Suddenly i heard the carhorn. Daryl stopped the bike on the middle of the road. The others stopped too.

Daryl and i turned around.

They got out of the cars.

Daryl asked Dad"you out?"

Dad nodded.

Maggie shook her head "We can't stay here."

Glenn " we can't all fit in one car."

Dad "then we gotta make some runs for gas in the morning"

Carol "Spend the night here?"

Carl whined "i'm freezing"

Mom "We'll build a fire, yeah?"

Daryl "i'm going around looking around for firewood. stay close"

Dad took his jacket off and offered it to me because he saw me freezing.

I shook my head and nodded at Carl.

Dad "Ken-"

I shook my head"Carl is freezing more than i am"

He nodded. I saw Daryl taking his jacket off.

He handed it to me.

I sighed "Da-"

Daryl "I'm not even cold"

I nodded and put it on. It was big on me but it also was so warm.

Maggie "We can't just sit here with our asses hanging out"

Hershel "Watch you mouth. everyone stop panicking and listen to Rick"

Dad nodded "Alright, let's create a perimeter. In the morning let's search for some gas and supplies. We keep pushing on"

Maggie "Glenn and i could go now and take some gas."

Dad shook his head"no, no we stay together. God knows what happens when people get stranded without a car"

Glenn "Rick, we're stranded now"

Dad nodded "i know it looks bad, we've all been through hell and worse but at least we found each other. I wasn't sure...i really wasn't but we made it. We are together. We keep it that way. There's gotta be a place. "

I sighed "Dad, there are walkers everywhere we turn. You can't even pee in peace without fearing that a Walker could show up and bite you "

Dad "there's gotta be a place and not just a place -"

Me "Somewhere safe"

Dad nodded "i know it's out there. We just need to find it. "

Maggie "even if we find a place, we would never be sure for how long?look what happened with the farm. we fooled ourselves with thinking that it was safe. "

Hershel shook his head"i'm not making this mistake again"

Dad "we'll make a camp tonight. over there. We can get off the road at the end of the day. "

He pointed at a little quarry.

Me "you sure?"

Beth "What if walkers are coming by or a group like Rendall's?"

Daryl "You know, i found Rendall, right? He's turned but wasn't bit. "

Dad looked at me.

I sighed " they have to know, Dad"

Dad nodded.

Carl asked confused "know what?"

Beth "how is that possible?"

Daryl "Shane killed Rendall just like he always wanted to."

Me "Thank god, that at least one of you is on my side"

Daryl flashed me a quick wink.

Mom "and then the herd got him?"

I grimaced.

About that..

Dad "We're all infected. "

Daryl tensed"What?"

Dad "At the CDC, Jenner told me, Whatever it is, we all carry it."

Everyone but me was shocked.

Carol "and you never said anything?"

Then she looked at me "or you?"

I held my hands up to defend myself "Hey, hey, hey, i found out when Shane died"

Dad "Would've made it a difference?"

Glenn "You knew this whole time?"

Dad "how could i've known for sure? you saw how crazy he was-"

Glenn snapped"that wasn't your call. When i found out about the walkers in the barn i told it for the good of everyone"

Dad "Well, i thought for best the people didn't know"

Then it went silent. Dad walked away. Mom followed him.

He was going to tell her about Shane.

I began to shake.

Daryl turned to me "You ok?"

I shook my head.

We were all sitting around a fire between these old walls. T-Dog was on watch duty standing on a wall.

I was sitting against Daryl's side while he had his arm around my shoulder. I was cuddling into his jacket trying to sleep.

Suddenly i heard Carol whisper to Daryl "We're not safe with him. He hid something like that from us"

I raised an eyebrow. Good that my face wasn't facing them.

Carol whispered "why do you need him? he's just gonna pull you down. "

Daryl shook his head"no. Rick's done right by me. "

I smiled.

Carol "you're his henchman and i'm a burden. We deserve better."

Daryl raised an eyebrow"What do you want?"

Carol " a man of honor"

Daryl "Rick has honor"

Suddenly there was a noise.

Daryl shook me and we all stood up.

Beth asked scared "What was that?"

Daryl "Could've been anything a deer or-"

Me "A walker"

Carol "We should leave. i mean what are we waiting for?"

Glenn "Which way?"

Maggie"they came from over there"

Dad "Last thing we need, is for anyone to run off in the dark. We don't have the vehicles. No ones traveling on foot"

Hershel to Maggie"Don't panic"

Maggie shook her head "i'm not. i'm not sitting here waiting for another herd to blow through. We need to move, now"

Dad snapped "no one is going anywhere"

Carol "do something"

Dad snapped at her "i am doing something!. I'm keeping this group together. Alive. I've been doing that all along, no mater what. I didn't ask for this. i killed my best friend, for god's sake"

Everyone but me was shocked. Again.

Dad "You saw what he was like, how he pushed me, how he compromised us, how he threatened us. He used the whole Rendall thing, he pulled me out behind my back. He gave me no choice. He was my friend but he came after me. "

Carl began to cry. Mom held him.

Me "Wanna be mad at him for that? You all wanted to kill Shane at some point"

They looked at me.

Me "Dad just had the guts to do it. And to be honest, i would've done it if Dad didn't do it. But hey, getting to put a bullet in Walker!Shane's head was quiet satisfying. "

Mom looked at me shocked "You did what?"

Me "He came at me. I was only defending myself. You think Shane was a good guy? A good guy wouldn't rise his hand at me "

Mom froze, shaking her head "i didn't know"

Dad "My hands are clean and so are hers. Maybe you people are better off without me. Go ahead. I say, there is a place for us but maybe...maybe it's just another dream ...maybe i'm fooling myself again. Why don't- Why don't go you out there and find out yourself?. Send me a postcard. Go on, there's the door. You can do better? let's see how far you get. "

I looked around but no one was moving.

Dad "no takers? fine. But one thing's straight. you stay. this isn't a democracy anymore. "

He looked around and walked away..