After everyone slowly arrived and sat down we all get a glass of champagne to drink a bit.

Sitting at a long table with my parents next to me on the right and Theo on the left with his parents and best friend. The rest of the guests, which are mostly just business partners I've never seen, all sit on round tables.

The first one to hold a speech are my parents.

„It is so great to see my beautiful girl get married to the man she fell in love with" my mother starts off with the biggest lie ever.

„She really couldn't wait to marry him" another lie „and we are so grateful that she found someone so loving and perfect for her"

„Thank you, for becoming a part of our family" My dad adds to Mattheo directly at the end obviously talking about more than just becoming part of the family.

The next ones are Mattheo's parents.

„We are honestly so lucky to have you Aurora as a daughter now." Evelyn starts with John ending the speech saying „ we are grateful our son found such a great women to marry."

The last one to hold a speech is Jack.

„honestly I didn't think I would ever get so see this. Mattheo getting married or even finding a woman that will stick with him" with that he sends a wink and a smirk my way making me feel better and chuckle just like everyone else.

„But being a bit more serious I am really happy you found someone especially as beautiful and funny like her. Every time I See you both together I know just how much you care about each other and the looks on your faces just say it all." while jack says that Theo gives my and a squeeze which I give him right back not even having to think about it.

„I just know you both are perfect for each other and will have a great time for the rest of your lives." is how he ends his speech. I could tell that the last few sentences were the ones he really meant and just the pure truth.

Leaning a bit over I whisper in Theos ear „you really have a great best friend you know that?".

He just smiles and replies „yeah I know".

Now that all the speeches were over we started to eat.

...

After eating a bit it was time to cut the cake together.

So we went over there and I take the knife with him holding my hand above and we both cut a slice out of it.

Having that we part it and feed the other one with it at the same time smiling and laughing a bit after we smear our faces a little too much.

...

After we were done eating the DJ announced „Alright now it is time for the first dance of husband and wife."

Husband and wife.

Why does that kind of sounds weird but also comforting?

Going on the dance floor hand in hand we stand straight for the dance. Not really knowing how to dance I just let myself being guided by Theo.

The music and dance was really beautiful and while we danced we held a light conversation.

Ending the dance, the next thing was the father-daughter-dance. My father coming up to me he held his hand out.

„You look really pretty, I'm so proud of you for doing this." was the first and only thing he said doing the whole dance and of course the only time he ever said he was proud of me was for getting forced to marry and not running away from it.

Feeling new tears prickle I quickly step back from him not coming very far. Jack stops me „come on, we won't let him win will we? Dance with me it's fine".

Him being right and me not wanting my family to win I give him my hand and dance with him while Theo dances with his mother.

„What did he say?" Jack asks

„Not much" with a disapproving look from him that says he doesn't believe me I continue „just that he is proud of me for doing something I hadn't had a choice for".

„I unterstand but like I said don't let them win show them they can't bring you down and try to make the best of it. If Mattheo is ever an asshole just tell me and I'm fixing it for you how does that sound." he asks smiling.

„Thank you, Jack really"

„Of course, we're family now." and with that the dance was over.

After that I danced with a few other people like John and some business partners for the good look of course.

All in all it was a really good day and way more beautiful than I thought.

On the way back to Theo's well now our house Theo starts a conversation. „so what did you're dad said to you when you were dancing together."

„Really you too, I honestly thought Jack would have told you already."

„He didn't, so?"

„Just That he is proud of me for marrying you but it's whatever."

„I'm sorry I-„

„Stop" I cut him off „it's not your fault so stop blaming yourself."

Quickly wanting to change the subject I ask „so when and where is our honeymoon?"

„We go tomorrow evening, your bag is already packed and the place is a surprise"

„I don't like Surprises" I scoff.

„Well to bad."

Thinking more after the conversation ended. I realize how much I still don't know I mean are we sleeping in the same bed or not. Technically we are married but not because we love each other. Also just because it is our wedding night doesn't mean we will have to have sex right?

„Stop overthinking talk to me" Theo says in a soft way.

„Are- are we sleeping in the same room?" I ask nervously.

„Well not at our House when your not comfortable with that but at the honeymoon we're having a suite which means one bed but its only for two weeks when that makes you feel better."

Our house. Weird.

„Okay, so i know it's not really normal but nothing really is with this right? Right so could I maybe sleep today in my own room?" I ask looking at my feet in the car.

„Of course, I'm not gonna force you to anything." he say sincerely looking at me.

„If you want separated beds on our honeymoon as well I'm sure I can do just that."

„No, no it's fine really besides you already did so much."

I sense that he wanted to say more to that but the car stops and we arrived. Stepping out of the car I go straight to the door.

„I'm tired would you be mad when I go to bed right now." I ask

„No of course not."

With that he opens the door and shows me to my room we're already a few of my clothes are. Turning around I give him a smile and say ‚good night' which he tells me aswell.

As soon as the door closes I break down. Kneeling on the floor I break in sobs. Everything that happened coming to me, me being married at 19 to a stranger because of my parents, not knowing what will happen now or in the future for me.

All this unknown overflowing me.

I hear her sobs trough the door and just sit quietly there not wanting to go away but also knowing she doesn't need me right now but instead to let it all out like that.

I mean it hurts but I unterstand that this is all too much for her. I mean I didn't liked it as well but I became okay with that I know it would happen eventually to me but she, she didn't knew and she is only 19 not 24 like I am.

So I hear her cry till I couldn't hear anything because she fell asleep and that is just what I do. Falling asleep leaning against her bedroom door. Today was beautiful but also exhausting. Seeing her in that dress was the most beautiful thing I ever saw. So with those images I am in a deep sleep.