Entry #14

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I looked at the grave of my one and only. A tear escaped from my eyes as I caressed the grave as if it was him. I can't help but to reminisce from the day he said yes to me. It was one of my happiest moments, indeed. We shared sweet memories togetherㅡand I will surely miss it. I slept and thought it was just a dream, but gasped I woke up it was a nightmare. How are you, Kyungsoo-ah? I miss you. So much. It's been a year.

I carried Taeoh and hugged him tightly. I'm sorry, son. I suddenly felt the cold breeze embraced my skin. It's him. I brought Taeoh to my brother-in-law, Yifan, and I left Taeoh there for him to take care of him for an hour. And yes, Wu Yifan is Do Kyungsoo's brotherㅡ but in different father. I suddenly remembered the moment I saw him in front of Kyungsoo, crying so hard, and I never thought he was his brother. I guess that's the reason why.

Maybe if he came earlier, things wouldn't be like this. But it's too late. And the blame is all on me now, but I will accept it.

I went to the hospital and get my medical examination results from my doctor, Dr. Oh Sehun and I gasped when I saw the results.

I get Taeoh from Yifan and went home with him. I cried over my son and talked to him.

I cried hard. Kyungsoo-ah, we'll meet soon again. Wait for me, my love.

Jongin