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I slipped on my slippers going to the mail box to check the mail. Once I got it I checked to see did one of the 3 folders had my name on it & one did.

I walked in the house putting the other 2 folders of mail on the table while opening the one that had my name on it.

I sat on the couch reading it.

Dear Journey,

My mom gave me y'all address, but anyways Journey I'm really sorry for everything that I did to you. I was going through something & I never meant to hurt my best friend, my niece, the person I grew up with. I been going through hell & I just know it's karma. But I have gotten so closer with god that I hope for you to forgive me how he forgave me. I'm really sorry & writing this to you I have so many tears & im just so hurt for what I did even tho it was years ago. I became a better person & I'll never let something like that happen again.

Love loyal🤎.

I don't know how to feel or think about this because she did something that hunted me for the rest of my life.

Yes, I have gotten better but this is something I'll never forget about.

I began feeling myself about to cry so I got up & went to see my favorite person in the whole wide world. Kai Kai.

"Hey papa." I said seeing him playing the game while eating some chips. "Hey tt." He said smiling.

This really my bestfriend & this the best gift my sister ever gave me, Kyrie, & everybody else.

"It's hot in here." I said looking around his room. It was blue & red. He had toys everywhere cause he got a lot of toys for his birthday.

"No it's not." He said shaking his head & I laughed cause how he gone tell me how I feel? "Where yo mama?" I asked him.

"Ion kno." He said paying attention to his game. "Mmcht you not no help." I said going to his mama room.

"Jayda?" I asked knocking on the door. "Come in!" She yelled & I opened the door seeing her laying in the bed eating ice cream.

"Where Kyrie?" I asked getting in the bed with her. "Out, he said he was going somewhere with kj, Carson, & Jamal." She said & I nodded.

"Oh yeah, anyways read this." I said handing her the letter that loyalty sent. After she finished reading it she looked at me.

"You going to forgive her?" She asked me & I shrugged my shoulders. "To be honest I don't know what to do." I said feeling myself about to cry once again.

" I mean, I'm not saying you have to forgive her but god has a plan for everybody & everything. You can't just be stuck on it." She told me & I nodded.

" yeah, You right." I said. I was going to forgive her but I wasn't going to forget. I'll never be able to trust her again or any new female I met.

"Just keep your head up & watch everything & see how shit play out." She said.

"True."

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Ok first it was the note now she wanna meet up. Idk how to feel. I know ima forgive her tho.

I walked through Walmart because I had to find some controllers for Kai game.

"Bae, you wanna get him this one?" Kj asked showing me a blue controller. "Yeah, he gone like it." I smiled as we made our way to go pay.

" I want a daughter." I whined looking at a lady with a baby in the buggy. "You do?" Kj smirked at me.

"Yes, I been waiting on you tho." I said pecking his lips. "Shidd yeen said a word." He said paying.

"Ok but loyalty wanna meet me at grandma house later on." I told him & he mugged looking at me.

"For what?" He asked me since I didn't tell him about the letter yet. "Ima show you the letter she sent me when we get home but ima go."

" Whatchu mean you gon go?" He asked me & im looking at him stupid cause you don't understand?

" ima go met with her." I said.

" for why? What if she tryna set to dumb ass up again?" He asked getting mad.

" she's not, it's been a long time since it happen & you gotta understand where I'm coming from." I told him.

" mhm, I'm coming with you." He said and I nodded as we went to pay for Kai things.

we got back to the house and i saw bri laying on the couch with Carson.

" hey y'all." I said going over to hug bri and dap up Carson. " what you got from Walmart?" Bri asked me.

" some shit for Kai."

" you buy him some new shit everyday." She said causing me to mug her. " okay?" I asked joking.

" girl." She dragged looking back at the tv. I walked upstairs to Kai room to show him his stuff but he was sleep.

He was sleep with the controller in his hand and everything. I picked him up laying him in his bed then took his shirt off because I know he hate sleeping with it on.

After that I kissed his cheek and put the covers over his little body.

" this the shit she sent?" Kj asked coming to the door with the letter loyal sent. " yes." I said walking out of Kai room and we went to our room.

" she better not be on some weird shit." kj said as I took off my jacket and shoes. " true, I need answers tho. That's all I want." I told him truthfully.

" you gone get em." He said as we both got in the bed getting comfortable. I was going to take a nap till it was time to go see bout loyal.

+jayda+

" come on baby." I said trying to wake up a sleepy Kai. " no ma!" He said trying to lay back down.

" I'm not finna deal with you." I said going to get his daddy cause ain feel like arguing with a 4 year old.

" Kyrie go get your son up." I told him grabbing my shoes to put on. " yo ass can't never get him up." He chuckled leaving the room.

" ugly ass." I joked putting on my shoes. After that I went to the restroom to make sure my hair looked cute.

as it should I went back to our room and grabbed my jacket and purse going to Kai room to make sure he was fully dressed.

I walked in seeing Kai and Kyrie playing and Kai didn't have not thing i told Kyrie to put on him.

" what the fuck i told y'all?" I asked looking at them as they looked scared they got caught.

" i told him." Kyrie said grabbing Kai clothes quickly trying to put them on.

" you ain't tell him shit." I stressed because they can never do right. " which shoes?" Kyrie asked me.

" them." I pointed and he grabbed them putting them on him. Today we was having a family night just me, Kyrie, and Kai.

we was taking kai to the jump park then after that we going out to eat somewhere. I'm thinking cici's pizza because that's what Kai love.

After Kyrie put on Kai clothes we left heading to the jump park.

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" look!" Kai yelled as he jumped in the air. I looked smiling at him because he so cute. " I see baby." I said looking at Kyrie dumb ass fall.

" damn." Kyrie said still laying down on the ground as I laughed. " yeen gone help a Nigga?" He asked and I walked over helping him.

we went back over to Kai and we kept jumping till we got tired. " slide!" Kai yelled but me and Kyrie was worn out.

" go get on it, we gone watch you." I told him but he didn't wanna go by hisself as usual.

" go with him bae." I said looking at Kyrie as he drunk some of his water. " mmcht." He smacked his lips going with kai.

I recorded as they came down the slide together it was too cute. I saved the video and posted it on my Instagram story.

" you ready to go Kai?" Kyrie asked papa & he shook his head yes. " fin a fucking ly." I spoke.

" fucking." Kai said making me and Kyrie snap our necks at him. " don't say that." I laughed even tho I knew he cussed all the time.

" he getting that shit more and more from you." Kyrie said. " ion be meaning to." I said.

We grabbed our stuff and left out of the jumping place. Kyrie put Kai in his seat as i got in the front seat.

After that we left heading to cici's pizza. As we got here it was a long line but it was moving fast so we wasn't complaining.

" use it." Papa said meaning he had to use the restroom. " you want me to take him?" I asked ky.

" nahh i got it." kyrie told me and I nodded waiting to get our table.

" how many?" The lady asked me. " 3." I told her and she looked around before showing me some seats. I slide in the chair waiting for kyrie and papa.

Once they came i let them go get their food first because somebody had to watch our bags and stuff.

while waiting i posted our pictures and stuff on Instagram then somebody called me.

" hello?" I answered my mama call. " hey boo, what you doing?" She asked me.

" at cici's with Kyrie and Kai. What you doing?" I asked her. " sound fun and nothing just got done cleaning." She said.

" oh, where daddy?" I asked.

" at work like always but you need to bring kai over here." She said mugging the phone.

" when?"

" today, tomorrow it don't matter." She spoke.

" okay, I'll bring him later on today." I said. " okay, love you have a good day." She smiled causing me to chuckle saying it back.

I hung up seeing Kyrie and Kai make their way back to the table. " here." Kyrie said handing me a plate of my favorite pizza.

" thank you." I smiled ain know he was making me a plate too. " how you carry all these plates?" I asked seeing he grabbed a plate of brownies.

" don't worry bout allat." He smiled eating his brownie first instead of the pizza.

" bae that's so backwards." I said cutting up Kai pizza like he liked it. " so." Kyrie said.

" you want to go over granny house?" I asked Kai and he shook his head yes fast. " he gone wanna take his game." Kyrie said.

For him to be 4 years old it's crazy how much he loved playing the game. Plus he was so smart.

" on the days he have daycare he gonna stop playing it all night cause he be acting a fool in the mornings." I said looking at Kai eat.

" no." Kai said mugging me. " yes." I said mugging him right the fuck back.

" no mama!" He said and I looked at him crazy because he always wanna argue with me.

" get your son cause it ain't mines." I told Kyrie as ge just sat there laughing like it was so funny. " kai stop telling yo mama no." Kyrie told him seriously.

I gotta stop arguing with him cause when he grow up he gone think he can talk to me any kind of way like now.

" i want game." Kai said frowning. " you can have that dumb ass game." I said mugging him back.

" this why he always arguing with you, he can't take you serious." Kyrie said laughing.

" you got to listen to yo mama okay marion." Kyrie said seriously saying kai middle name.

" ok." Kailen said lowly. " aww my baby sad now." I said kissing all over his face causing him to laugh.

" bi fucking polar." Kyrie said lowly but I heard him. " shut up." I said laughing.

+journey+

I knocked on my granny door waiting for her to open it. Me and kj waited like 10 minutes until i looked under the rug for the key.

I opened it walking to the living room seeing blood. " what the fuck." I said looking back at kj. He looked as shocked as me.

" bae stay right here." He told me walking to see where the blood was coming from.

" damn." I heard and I ran to where kj was seeing loyal with blood all over her body. " see if she still breathing bae." I cried.

My hand shook as I called my mama. " she ain't breathing. You calling the police?" He asked me.

Damn I forgot about the police. I hung up the phone calling 911. " hello, this is- blah blah blah."

" can y'all come to ———— my auntie is dead!" I yelled crying so bad. Kj came hugging me leading me to the porch.

" call- call my mama." I spoke sitting down crying. " why? She was changing to be a better person bae!" I cried.

" calm down man." He said pulling me into his lap as he spoke on the phone with my mama. " I got so many questions bae, you said i was going to get my answers." I cried.

I know I might be doing to much at the moment but I just want to know why?

I know all the bad things she have done but everybody deserves a second chance you know?

Just because someone make one mistakes doesn't mean you just cut them off or make them seem like the bad guy.

Growing up I did everything with this girl! Every fucking thing! We was always together man.

I was out of it so much I didn't even notice my mama was now holding me & police was everywhere.

" where grandma?" I asked calmly.

" I don't know." She said. " can you tell us what happened maam?" The officer asked me.

" we came in it was blood on the floor, my boyfriend went to go see where it was come from and it was loyalty." I said trying not to cry anymore.

I saw Jayda, Kyrie, and Kai walking up looking sad. " you good?" Kyrie asked me and I shook my head no.

" this shit not okay, can y'all find where the fuck my mama & daddy at?" My mama asked them. " what if they dead too like what the fuck all y'all fucking doing is looking!" she added yelling.

" my grandma & pops better be okay." Kacey said mugging. I ain't even notice everybody was here even my daddy.

" deadass." Jayda said agreeing with Kacey. Kacey & Jayda wasn't really close with loyalty so i can see why they didn't care for her.

" ma'am, we are trying." The officer told my mama with a attitude and my daddy had to grab her before she could beat his ass.

" we are about to search around the whole house but before we do that can we have permission?" Another officer asked.

Daddy told them yes and they went inside while we stayed outside.

" come here papa." I said looking at Kai as he looked scared. He came to me giving me the hug I needed.

" I love you." I told him and he said it back lowly. " don't be scared okay?" I told him and he nodded.

the ambulance came out with the body bag of loyalty. it hurted so back seeing my old bestie in that thing.

one officer came out looking sad and i just knew what it was. " no." My mama said backing back.

" the owners of this house is .. gone. I'm sorry." He said walking away.

" NOOOOOO!" my mama yelled.

" what the fuck bruh!" Kacey yelled walking off with dior behind him.

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Vote & cmt

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