After I left it was raining and I had to walk and as soon as I got home I ran into my bedroom not wanting to talk to anyone.

Why me

Why now

Why did he do it?

Was all I could think of

I felt tears going down my cheek and before I knew it was balling my eyes out.

After an a hour of crying I had red eyes and my nose was red and it was runny and yes I was still crying but silently since I didn't want my parents to notice I decided to go to the store and get some food since we were running low but before I could leave "WHERE ARE YOU GOING" my dad yells I looked at him "To the store we don't have much food" I say in a low trying not to cry"WHY ARE YOU CRYING" he says in a angry tone but he also looked worried "he cheated on me" was the only thing I said before the phone rang my dad picked it up "Who is it" he said annoyed "It's for you,you annoying bitch" my dad says handing me the phone "who is it" I say into the phone with a tired voice "josey let me expla-" before he could answer I hanged up and started banging the wall with my hand my dad noticed "Listen kid I'm not the parent but personally what I would do is cut his off like ignore him" my dad says before taking a swig of beer I just nodded then headed out the door I had on a black hoodie with grey sweatpants when I got to the store I got bread,butter,milk,cereal and all that basic stuff I decided to get some paper and envelopes just in case.

TIME SKIP

After I got home I went into my bedroom with the sack I didn't even look at my whole bedroom cause my eyes were on the ground instead I faced the door and started banging it crying I was so done with my life,I turned around my gaze was met with a pair of eyes on me it was Eddie to be honest my chest ached seeing him, he stood up and held his arms out I ran into his arms and began crying while he rubbed my back "he cheated on my with her why me Eddie please tell me why is it always have to be getting my broken by guys" I said while crying.

After 15 minutes of me and him talking he had to go.

I was so tired but before I could go to bed the door whipped open it was my mom "CLEAN THE DAMN DISHES YOU WORTHLESS PIECE OF SHIT YOU CANT DO ANYTHING RIGHT THATS WHY YOUR FATHER AND YOUR LITTLE BOYFRIEND LEFT" my mom yelled at me crying I could hear the pain in the voice "ok I go do it now" I said silently when I stood up I was met with a punch in my stomach and in the face she kept hitting until my pulse was slowing down after 10 minutes she got off of me "Just leave this earth why did I even have you" she says giving me a nasty look.

So I wanted to please her I ran the bath with a sharp knife but it but before I did it I wrote my letters.

To Mom

I'm sorry for all the trouble I caused you I love you so much even if you don't love me so since I love you I wanted to please you by making your wish come true.I'm sorry for being disrespectful I'm sorry dad left I'm sorry my brother died I'm sorry for me existing.

Love,Josey

To Mike and El

I hope you and el last long you guys are such a cute couple I'm so proud of you kiddo I know in the beginning you didn't like me that much but it was probably because I was intimidating I'm sorry about that mike I hope you have a good healthy life.El I love you so much I hope you

And mike have a wonderful life you are so

Pretty el don't let anyone tell you different especially Angela she's a bitch anyways love you bye el.

Love,Josey

To Max and billy

Max oh max you are such an amazing kid you are also very good at skating I don't think I told you this but you made my life worth the wait I love you so much I even tried skating one time but I fell down and scarped my knees but at least I tried right?.Billy I'm sorry for everything I'm sorry for not listening to you I'm sorry for wasting 6 months of your life but I hope you and that girl really do workout I wish you the best billy and max love you max bye.

Love josey

To Steve

You were my actual first friend I remember the day so well I was crying in my car and you came and helped me you made me so happy Steve I'm sorry it had to end so soon but I wish you the best of luck and hopefully you find that girl of your dreams buddy don't give up I love you so much Steve bye.

Love josey

To Lucas and Erica

Oh my god my favorite sibling duo Erica you are so sassy I love it and you are so straight forward i remember all the nicknames you gave to Murray and Eddie I love you Erica I hope your life becomes a great one and Lucas I hope you have the best of luck with basketball especially with that championship you won the winning point I was so proud of you you did amazing I love you bye.

Love josey

To Nancy and Jonathan

You guys are the nicest and cutest couple ever Nancy I hope your job at the newspaper reporting thing goes good and I want you to know that you are the nicest person ever and Jonathan I hope your photography dreams come true I hope you succeed in life and I love you guys bye.

To Will and Dustin

Oh my dusting and will I remember the first time I met Dustin he thought me and Steve were dating because of how close we were god you were so intimidating and will I remembered that time when I beat you in dnd and you were upset so I had to buy you ice cream god you were so dramatic but I love you guys bye.

Love josey

To Robin

When I first met you me and you just clicked and I love your humor and personality and if anyone didn't like you I would be very surprised because you are everybody's dream and I love you so much I hope you have a good life and don't keep the job at the arcade or scoops ahoy I love you so much bye.

Love josey

To Eddie

Oh god Eddie I'm just gonna be straight with you as soon as I realized billy was the one in that moment I knew you were I am so in love with you I remember that one time you made out with me so we could make billy jealous because of what happened you were always a good friend I love you so much Eddie I hope you have a good life I love you bye.

Love josey

After 25 minutes of writing the letters I put them in envelopes now was the time I was gonna end it all but before I could the doorbell rang I decided to go answer so I hid the knife and put the envelopes on my bed and went downstairs and opened the door.

It was everyone

Nancy

Jonathan

Steve

Robin

Eddie<3

"W-what are you guys doing here?" I questioned with a worried tone realizing the letters I left on my bed before I could say anything they ran in and went to my bedroom I felt my heart drop I ran to my bedroom and got the envelopes before they could read them I hid them in my closet "What was that josey?" Steve asks worried "Oh just you know mail" I said trying to hide my nervousness "Oh alright but why do you have so many?" Robin asks concerned I swallowed my spit and before I could answer Eddie was making his way to my closet I stepped in-front of the closet "Move" Eddie says in a stern voice "Why" I said anxiously and sweating "Because I can tell your lying" he said with a angry face "Wait" Nancy says "Josey what's on your face" Jonathan asks "What?" I say confused then after a few seconds I realized what they meant "Oh uh mom she got upset" I said my hand was shaking so I put them in my pockets "Lemme see your hands" Steve says while getting up from my bed "Why?" I say with a nervous smile "Because just let me see" he says with a worried look "Josey are you okay?" Jonathan asks with a confused look on his face "Uh yeah duh why wouldn't I be" I said but before he could reply Eddie and Steve moved me and Eddie reached in the closet to get the "mail" "WAIT" I shouted my heart racing Steve's arms were around me holding me back Eddie got the envelopes and went through them "josey can I talk to you alone" Eddie says with obvious anger in his voice lol me into the bathroom and saw the bathtub "What is this" he says holding the envelopes up "mail" I say blankly "IM NOT FUCKING STUPID" he shouted I flinched because I didn't wanna get hit again today especially after billy and my mom "Tell me what it is now" he said with tears in his eyes "mail" I said again "Fine so it's okay if I read them right?" He says opening the one that has E on it which was his "NO" I shouted which made him look at me "josey what are you not telling me" he says looking at me that's when he noticed the knife in the trash can "YOU GOTTA BE FUCKING KIDDING" he shouts at me "what.."I say confused he grabbed the trash can and pulled the knife out "WHY JOSEY WHY" he shouted at me with tears rolling down his cheek and that when everyone came bursting through the door...