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"Happy Birthday, baby." I frown and squint when I open my eyes to find Sarah straddling me.

My vision adjusts and so does my memory. Damn, it is my birthday.

"How does it feel to be thirty!" She squeals and places kisses all over my face. A weird feeling in my chest made me wince and I quickly realized it was guilt.

And boy, do I have much to be guilty about.

It was moments like this where I didn't know how to react. The loyalty and feelings I had for Yasmin kept me from being a husband to Sarah. I never brought up what it was that Yasmin and I do, we never had a discussion about it. And I have no clue where to start with her.

I would watch movies about infidelity and wonder, how could someone go against the vow, against their word? How could they just leave someone after using all they had to build a connection? And now look at me.

Moments like this, I felt less of a man. I'm a liar, a cheater, and the fact that I'm all of these things under the nose of my wife. When did everything go so wrong?

"It feels... Surreal." I smile shortly, not knowing how to fake happiness. And that was the truth of the matter. Somehow along the way, I stopped being content in my life with Sarah.

It was slow and gradual, almost undetectable.

She grinned down at me, peppering kisses all over my face. "You know what? I'm gonna go make you breakfast." A giggle fell from her lips as she took off in a jog out of the room, to the kitchen.

With a sigh, I gripped my hair in my hands and tugged. I'm not blind, I can see that Sarah's making an effort. Making me breakfast? The last time Sarah did that was maybe three or four years ago. Not that she couldn't cook, she just hated doing it.

And now she's cooking for me on my birthday. And God knows what else today, and how do I thank her? By fucking another woman.

I can't keep doing this shit, I have to break things off with Yasmin.

Yep. That's what I'm gonna do. Next time I see her, I'll pull her aside and tell her the truth.

I don't want her anymore.

She cracked three eggs into the small bowl and whisked them until the yolks combined. Humming to herself, Sarah couldn't help but feel giddy about the events she'd planned for tonight.

He wouldn't see it coming, all his friends and family would be there. Along with his coworkers and that woman. Sarah saw no other choice but to invite her, considering how weird it would be to invite everyone but his actual partner. Sarah was ditzy at times but she had enough sense about self image.

The last thing she needed was to seem like a pathetic jealous wife.

That just wouldn't do.

So she invited the woman, although she hated it with every fiber in her being. Yasmin simply smiled kindly at her and told her she'd be there. The walk back to Sarah's car was quiet besides her mumbled swearing about her new enemy.

For once in Sarah's happy life, she didn't feel superior around another woman. She always had the good looks, well kept body, and bank account to put women in their place around her. But Yasmin... She was different.

Sarah actually envied her, she walked around like she commanded the damn room. Though, unlike Sarah, she never came off snobby. It seemed as if she had no interest in being the best looking or smartest woman.

She just was.

How could someone be nice and be a total bitch at the same time? Sarah thought to herself, pouring the eggs into the steaming pan. And who knows how she acts around Logan when they're alone, she sighs to herself and gets started on the bacon.

Sarah never had many friends in her younger years. At least not real ones. There were the preppy leeches that would follow her around in high school because of her family's money, but she knew that gossiped about her behind her back.

Around others, she normally felt lonely, which was weird. But the people around her never really cared, if she were in danger, would they come to her aid?

Sarah chuckled as she stirred the steaming eggs, hell no. In fact, they'd probably laugh and point fingers at me.

The thought was dark, and saddened her slightly. But she quickly reminded herself of the one person who never made her feel like an outsider.

Logan.

In many ways, he was like her savior. He never failed to treat her with respect or make her feel like the only woman in the world for him. They had their fights, yes. But they also had those beautiful moments. When they stayed in bed all day and just cuddled while watching a rom-com that he hated but put himself through the agony for her anyways. Or when they would go on vacation and walk alongside the beach, holding hands, watching the sunset.

So whatever it is that changed in him, she will meet him halfway to make it work. She always would.

No matter what the cost.

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