed!

with all these thoughts going through and mainly the kiss imprinting on my head i went asleep missing the warmth of Yoon, My teddy bear. how could i forget Yoo---

present

"you want to make it together after coming back from the Airport?" he asked smiling at me, and i smiled back slowly nodding my head.

"i don't need any form of apologizing, i forgive you Taehyung, i know you weren't in the right sense. also i will teach you how to make pancakes alone, you don't need anyone. because we came here alone we might as well leave alone" he said and i nodded, i got up from the floor and dusted off the flour that were in my pants and that's when i realized 

'damn he built' THE FUCk

"i'll go get ready then, her boarding is in 40 minutes i suppose" i said as he nodded and we both left but not with him not forgetting to give me a pair of clothes. 

'why is everything black here?' is stared at the clothes and sighed,

i quickly washed my face and wore the clothes, i stared at myself in the mirror, 

"don't be vulnerable Taehyung, no one likes that" i said to myself and winked at my appearance and left downstairs, to see Jungkook motioning me to come fast.

we both sat in the car and we left off to the Airport,

i hummed to the song that was playing in the car and i snapped my head towards him when i heard Jungkook sing,

"a-ah sorry i have the habit of singing in th--"

"NO i mean no continue, you sound ethereal" i said and he quickly mumbled a thank you, and continued to sing slowly,

'I'm the one I should love in this world

Bitnaneun nareul sojunghan nae yeonghoneul

Ijeya kkaedara so I love me

Jom bujokhaedo neomu areumdaun geol

I'm the one I should love'

i smiled slowly turning my head to the window and breathing deep relaxing.

as we reached the airport we could see that we were the last ones to reach, we saw all the boys, Seulgi messing with Sooyoung, when she saw us she quickly motioned us to come there and without hesitation we both went there

"how come you guys are together?" Jimin asked and we both sighed replying to that question, it all suddenly became silent after I mentioned about the break up. i had to break the silence as i didn't want to spoil the mood of Sooyoung anymore. i could tell, she was taking the entire blame

"he forced me to watch Mean girls" I whined and Seulgi laughed,

"Taehyung Mean girls is known to cure breakup syndrome" seulgi exclaimed and i widened my eyes seeing Jungkook cooing and giving her a high five.

as they all kept talking, i went to Sooyoung who was standing there quietly,

"hey--"

"i am sorry--"

"young, we both were distancing since i too had an issue similar to this, we both realized that we were going to be toxic as in a relationship, we have decided to be friends, although it may take some time to adjust to that, we both are fine and none of this is your fault" i said patting her head,

she smiled sadly at what i said "stop patting my hair, i didn't shower" i immediately removed my hand and wiped it on my jeans cussing under my breath when suddenly i felt my body collide onto something, Sooyoung. she was hugging me, SHE WAS HUGGING ME!

"I Know i rarely show affection but thank you alot Taehyung, from being my first ever guy friend and for taking care of my best friend. i believed i wouldn't cry but i can't help it. as much as i want to go pursue my dreams i want to stay here with you all. i am going to be all alone in the US and i don't know what to do Taehyung-ah"

she said helplessly, 'people who smile the most are the most sad', it wasn't a lie

"young-ah you will make friends there just as fast as you made here, we will never lose touch with you, we can't do that. i love you so much more but i love you even more when you take a shower, like girl when did you take a shower last time?"

we both laughed "are you guys done?" we both nodded and sooyoung went hugging everyone but stayed the longest with Jungkook,

"oppa thank you for staying with me, thank you for being with me when SooHyun died, thank you for being my brother. i will miss taking control over you. i beg you to never forget me, i will be here after 2 years. PLEASE Please wait for me, i-i love you Oppa" she said as she started crying more and clutching to Jungkook, for the first time i saw Sooyoung crumbling, jungkook who also was on the verge of crying until a drop finally fell down,

SooHyun was her twin brother and Jungkook's best friend, and that's how she and Heejin met. SooHyung got early age cancer at the age of 10 resulting him to die and leaving all three depressed. within all that time, Jungkook became Sooyoung's brother and their relationship became stronger than ever, even though they have never said i love you to each other in their entire life, their friendship was the ultimate goals known throughout the school.

soon she removed herself from his embrace and had some small chit chats, she picked her luggage for leaving sadly for the reason we all knew until we heard a squeak come and grab Sooyoung away and catch her in an embrace, it was the reason, Heejin.

"w-were you going to leave without saying anything to me?"

"i t-thought YOU WOULDN'T COME"

"w-why wouldn't I?" with what Heejin said Sooyoung stayed quite until Heejin spoke again,

"y-you know, i tried to practice a whole speech to tell you but i forgot everything, i tried to find words but i always ended up with a I love you, because nothing can express my love for you. not even that, i don't even know what i am saying! i am sorry for ruining what we had but i promise you i will never leave you, even if you want to leave i will never leave, because i know love hurts but goodbyes hurt more. how lucky am i to have a person that i can call my " with that said Sooyoung started sobbing more, she finally found a soulmate, a soulmate who is hers for life

i turned around to see Jimin side hugging me, and i leaned to him more as we watched Sooyoung wave to us from the other side,

i felt someone hug me from my other side and i saw Heejin hugging me and i hugged them both tight,

sometimes all you need is a soulmate and a good happy place. 

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my will to continue this story is as small as the flaws in BTS. hope you all have a good day and please stay safe and take care,,,,

with love,

hobisbravery