We enter Kevin's brand new apartment where him and Julia have been spending the last months. I kick off my shoes in the hallway before sitting down on the couch, soon being joined by my friends. Travis puts on some music for us to listen to before opening his backpack, pulling out four vodka bottles and putting them on the table.

And all I am is a man

I want the world in my hands

I hate the beach but I stand

In California with my toes in the sand

"Four bottles?" Billie asks. "I don't even drink, y'all are going to die."

"It's Ember's birthday, Billie! I had to drive all over town to get these," Travis explains before opening one of the bottles. Billie sighs.

"I think I'll skip the drinking tonight", Kevin says and Julia smiles at him.

"You are really starting to mature, aren't you?" Julia asks him, grabbing his arm.

"As if he didn't drink until he passed out last weekend", Billie says and we all start laughing.

Use the sleeves of my sweater

Let's have an adventure

Head in the clouds but my gravity's centered

Touch my neck and I'll touch yours

You in those little high waisted shorts, oh

"Give me some of that," I say, leaning back in the couch while feeling Billie's gaze on me. She's sitting on a pillow on the floor a couple of feet away. She hates it when I drink, I know that she hates it. She wants me to be present, not drunk or high. She wants me to be here, but it's hard when here is the worst place on earth.

She knows what I think about

And what I think about

One love, two mouths

One love, one house

No shirt, no blouse

Just us, you find out

Nothing that I wouldn't wanna tell you about, no

Travis smiles before pouring up some vodka in a plastic cup, mixing it up with soda before handing it to me.

"Thank's", I say before lifting the cup to my mouth. It tastes like shit because Travis sucks at mixing drinks but whatever. It works. My stomach aches from the liquid and I star coughing a bit before laughing. Travis starts laughing as well before mixing up a drink for himself.

Billie glares at Travis before pulling out her phone from her pocket, scrolling through Instagram or something.

Travis then pours up three shots for him, me and Julia.

"Happy birthday Ember!" He screams before drinking. I take the shot as well before drinking from the soda bottle, trying to make the vodka taste go away.

'Cause it's too cold for you here

And now, so let me hold

Both your hands in the holes of my sweater

It doesn't take long before two of the four bottles are empty. Me and Travis are black out drunk from drinking almost all of it. I stand up from the couch to walk over to Billie who slightly smiles at me.

"Are you okay?" She asks.

"Yeah. I'm amazing", I sigh. I love this feeling.

"I love you," she whispers in my ear.

"I love you too," I say, putting my hand on her cheek before kissing her. "You... are so hot."

"And you", she starts. "Are so drunk."

"Shut up," I say, kissing her cheek softly.

"Make me," she says with a smile.

"Oh I will-"

Suddenly, Travis pats on my back, making me turn around.

"Can we talk?" He asks. I look at Billie before looking at Travis.

"Okay," I say, thinking it's pretty weird but I follow him as he enters the bedroom, closing the door behind us.

"Look what I got from the dealer," he says, showing me a small plastic bag.

"Did you seriously get weed?" I ask, laughing before grabbing the bag and inspecting it.

"Yeah, just for us. I'm sure the others would be pissed if they found out", he laughs.

"I bet so", I say before smiling at my friend. He then walks over to the balcony door and opens it and I follow him. We sit down on the concrete next to each other and I start looking at the sky. It's kind of a purple shade that I can't really explain.

Travis hands me rolling paper and two filters. It dosen't take long before I roll upp two joints, handing one to Travis. I put it in my mouth and my friend lights it for me. I inhale the thick white smoke, feeling it burn my lungs before exhaling it out in the sky. I watch as Travis does the same.

We sit there, and I soon watch the moon, noticing that it seems to be moving.

"Can you see it?" I ask Travis.

"What?" He asks. I put my arm around his shoulders and point at the moon.

"It's moving, right?" I ask.

"Yeah, it's moving," he says.

I take another hit before exhaling the smoke, feeling more calm than before. My eyes feel a bit dry, though. I shut them and lean back against the concrete wall.

"I love the smell of outside."

"Me too."

I look down at my hands. Did they always look like this? I look at every single vein, trying to see how they all connect with each other to make my body work. I look at Travis, who is just leaning back against the wall, breathing slowly. I finish smoking before throwing the joint off of the balcony, watching as it falls down to the ground.

As I stand up, the sky starts falling, but I don't care. I love it.

"Are you okay?" Travis asks, standing up and tripping over. He falls into my arms and we both start laughing loudly.

"That shit's funny", I say and we laugh even more. We go inside and find the others who are still in the same positions as before, listening to music. Julia has a drink in her hand and Kevin has his arms around her.

"What took you guys so long?" Billie asks as I start to approach her. Suddenly, the room starts to spin and I trip over, falling towards the table. I hear a loud noise as my head collides with it, and suddenly I'm on the ground, watching as the grow smaller and smaller.