i woke up with a sharp pain hitting my head, i slowly opened my eyes, adjusting to the light. i felt myself in a soft surface which i am pretty sure is a bed, but then suddenly i felt arms wrap around me, 

"Heejin move let me get--- why are your arms so buff suddenly?" i turned to look at her and started to scream at the sight of a person whose face was stuffed in the pillow, the person woke up and looked around confusedly clutching on his head, finally when we both made eye contact we both started to scream.

 i jumped from my bed and saw Jungkook cover his eyes immediately, i then looked down to see me butt naked. i grabbed and pulled the blanket and cover myself but that uncovered jungkook, and he got up from the bed but immediately fell down, i slowly went to his side and checked up on him,

"STOP DON'T COM--" he said but too late as i immediately put my hands on my eyes. i hid inside the blanket and said

"y-you c-can change from the b-bathroom" he immediately nodded and left waddling, i soon realized why he was waddling and mumbled a 'fuck'. as he was changing i quickly got up and put on my clothes only to see my underwear was ripped, my eyes started tearing up in realization

'i just cheated on my girlfriend'.

i soon heard the bathroom door unlock and i turned my face to the opposite side, fiddling with my shirt pretending to put on my shirt buttons.

"Hey uhm Taehyung do you remember what happened yesterday? my butt hurts a lot and why were we both naked, i mean i sleep withou----

as he kept talking, i slowly started to sink in to what we did yesterday

okay first we were drinking, then we were in the dance floor drinking again, then oh shit. all the memories hit me like a truck, a fucking heavy truck

flashback

"fuck fuck u-upstairs" Jungkook moaned as I began sucking on his neck harshly, i hurried as i dragged him with me and entered several rooms, all occupied

we finally found a room and i pinned him to the wall and again began sucking on his milky skin, god he smelt heavenly, Jungkook moaned and grabbed my hair and interlocked his fingers in it

i slowly grabbed his waist all while decorating his neck and pushed him on the bad hovering over him,

"I-I need consent" I mumbled fast looking at his eyes which were dark hopefully just like mine,

"please"

"please what?"

"fuck me"

⚠end

holy shit

"T-taehyung? what did i do yesterday and why the hell are you tearing up? did i do--" he asked innocently as worry washed his face and guilt in my eyes.

"we fucked" i mumbled but it didn't reach his ears

"what i didn't hear you corr--"

"WE FUCKING FUCKED!" i screamed out as tears fell on my cheeks and i soon looked up to his face to see it deforming from confusion to regret, I sigh see tears forming and he fell on the bed gasping for air, he was panicking.

he then soon realized why his body was aching and started to touch his neck feeling harsh bumps on them,

"hey jungkook, calm down. i need you to breathe" he soon started to follow my motions of breathing inward and outward.

"i-i j-just did something terrible, i hurt my family. i don't want to believe this please tell me this is just a nightmare, please Taehyung" he was sobbing and telling looking into my eyes, his only family, i was surprised about one thing, he never blamed me for it

"w-why aren't you blaming me?" i asked sobbing as well, he looked up at me as i stared at his glistening eyes

"because it's our both's fault, we shouldn't have drunk so much. don't put all the blame on yourself" he said gasping for air

"OF COURSE IT IS MY FAULT, I SHOULDN'T HAVE MADE YOU DRINK, I SHOULD ENSURED THAT YOU WOULD BE FINE, I SHOULDN'T HAVE HYPED YOU UP, i should have agreed to going home and playing overwatch with you" i screamed and said as more tears fell, he looked at me and sighed

"we both were equally drunk Taehyung, let's not focus on who's fault it is and rather on how to m-make this alright" i heard his hiccup in between,

"J-Jungkook there are some things which can never be alright" he looked at me, shaking his head and mouthing a no

"there's a solution to everything, we can either tell Heejin the truth or pretend that this never happened" he said looking sad but firm

i had to choose one

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"let's pretend that this happened, it was all a mistake anyway" i nodded at him

"we never speak a-about this to anyone, got it? especially Heejin and you love and treat her the same way" i said firmly, rubbing my tears away harshly.

"i promise"

"i promise too"

my first ever time was nothing but a mistake, i couldn't help but frown at that. that's not something to frown about right now jungkook, Heejin should never know that her family is a disappointment.

"i-i lost my first kiss and my virginity not knowing about it" i said chuckling sadly as he spoke soon

"you know for a fact, we never kissed" i looked at Taehyung and furrowed my eyebrows, did he want to kiss or something, what is this asshole saying--

"meaning i knew that i would regret it" he said looking down, i sighed and huffed up my shoulders forcing a smile, regret

after almost 2 minutes of silence i decided to speak up,

"well then Taehyung-ssi it was nice spending time with you and i think its time for me to go home and i suppose you as well should go home, thank you" i said smiling and bowed to him to which he bowed back and said a 'bye'

"we can do this" i mumbled to myself

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soon enough i reached home and took a deep breathe and painted a smile on my face as i opened the door, i then saw Heejin playing with her phone, she looked up to see me and quickly came to me and hugged me laying her head on my chest,

"what happened my princess?" i asked to her and she shaked her had mumbling a 'nothing'.

i held her tightly afraid she would leave me anytime,

"by the way where were you last night?" she asked smiling to which i gulped but quickly smiled and said calmly

"i found myself lying on the side sofa of the party or something, well i am here no there's nothing to worry about" i said booping her nose to which she giggled,

"well then let me go freshen up and then we can have some breakfast huh?" i said to which she nodded

"yes, your breathe stinks" she said scrunching her nose and i laughed flicked her forehead, she then gave an 'ouch' and pouted to which i made a funny face, she giggled to that. suddenly her phone rang,

"oh Tae, jungkook you go freshen up by the time i will talk to him" i flinched when i heard his name and nodded and slowly made my way to the room, i closed the door and slid down the door as the tears slid down my face.

"i can't do this"

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I am seriously on the verge of giving up, but if you guys like this, please do vote and comment, it will signal me whether to continue the book or not.

thank you,

Hobisbravery.