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I ran, uncontrollable tears rolling down my eyes. As the topping on the cake, I wasn't even wearing my glasses and hit every other person in my way who in return, spat insults at me.

"S-huh Sorry!" I said as I hit another person near the door. He started laughing at me and I lifted my head to look at them. Jack!

"Oh I see, you got your gift." He stared at me from up till down in disgust and started to walk away. Turning around towards me, he spoke again, "tell your friends to keep their hands to themselves." Listening this a sob escaped my lips. Everyone around was staring at the green mess that was me. All I wanted to do was to run, dig my own grave and burry myself in there.

I walked out of the door and went where my legs were taking me. "Stop! Spar-" I didn't let Carter complete.

"Oh, just shut up!" I accelerated my speed as I wiped my damp cheeks from the back of my hand, going in the opposite direction from him.

"Listen to me! Please, stop!" He ran towards me, I could tell by his fast, loud footsteps I heard.

"Why? Why Carter? Why should I stop? So that you can make more fun of me?" I chuckled, humourlessly. "As if I'm already not the joke around," I yelled.

"Would you just listen to me?" He held my wrist from behind.

"No! Now let me go!" I tried to yank my hand away from his grip but he clutched it even tighter, turning me around with the great force.

"Listen. To. Me. Sophia!" He roared.

"Or what?"

"What will you do? Break my hand? Slap me? Kick me? Throw something at me? Push me in a cockroach pool? Do whatever the f_ck you want to do. I'm not scared of you!" His grip became even hard on my hand making me cry in pain. "Why don't you just shoot me? Or best, throw me from a high building? Or even best, lock me in a room to die?"

"There's a slight chance you might get caught so why not just burry me alive? I'll die eventually." Hearing this he instantly let my hand go and looked down.

"Sophia," he sighed, shaking his head. "Please.... just hear me out," He let out, his voice was so pleading I couldn't refuse. I breathed out, my anger residing as I nodded. "I won't lie, my friends planned this. If only I knew, I wouldn't have let it happen."

"Why? Don't you hate me now? Bullying me! Playing with me! That's what you love, right? Do it! I'm permitting you to-" he kept his hand on my mouth, stopping me from saying any thing more.

"Sophia, I didn't know they had planned it. Heck I didn't even know they all were coming! I would've never invited you if I knew they were coming. Why can't you believe me?"

I shrugged, "you haven't given me a reason to."

"Sparky.... I didn't do it! I swear."

I sneered, "why are you even giving me clarifications. It's not like it matters, either to you or me."

"Sophia it do matters," he just leaned back. His eyes held such mixture of emotions, I couldn't point them out. If only I had known how to read eyes.

"Thanks a lot for today! I really enjoyed the green cockroach bath. Who in their right mind wouldn't? Hope this isn't a permanent hair dye." I referred to my hair which were now drenched in green liquid and fake laughed. "And so what if it's a dye? I'll just look funny, that I always look, so it won't be an issue. I had a great time! Bye!" I started to walk away but not before noticing the guilt in Carter's eyes.

"I can drop you!" He suggested.

"Oh no. Don't bother yourself. You enjoy, I'll be fine. I guess Isaac and Lia are going back in some time. I'll be fine with them."

*****

Lia and Isaac knew what happened the other night. Lia went wild and we had to control her from not killing the hell out of Carter. Isaac, well he didn't say anything and drove in silence.

His eyes kept traveling back to my face and I couldn't help but squirm in my seat due to his intense gaze. At a moment it even felt like we would meet an accident because of him.

When we were about to reach at my house, Lia tried to start a conversation. "So, Isaac! Did you enjoy today!?" Lia asked.

"No!" He replied in his firm tone, plainly, and after that neither did I say something nor did Lia. I saw my house nearing and I couldn't be anymore happier.

"Bye Sophia! Are you sure you'll be alright?" Lia asked me as I opened the door of the car.

"Yeah, I'll be fine. Bye! Thanks Isaac," I closed the door behind me.

"It was my duty! Take care, okay?" He asked and I replied with a nod. "Bye!" He said, giving me a small smile and drove away. Rebecca was sleeping and to find her laying peacefully on the couch I was relieved because I could go straight to my room. That eased me because I couldn't handle her knowing about my position right now.

After taking a long shower to release my anger and clean the mess they made of me, I was free to sleep. My feet were aching badly and each and every bone in my body was screaming for mercy. I didn't look at myself in the mirror because I was scared. I was scared to see how much more funny I'll look with this 'new look'. More like I didn't had the courage in me to accept myself for who I was now. I wasn't surprised to see that this was a dye.

I had expected this the moment I saw Jack pass by. And the mastermind Carter Reece was also involved. Of course it had to be something really destructive.

It wasn't new to me. But the only thing different this time was that, Carter knew me. I thought that maybe, just by chance he would stop with all the bullying. Also I was happy that this week was going to be a no bullying week but I assumed things very early. I Guess, I was wrong!

I cried myself to sleep but when I woke up I forgot everything and went to the washroom as I did every day.

When I saw my reflection in the mirror my heart sank. Everything that happened the other night came back. I stood there staring at my reflection as I touched my disgusting green hair lightly. A lone tear fell from my right eye. I knew that by know my pictures would've been viral on the internet. I mean, why would somebody spare a chance to capture the moment when a nerd gets humiliated in a party and show it to others? They get a chance to be popular, why will they let it go?

Why does it always have to be me? What will I tell everyone? What will I tell Rebecca? How will I answer Josh's questions?

I slided down the bathroom wall and sat their as I cried my eyes out.

Why was I even given life? Why god ? Why? I hate my life! I hate everyone in it! I don't want to live any more! Why can't I just have cancer or a tumour. Why can't a snake bite me? Not Carter! A real snake!

I stood up and walked towards my drawer where I kept the knife from the last time.

Will it be sharp?

Yeah! Obviously!

Will it hurt?

Yeah, Sophie! That's what you want right?

Yeah.......

No Sophia! You can't do this! You promised Rebecca! What will Josh do without you? You can't kill yourself Sophia! Who will tutor Carter? Why am I even thinking about him?

"Urgh! I hate Carter!"

I heard a knock on the door and the knife fell from my hands. "Sophia? Are you there?" Josh said. I wiped my tears and I hid the knife under my bed as I opened the door. "Woooaaaah! Look at your hair!"

I struggled to laugh at his reaction, though only I knew how much my heart was hurting. "Yeah, my hair! They look cool don't they?" I asked. "No!" He scrunched up his nose.

"REBECCA! REBECCA! COME HRRE! LOOK WHAT SOPHIE DID TO HER HAIR! REBEC-"

"Shhhh! Josh! Don't tell her!" My voice came out threatening but the damage was already done.

"Yehs! Yesshh! Huh! What is it Josh?Are you-SHIT!" Rebecca came running, but her mouth opened wide as she set her eyes upon me. "Wa-Wa-what!?" She slapped herself on the face and blinked twice. "What the hell Sophia?"

"What? I died my hair! They look pretty right?" I ran my hand through them.

"No!" She shook her head wildly. "If anything, they look disgusting!" Can somebody please boost my confidence a little more?

"Seriously, Sophie? Neon green? Why did you even dye them at all?" She asked as she examined them closely.

"It's in fashion Rebecca!" Anything could've been better than that sentence I spoke but I'm not the best when lying.

"Really?" She asked.

"Yeah, many of my friends have dyed their hair green."

"Neon green?" She confirmed.

"Yup, neon green!"

"Oh.... It's your life. Enjoy all you want. But please just ask before you do any such things. Now someday I'll see you wearing ear gauges and tattoos all over your back saying 'Yo! I'm so cool!'" she chuckled. I tried to laugh at her joke but all I could manage was a strangled cough.

"Eww Rebecca! No, I would never do anything like that! Now go out both of you, I want to complete my homework!" I told them pointing towards the door as I jumped on my couch.

God, please don't let them see the knife.

"Okay....." she said as she went out of my room. Sighing, I closed the door behind her and quickly kept the knife back in my cupboard.

Oh god! What was I going to do?

I have Lia!

I have Isaac!

I have Josh!

I have Rebecca!

Calm down Sophia! It's just a dye!

"I have to do something about my hair!" I went outside and dialled Lia's number.

Please pick up the phone Lia......

Please Lia!

"Hi Soph! How are you?" She asked, her cheerful voice warmth gn my heart.

"Lia-I-I.... Lia, thegreencolorisn'tgoingfrommyhairandineedyourhelp!"

"Wait, wait, what did you say?"

"Lia! The green colour isn't going from my hair!" I cried and completely broke down.

"Don't tell me! Oh My God! What are you going to do now!?" She screamed on the phone, piercing my ears. "That is the reason I rang you Lia!" I screamed back.

"Okay, okay, calm down... do you know how to dye hair?" She asked.

"No! How will I know that? Lia can't you come and help?" She could help me dye them black, temporarily.

"Sophia, I'm out of the town on my uncle's funeral. I can't come till Tuesday! Oh god! I'm going to kill that idiot Carter and his friends. I'm going to invent such a chemical that their generations will have green hair. I will go and-" she started her rant but I stopped her.

"Lia, what will I do on Monday? How will I face everyone?" A sob went off my mouth.

"Sophie, Sophie, don't cry, okay? Okay calm down! I have an Idea. Do you have a hoody?!"

"Yeah!" I wiped my tears before anybody saw them. "Just wear it okay? I'll dye your hair when I come back. Fine?"

"Yeah! You are talking to me like I'm a kid Lia!" I told her.

"Sophia, you are weak, just like a kid. You break down quickly, just like a kid. You trust everyone and everything, just like a kid. You cry a lot, just like a kid. You are scared of monsters like Carter, just like a kid! You are sensitive, just like a kid! You follow whatever people say, JUST LIKE A KID!" She scolded me and I flinched.

"And, you are correct, Mommy! I'll be a good big girl from now on Mommy!" I teased her.

"Oh shut up! Bye, I have to go! Now if you'll cry, I'll punish you like a 'mommy'!" She chuckled.

"Ok, mommy! Bye!" I kept the receiver back.

The whole day I pondered over Lia's words.

Do I really act like a kid?

"Yes! Yes! Yes! I act like a kid! I am sensitive! I get scared! I trust everyone! I cry a lot! I am weak! I am just like a baby! I have to change myself! I have to be strong!" I shouted at myself.

I HAVE TO BE STRONG!

I have to be strong!

*****

I was late to the school today, and I was glad for that. At least I was saved from the bullying. As I walked towards my class I saw everyone settled and the teacher lecturing.

Quietly, I went towards the last row which had some empty seats. Isaac waved at me on my way and I smiled at him as I mouthed a 'Hi!' He gestured towards my hoodie and raised his eyebrows.

'Later,' I mouthed again on which I received his nod.

We studied about the moles in chemistry and everybody was taking note when the door opened. I didn't need to look up to see it was Carter.

But something was different today. Instead of drooling over him, girls started to murmur and whisper amongst each other. Curiosity was killing me so I looked up from my work. At that very moment a gasp fled my mouth as I stood up from shock.

What I saw was green. All green. Everything green. From his hair to his shoes.

What the f_ck?

Ewwwww!

He came towards me, sending occasional winks and waves to the girls on his way. I really couldn't keep my eyes off of him. Not because he looked good, but because he looked nauseating and sickening. He looked... obnoxious! And that crazy, idiotic, nincompoop decided to sit beside me.

No, no, no! Have mercy on my eyes. They are going to burn from your sharp neon-ness....

Don't laugh Sophia! Don't laugh please!

Winking in my direction he took of my hoodie, "Hi cool chic!" He said, in a higher than normal voice causing everyone to increase their whispers.

I stared at him wide eyed, too shocked to say anything.

What the hell ?!

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