《Midnight Lullabies》14 | Of bathroom stalls and creeping thoughts
Advertisement
today,
I ate lunch alone
in a bathroom stall.
away from my friends
away from the bullies
and the misfits
and all jigsaw pieces trying to form a puzzle but the pieces are all wrong.
the perfect puzzle is
idealized
favored
worshipped
so we mold ourselves into shapes
we are not familiar with
take up less space,
uncomfortably shoved into a standard
into an expectation.
today,
I ate lunch alone
in a bathroom stall.
no, I was not sad
or bullied
or lonely.
I sat away for I had realized
we crave attention and company so much
that we forget about our own.
the only attention directed towards ourselves is negative
wearing self criticism and insults
around our waists
in hopes of shrinking it
and we cannot be trusted
in our own company
we cannot be trusted
to be left alone
for we will craft jewelries of pain
then wear it like a noose
we will craft knives of hatred
and so gracefully draw valleys and paintings
on a canvas.
I don't need to taste it
to know its flavor;
I don't need to see it
to know it's there.
today,
I ate lunch alone
in a bathroom stall.
no, I did not feel lonely
for I have learned to enjoy my own company
to stop punishing myself for the things out of my grasp
and if something shall happen, so be it.
let it be.
I have learned to love myself
despite the stains and scratches.
I will not paint myself
for fear of rusting.
I will not paint myself
for your pleasure.
if I shall rust, so be it.
for immortality is but a mere joke
if I shall rust, so be it.
for I can say with pride that I have made a masterpiece
out of scraps and remains.
Advertisement
THE LOST HERO'S ADVENT
A class of Hero was summoned to a world which is on the verge of collapse because of the invasion of the demon lord. Each of them received powerful abilities except for Andre. With no exceptional power at all, he thrived to became powerful to return back to earth but because of a accident he got separated with his class to an unknown place. With a mediocre power, Can he return?
8 173White Fur || Chat Blanc
Heart broken Chat Noir becomes akumatized and forms a rather unusual obsession with Marinette rather than her as his beloved Ladybug, consequently, making it hard for her to transform. With the frequent absent of Ladybug, the new Chat Blanc is able to meddle in whatever it is that he pleases. What hardships will they go through together in this difficult situation?More importantly, how did Chat resist the control of Hawkmoth as Chat Blanc? **Disclaimer- this does not follow events with the actual cannon Chat Blanc**
8 282Falling for you (Sonadow)
Sonic the Hedgehog is moving to a new highSchool. And a new neighborhood where he meets a black and red Hedgehog he soon has a crush on. He also meets a couple new friends on the way and enemies.Warning: this contains some scourgexsonic ,Mephilver and obviously Sonadowcharacter list ↓Sally acornBunny rabotJet the hawkWave the swallowStorm(Sonic Riders zero gravity)Alenna (sonic's mom)Black Doom( hedgehog in this story)KnucklesSliverShadowSonicScourge ( Archies comicsTailsMephiles (sonic 06")BlazeAmyRougeCreamFiona the fox ( Archies comics)characters belong to Segadon't read if u don't like it No hurtful comments plz!![PG -13] Contains some Sexual scenes (later on) Sonadowness ^-^ EnjoyP.S None of the pictures are mine
8 114hope not, blackpink
... as if nothing happened, i will smile if i see you© dilemmarz | 2020
8 204silence; vkook
In which Jungkook only ever hears silence.
8 134Reincarnation: I Married My Ex's Brother (6)
"Marry me. Once we're married, I will be loyal to you for life-as long as you keep me alive."Qiao Jiusheng was pushed into the water by her older twin sister, had her identity stolen, losing her old love and life. With no other choice, she seeks out Fang Yusheng, the blind man rumored to have no interest in women. With blank and empty eyes, he says, "Sure."In her past life, she was betrayed by her sister and trapped in the basement. Her tongue was cut off as she watched her sister take her place, winning overall her loved ones, marrying her lover of six years, and starting a family with him. Now that she's back to a time before it all went wrong, Qiao Jiusheng escapes from the river and goes to her boyfriend's older half-brother. She puts on a mask and marries him, to fight their common enemy. The wheels of fate begin to spin, and the severed threads of destiny are once again entwined... Before their wedding, he tells her, "Don't peek at me so openly just because I'm blind and can't see you." On the night of their wedding, he tells her," You don't have to dress like a bear. I don't care for women." Half a year after their wedding, just because she gives another man another look, Fang Yusheng covers her laptop, phone, bedside drawers, desk, and wallet with nothing but his selfies.This book is a Chinese novel written by Imperial Songs and he deserves all the credits for it. Link for the original novel will be provided at the end of the book.
8 286