Instead of hiding back in Theo's room after another failed attempt at sneaking around the house, Theo took me to his office which was found on the same floor as his bedroom.

Theo insisted that we had much more to talk about and he would rather do it in his office than his own bedroom.

Walking into his office, I was astonished at how large it was. Yes, I've seen Alpha offices before-- my father being Alpha had one that I saw may times before. Instead of sitting at the front of his desk, Theo pulled up two seats at the end of desk. He gestured me to sit down next to him.

"So..." I trailed off, wanting him to begin the conversation. I had so many questions to ask him, but I didn't know where to start.

I seemed I had be lied to all my life and the only person willing to tell me the truth was Theo.

He cleared his throat before he spoke; "I know you have a lot of questions--"

"True." He raised an eyebrow towards me as I unnecessarily interrupted him. I sheepishly smiled before gesturing him to continue. Before continuing, a small smile crept on his face sending my wolf in complete bliss.

I was beautiful seeing him smile, I rarely did. I mean it was only recently did I found that he was truly my mate-- after being weary of him when I couldn't feel like bond myself. So I suppose part of the reason I never saw him smile was my fault, I never gave him a reason to.

"I will answer whatever questions you have." I looked down to my knees, and with the position we were sitting our knees were almost colliding with each other but there was still distance.

"Why did you kidnap me?" I knew he had already answered this question before, but I never got the extent of why.

"I told you, because your pack kidnapped my brother."

"Yes, but what were you going to do with me? How was it going to help your brother?" I looked up to see Theo looking directly in my eyes, the emotion within was unknown to me and it angered my wolf slightly to know that we were yet to know what he was thinking and to know what he felt because we had not gone anywhere further with the mate bond.

"And who's fault is that?" My wolf piped up, I could imagine her snarling and baring her teeth at me for keeping her so locked off from her mate, especially since he was yet to see her.

Before answering my question, Theo looked down at his knees as he took a deep breath. "We planned to torture you." My heart squeezed.

"What?"

He looked back up, a frown deeply nestled on his face. "We planned to kidnap and torture you before information. And if you didn't have any information or refused to give up any information then we would have threatened your pack. Adrian's life for yours." Every word that he was saying was going straight to my head.

Being so close to him and seeing him at his weakest didn't make me forget that he was a known monster and that he had done terrible things, but I had forgotten the extent of it. The man that was crying in my lap only hours prior to this had planned to torture someone to get what he wanted?

"Oh--" I thought he was done, but it seemed that he was only getting started.

"We didn't plan to kidnap him daughter," He backtracked, scanning my face of any emotion but I made sure to block anything from being seen on my face. I didn't want him to read me like a book when I couldn't do the same to him, I had no idea how he felt at the moment.

"We planned to kidnap the first wolf we saw, it was only luck that it happened to be the Alpha's daughter." Theo paused for a moment, his bottom lip falling between his teeth as he leaned back in his chair.

Despite the atmosphere in the room and the topic of conversation, this made my wolf feel quite happy.

"So you were going to torture any innocent wolf for what my father had done?" Theo's head shot up and I couldn't mistake the glare on his face for anything but.

"No one that was working within your father's circle is innocent." I could see he was trying hard but to snarl and growl at me-- my father was a sensitive topic.

"I'm innocent." Somewhat.

"You're not really in your father's circle though, are you?" As much as it stung, he was right.

I wasn't in my father's circle. If I was then I might have known the dark secrets he was holding and everything he was hiding from me.

While thinking, I froze. A thought popped up in my head and I needed the know the answer-- so I turned back to Theo.

"Does my brother know about what happened-- with my father?" Theo's brows furrowed as he thought, and while he was deep in thought I couldn't help but think of how he looked while he did so-- and he looked great.

"Probably not," I let out a sigh of relief. "But I'm not sure." I froze again, only to think once again.

Did my brother know? Did my loving, pillow eating, brother know about what my father had, and if he did-- did he agree with it?

I hummed back at Theo, leaning into the seat as I stared down at the ground.

There was a moment of silence between Theo and I, however it was comfortable. It was always for my wolf's constant purring, all I would hear would be the wind crashing into the window.

"Do you have anymore questions, my dear?" His endearment didn't go unnoticed but neither myself or my wolf-- causing my wolf growl lowly in approval and if if wasn't for the fact the was inches away from him, I would have swooned.

Once again there was a moment of silence between I thought of a question; "Why did my father take your brother?" That question froze Theo momentarily as if he wasn't thinking I would ask such a question.

His brother was one of the reasons I was here, so I wanted to know the details-- call me needy.

"And I believe that was enough questions for today." With a painfully fake smile, Theo stood up and pulled his chair back in place before putting his hand out for me. I stared at it then looked back up at Theo.

"You said you'd answer any of my questions."

He nodded. "Yes but I believe that you've had enough answers today." My eyes narrowed towards him.

"I don't." He held a growl in which only rumbled in his chest.

"Holly, don't test it."

"Don't test what?" I questioned, lifting myself up from the seat-- ignoring the hand that was stuck outwards for me to take. "Why won't you answer my question?"

"Because I don't wish to. Plus, it's none of your concern." I scoffed, rolling my eyes at his words.

"I'm your mate, anything that concerns you concerns me." At my words, his brows raised as he stared down at me.

"No, you don't get to think like that." I backed up slightly, my wolf whining at how our mate was speaking to us. "You haven't even accepted me as your mate yet."

He had a point, but I refused to allow him to use that excuse on me.

"Regardless, we are still mates Theo! What is yours is mine and what is mine is yours." Speaking those words out loud shocked me. I had never once called Theo my mate out loud, especially to him.

Was that me accepting him, finally, as the person I was destined to be with?

It was clear that Theo was hesitant with the question, it was clear he didn't want to answer it. But, he did say that he would answer any of my questions-- and this was one of my questions.

"Theo please, what does my father what with your brother?" I asked again, walking closer to my mate as he leaned his back on his desk, his arms holding the edge of the desk as he stood. While his stance was inviting to both my wolf and I, I was focused at the question at hand.

He sighed, looking straight in my eyes before he spoke; "Your father had always been obsessed with this family. My brother, Adrian, absolutely hated your family, your pack-- hell excluding you, your pack could burn it hell for all I cared--" The look I sent his way caused him to roll his eyes, getting back on track of his story.

"Even though my brother and I fought to become Alpha, my brother never really wanted to be Alpha he was mainly forced by our uncle to want it. And while our relationship was tainted by his defeat, it was mainly because because he was embarrassed to have lost to his little brother instead of losing his rightful place of Alpha.

He knew everything about our parent's deaths and about your father. He believed that being an Alpha was an absolute wreck and he didn't want any part of it.

But one thing he loved and one thing he pursued was tracking-- he was the best tracking in his pack, hell in the bloody world." The way Theo spoke of his brother-- along with the ghost smile that was on his face--, it was obvious that he looked at to him and that despite the differences between them he still loved him to the ends of the earth.

It was clear he truly cared for his family, with the way he reacted to the news about Cardella, and now the way he was speaking of his brother.

Theo continued; "Adrian trained to be the best tracker out there, he was amazing at what he did-- not one rogue got away. He even found his mate on a mission, she was a rogue at the time but soon after he found her she was beloved member of the pack-- despite her rogue, and rough, past." Theo brows furrowed for a moment, as if he was recalling something.

"One day he was out tracking around the border, there were scents near the edge-- familiar scents-- and he went after them. He was telling us via our mind-link everything that he would see and everything that was going on." I could tell that Theo was getting angry now, but the way his teeth were unconsciously gritted and he was unknowingly seething with every word he was saying.

"He tracked himself to something he shouldn't have seen. He was so into finding scent that he didn't realise how close he was to your pack's border-- he had ran that far and the scent was so fresh. It was that moment that he realised that he had been leaded to your pack and he had fallen into a trap that your Alpha--" The way he spoke the word was as if he was spitting it out. "--had set. Before he could get away, he was caught by hunters of your pack. He was knocked unconscious and that was the last time that we heard from him.

And it's funny because one of the main reasons I beat him for the Alpha position was because he wasn't fast enough. He, once again, wasn't fast enough to outrun your pack."

I furrowed my own eyebrows at the end of Theo's story that led me to nothing. "But that still doesn't tell me why my father took your br--"

Theo pushed up from the desk, his body so close to mine that it was almost pressed.

"That's the thing, little one," While his endearment almost made me swoon in his arms, there was a slight harshness to it. "We don't know the reason." As he spoke his breath blew in to my face slightly, the smell of the herbal toothpaste that was stored in his bathroom invaded my scents.

"Wa-- what?" I registered what he said. Theo had a sarcastic smile on his face, it was small but it was still there.

"Yep," He popped the P, his face being so close to mine that it had my head bob back slightly. I hoped he didn't notice but much to my embarrassment he did, hiding his own chuckle at my reaction before continuing. "Your father keeps taking the people I love from me for no reason, a hobby of his maybe?" He let out a humourless chuckle, his hand finding it's way in my hair only inches from my neck.

"I'm sorry." I didn't mean to say it, I knew it wasn't going to fix and change anything but I didn't know what else to say-- my father was slowly but surely destroying my mate's life. And it made not only my wolf growl in anger, but it made me want it growl in anger-- however I held it in.

I doubt growling in your mate's face while he was reminiscing on his lack of family was the greatest thing to do at this very moment.

Theo, however, openly laughed in my face at my apology. "Why are you sorry, you had no part in your father's cruel child's play."

"But that's just it, it's my father's doing. I can't do anything but apologise for his wrong doings." Theo sighed at my words, placing both of his hands on the tops of shoulders as he leveled our eyes.

"You don't ever need to apologise for what your father does. None of this is your fault and you shouldn't believe otherwise. Just because your father isn't as pure as you doesn't mean that you need to be there to pick up the pieces he leaves."

"But I--"

"No, Holly." Theo stopped me, looking deep in my eyes. His eyes held so much emotion in it that I was wondering how on earth he was known as a heartless emotionless monster-- because that wasn't who I was looking at right now. "Never apologise for someone else's wrong doing."

I wasn't staring at the monster that everyone said he was, I was looking in to the eyes cold-hearted, blood thirsty killer. I was looking in to the eyes of someone who had lost almost everything had such a young age. I was looking in to the eyes of someone who felt lost and alone in the world, who cared for his family that best that he could.

I was looking in to the eyes of my mate, a man that had everything he loved stolen from him-- of course he was closed off, he was afraid. No one wants the people they love taken from him.

Having Theo's hands on my shoulders warmed my entire body from the breeze coming from the window, my wolf was in a constant loop of purring the second we entered this room with Theo-- his touch only driving her to the edge.

She was in love with Theo's touch and I understood the appeal.

My reaction was impulsive but that didn't mean that I wasn't constantly thinking of doing it every time I was in his presence. I felt Theo about to retract his hands from my shoulders, I could already hear my wolf whine at the thought of losing our mate's touch, and I pulled him back closer to me.

When I realised that Theo beginning to move away from me, my hands shot up instantly to his neck. I grabbed the back of his neck and pulled him close to me in an instant. Just as we were close enough, I leaned forward and enclosed his lips with mine-- instantly feeling the bliss that I felt the first we kissed.

The first time we kissed was sudden and out of the blue, I wasn't ready but at this very moment the tables were turned-- I was ready whereas Theo was taken by surprise.

The second our lips touched, I was in complete and utter bliss. Our lips moistened each other as we collided. Theo was quick to recover form his shock, his arms soon finding it's way around my waist and gripping tightly on my body as he pushed our bodies closer.

My hands that were once grabbing the back of his neck now grasped on to his face, the hair that was growing on his jaw stabbing into my skin with how hard I was gripping but I wasn't complaining-- and either was he.

Spinning me around, my back was now against his wooden desk and I feel his body weight on mine as he leaned closer to me, no space existing between our bodies. I couldn't focus on anything but how his lips felt on mine.

They felt like they belonged her, his hands that were digging into my waist felt as if they had found their place nestled into my body. Overall I felt at home in his arms, with his hands all other me.

It only took him seconds to lay me flat on his desk, his desk being big enough on other bodies to mesh together. Without detaching his mouth from mine, he climbed his way up the desk while pressing his body weight on his shoulders that were on either side of my face.

Instantly, my legs wrapped around his waist, pulling him impossibly closer than me.

His lips finally detached from mine only to find it's way on my jaw, the stumble that designed his face was tickling me as he moved which made an unconscious smile find it's way on my face. He kissed along my jaw, and down my neck up, pecking at my collarbone before going up to the nape of my neck.

While everything I was feeling was beyond amazing, I knew it was time to stop when I felt his canines grazing the skin of my neck-- where I wound bare his mark-- with his heavy breath heating up my skin.

My eyes shot up as a reaction, my hands that were once on grasping at his hair was now firmly on his shoulders as I began pushing him away.

"Stop," My voice was breathy, with all the intimacy between I had not realised that we didn't pull away for some air, leaving me literally and figuratively breathless.

Instantly at my words, Theo pulled away-- his eyes darkened clearly showing me that his wolf wanted to come out to play but he was trying to pull him away. I could hear my wolf growling at me for stopping before it got good.

"I--I'm not ready." I stuttered, my face red hot with all of the emotions I was feeling. I didn't want to stop, hell I would rather go all the way despite being on his desk but I knew I wasn't ready for it all-- I knew going into it now, I would regret everything.

Ever since I came here-- taken here-- I became so unsure about everything, I didn't know what was true and what was a lie. I didn't know if I was sure of anything anymore, so if anything-- I wanted to be sure of this before I went too far.

Hearing my words, Theo's eyes returned to it's blue heaven, a small smile found it's way on to his face and I knew it was genuine. Getting off of me, he pulled me off of his desk and straightened out my clothing that had gotten ruffled due to our-- canoodling.

While doing everything, I noticed Theo was avoiding any chance of meeting my eyes.

"Theo," I spoke up in hopes that he'd look up but all he did was hum in response. I brought my hands to his face, forcing him to look up. In his eyes I could finally recognise an emotion in them, hurt. I couldn't help but ache at that, the wolf within whining.

I brought his face closer to mine, pressing a gentle kiss on his lips before pulling away-- his face still inches from mine.

When I pulled away, he was hurt no-longer but a smile was found on his face as he gazed at me, his eyes now filled with warmth as we stayed inches away from each other.

His hands found their way back on to my waists, laying their gently as they found their home. At that moment, Theo had leaned his forehead onto mine and gently nudged my nose with his. I couldn't help but purr.

I could get used to this.