Chapter 6

SeniaMarie Milano

I laid in my bed scrolling through my phone seeing my Nana come to my door.

"You good baby?" She asked and I nodded.

"Why you lookin' so stressed girl?" She came sitting beside my bed.

I shrugged setting my phone down.

"Maybe cause I am nana..." I trailed off.

"Stressed bout what girl?"

"More than you know." I breathed. She raised her brow and I instantly knew what it meant. After telling her all that had went down with Rah she fixed herself and turned towards me.

"Well what do you wanna do?" She asked with her brow raised.

"What you mean what I wanna do nana, I already let him know that I wasn't bout to leave you and Tae out here it's just as plain as that." I said settling it.

"Girl don't be ouchea living your life on me." She scowled.

"Take me out of the equation. What if it was only you and Deontae?" She asked and I really had nothing to say.

"Exactly..." She rest her hand on my leg rubbing it as she looked back at me.

"I'm gonna be good girl." She smile causing me to chuckle a bit.

I knew it was a bit much and I feared it. I feared what could happen. Opening my phone I saw all of his miss calls and text deciding to call him.

The phone rang about twice before he picked up.

"You good?" He asked and I smiled small.

"Yea. You?" I asked biting my lip slightly.

"Always....."

It was a lil silence before I decided on speaking again.

"Rah, we needa talk."

It was quiet again.

"If it's about the whole house shit I'an even on it ma' trust that."

He spoke sounding as if he'd given in.

"I think it's best we talk about it, and what I want." I urged.

"What do you want Senia? Huh?"

He spoke sounding a bit aggravated.

"Cause last I checked I made sure of everything you wanted you had. You makin' shit seem as if I put you last or sumn'."

"When haven't I put you first?" He asked and I had no response.

He was right he always made sure that I had all my needs and wants. He'd always made sure I never lacked.

"Don't even worry bout it." Was all he said and the line went dead.

I rolled my eyes getting up. I didn't know why he was so upset about this, I know it had nothing to do with rushing but I had to admit that I just didn't feel ready.

I didn't know if I trusted him like that.

Rahmik Ford

I sat on the edge of my bed smoking my blunt as I looked down at the paper work that the realtor had sent. If it wasn't for her atleast it'll still be sumn of mine.

I just hated how fuckin' hard headed and stubborn she was. Trust was a fuckin lack and I understood her feelings towards me, when it came to that. But at this point shit for me was getting frustrating.

Every other month on end I gotta listen to her tell me what some bitches coming up to her sayin' they fuckin with me and then her stupid naive ass go listening. I was tired of all that shit. Rumors scattered these fuckin streets like wildfire and her ass was on deck to believing whatever these hoes had the say.

I heard a knock come from the front door as I got up to go and open it looking at the monitor I laughed to myself.

Opening the door she stood there and I sighed moving to the side letting her in.

"How you got here?" I asked her not knowing how many times I told her not to be ouchea taking no bus and walking.

"Erin dropped me."

"Why you just ain't told me to come get you from the start?" I asked her as she innocently looked at me.

"You know you be doin' too much right?"

"Rah, I'm sorry ok." She breathed.

"Sorry for what? You only goin on how feeling..." I trailed off.

"I'm just sayin, for me it's different..." she said as I jerked my head back and looked at her confused.

"Whatchu mean different?"

She looked around as if she was about to try and gather some words.

"How do you expect me to just up and go like that, I've been though it all, being let down, mistreated, put last like nothing you don't know what that's like..." She said as looked like she instantly regretted it.

"Wow, so it's bout us not having the same come up, you feelin like you grew up always havin to watch yo' back...."

"Even with me." I said shoving my hands in my pockets letting out a chuckle and shaking my head.

"I ain't never been the type to throw shit in yo face bout how I take care you. I ain't Neva did no shit that had you second guessin' me." I watched as she grew uncomfortable at my anger and her eyes began to water.

"The women Rah, Candace y-"

"MAN FUCK ALLAT SHIT, you be on some fuck shit listening to them fuckin burgh broads!" I yelled in her face as she flinched.

"Dealing witchu I ain't fuck on nobody. You better fuckin get that. You'd let these bitches come to you and say anything and it's fuckin gospel." I spoke loud as tears now slid down her face.

"I told you shit with Candace is business and if you feel like it was sumn else then fuck whatcha feelin'. I'm yo nigga. Me! It's me who be fuckin you, me who be havin yo ass bent over cryin'. Me who keepin you straight with wants and needs-"

"And you wanna talk bout bitches like Candace." She was now in full blown tears

"Get that fuckin insecure shit outta here ma." She tucked her lips as I walked over to her grabbing her face

"I ain't grew up on that hard shit, but don't you ever fuckin' try to tell me what I'an been through" I said letting go roughly walking to my room leaving her there.

Same shit with her all the time. I shook my head picking up another blunt that I already had wrapped. I lit it putting it to my lips.

I really hated arguing with my shorty, that shit angered me more. I've made it clear time and time again that it ain't no other woman on this earth I craved like I did her. She was just everything a nigga wanted.

Everything a nigga needed.

"Babe I'm sorry." I scoffed looking straight ahead.

"I'm just so scared Rahmik, I don't know what to do I'm puzzled." She said coming over to the bed, her voice now cracking.

"Scared of what Nia, what the fuck you gone do when it's time for your grandma to go back Baltimore?" I asked her just letting it all out.

I finally look over to her as she looked back at me confused.

"What're you talking about?" She asked as I took a drag.

"Not my business to tell but what I do know is your ass not leaving New York." I spoke my final words as she stood there confused and I placed my blunt back at the tip of my lips.