Months passed by since Jungkook and I got married, but it still seems like it was a few days ago.

During these months, everything changed, even my name changed from Min to Jeon, but even though changes happened, I feel like I'm still the same.

The same teenager who was crushing hard on Jeon Jungkook.

The same girl who fell for him.

They said one sided love hurts so much, and I never thought it'd hurt that much. But even though it does hurt, I can do nothing about it.

Jungkook and I have been a married couple for months now and yet we don't exchange words, or in simple way we just don't talk to each other.

The only time we probably talked is just to say a 'good morning' but that too just once in a while.

We do talk at the office, but that's just professional interaction,nothing romantic, nothing intimate....

Maybe, Jungkook will warm up to me and open up and we could be like a real married couple, right?

"I've submitted the papers to Mr Jeon already but he didn't review it yet.". My secretary, Louise, said.

"When did you give it to Jungkook?"

"It's been a week, Ma'am." she replied.

"Okay! I'll talk to him then."

I dialled Jungkook's office number and waited for him to pick up, but he didn't.

Sighing, I got out of my office and walk towards Jungkook's office.

"I'm telling you Jungkook, please I'm so sorry for whatever happened, but I can't-"

"No Mira, it's been years, years, and I still can't get over what you did to me, and you think coming back like this is gonna make everything right?" I hear Jungkook says.

Did he say Mira? His ex-girlfriend?

What the hell is she doing here?

Doesn't she know that Jungkook is married?

I start to feel insecure knowing that Mira is here. What if Jungkook still loves her?

And what if he goes back to her-

"Jungkook please, I just don't want us to be strangers to each other now. It took me a lot of time for real but I know that I love you. I still love you Jungkook."

"And don't you think it's too late for that? You cheated on me Mira and you expect me to believe this shit now."

I keep listening to their conversation while debating of what to do.

"Jungkook please I belong to you, and we.. We love each other -"

"And he belongs to me." I got in unable to control my emotions anymore.

Jungkook's eyes widened as he saw me.

"And who are you?" Mira asked.

"The same question goes to you."

"Y/N-" Jungkook started only to get cut off.

"So this is why you aren't picking up your calls? This is what you do in your office now? Helping distressed women?"

"Excuse me?" Mira said in an angry tone.

"Yes! You are very much excused and now with all due respect get the hell out of here and away from my husband."

"He might be your husband but he is still in love with me. We are meant to be together. You just ruined -"

"Ruined it? Says the one who cheated on her boyfriend. I never ruined anything. You ruined your own life and you lost your chance. Now things have changed and Jungkook is married, so just take the nearest exit and leave before I call the guards."

"Jungkook aren't you going to say anything?" Mira said as she sobs.

"Just leave Mira."

"Jungkook please just.. Let me explain-"

"We'll talk later Mira just leave for now."

I watch as Mira leave the office while sobbing.

"Y/N-"

"Is it what this is now? You are going to talk to her again? Later? I thought you guys were done? Are you planning on getting back together?"

"This is none of your business." Jungkook replied.

"Well sorry to break this to you. It is my business. It is my fucking business. I'm married to you Jungkook. Atleast tell me stuffs so I could know where I fucking stand in your life."

"Listen..she just came here and wanted to talk about things. We didn't really clear stuffs so she was just trying to explain and I told her I don't want anything from her. It's not going as you are thinking."

"Fine"

"Y/N~ I'm telling you -"

"Louise gave you some papers to review, just do it once and send it to me."

"Y/N. Can we-"

"I've got a meeting in ten minutes. I'll see you later at home." I said before leaving.

Maybe I let out too much? But I'm married to him right? He should tell me where I stand, so I know if all of this is worth it or not.

I don't fucking know what to do. How to save my relationship with him. Actually how to build my relationship with him..

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Feeling a little too much, I wanted be alone for sometime so I went back home early.

I sat by the window of our room as I thought of my wedding day..

FLASHBACK..

"You may kiss the bride!"

He slowly lifts my veil and I feel my heartbeats increasing.

I stare as he gets to my level, holds my cheeks with both of his hands and leans in and places his soft thin lips on mine.

It doesn't take long till he retreats back. It felt like a few seconds.

I wanted his lips on mine longer. I wanted him to cherish me more. I wanted him closer. I wanted him to love me....

I watch as he smiles at every guests but barely looks at me,maybe once he did or twice when people would meet him and mention me.

We reached home pretty late and I started feeling nervous.

I've never been touched, never been kissed in my whole life but will it happen tonight? Will he-

All of my thoughts broke as Jungkook spoke.

"You know that we aren't going to do anything right?"

"Hmm?" I looked at him with a puzzled expression.

"We aren't going to sleep.. To have sex?!"

"Oh yes.. I mean yeah I'm cool uhh I didn't want to anyway.. Umm I'll go change.."

I closed the bathroom door as I feel tears running down my cheeks.

Maybe I just need to give him time to accept me. Time will change everything...

I always try to think positive to make me feel better but nothing changed.

Time passed by so fast, that it's been months since I'm his wife, but yet it was just for namesake.

I was just a wife who slept on the couch every night. A wife who prepared breakfast for her husband every morning, goes to work with him, stays professional and works hard at the office, come back home and cooks dinner and yet he never even told me whether he liked the food I cooked once.

He never once told me in the morning when I got ready if I looked nice or not.

He never even told me if I looked pretty in my wedding dress.

But I'm still his wife. Maybe just for eight months but I've been his wife, I am his wife.

His wife who has never been loved by him...

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