Last entry

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19 years had passed since my Kyungsoo-appa died and 18 years since my Jongin-appa died. Jagiya, I miss my parents so much. I grew up in an orphanage since my Jongin-appa died, but I can still remember the pain.

Even though they left me at a very young age, I can still remember them, I can still feel their love for me even though they're not here anymore. They didn't left me on purpose, I believe they just left me because they had to and has no choice. And I forgive them with that. I understand my Kyungsoo-appa and Jongin-appa.

My Kyungsoo-appa died because of my Jongin-appa, and after a year or two, Jongin-appa passed away too. I just found myself being taken care of my uncle, Kris. But when my parents' memories came back, I left the house without him knowing.

My feet brought me to the orphanage..

A new hope and love of a new family welcomed me. When Uncle Kris found me, he let me stay at the orphanage since I'm such a hard-headed kid but he's still visiting me and supporting my financial problems.

He asks for me to come back because of my disease but I refused, I wanted to stat at the orphanage because this is where I belong to. The orphanage has been my new family when my parents left me.

And yes, I have a disease.

Uncle said I got it when my Kyungsoo-appa had difficulties when he was still bearing me. But really, it was okay.

At least I'm gonna meet my parents soon again, right?

Now, I look at the grave of my very loved ones. The cold breeze embracing my skin reminds me of their soft touches and kisses. I just can't help but to reminisce. I can't forget the memories they left, and the diary which contains the reason why all of these happened.

Yes, I've read my parents' diaries. And in my Jongin-appa's last entry in this diary, I am finally bidding his goodbye for you. I know they're now happy together and now, I will finally let go of the memories.

They loved each other once and their love for each other will continue to be shown in the other life, until eternity ends. They had a beautiful tragic love affair once but now, they finally had a happy ending.

Wait for me soon, Kyungsoo-appa and Jongin-appa. I love you so much.

Taeoh aka Kai

My story starts here.

Will you wait for me?