I was furious when Abby made that little scene earlier, I wanted to do things to her that a brother shouldn't do to his sister, I could tell Ethan was just as angry as me and usually he's the nice one when we have discussions like this, but he didn't mean I had to be the reasonable one in the situation.

Doing the thing I dread, and I know I'm going to regret everyday she's gone, I let her go with her 'boyfriend' for a week at his place lord knows what they are up to right now especially new couples they don't keep their hands to themselves at all I just hope his parents are there to supervise the two.

"WHY THE FUCK WOULD YOU LET HER GO!!" Ethan barges in my room, I know he's even more angry when he heard Abby's car leave "she's an adult Ethan, we can't tell her what to do" I say more calmer than him even though I'm dying to know what they are doing I know it's wrong but my feeling for her grew even more when Ethan was out, and it was just us alone and that kiss it was.... almost as if our lips belonged together, how they moved in sync it was amazing I can tell she feels the same she kissed back with just as much passion as me.

"LIAM ARE YOU MAD THIS IS THE WORST IDEAD EVER AND YOU KNOW IT!" I sigh, Ethan's always been Abby's favorite and I know he wants what's best for his sister. "Ethan calm down I know you care about Abby I do to you want what's best our sister but if we keep her locked up, she'll hate us for sure" I try to convince him, he runs his hands through his hair and over his face obviously frustrated about something "what's wrong bro you look stressed" he laughs sarcastically looking as if he was going to burst.

"I'm in love with her okay and yeah save your lecturing because I really don't give a fuck right now and I know it's wrong trust me I've tried to stop it, but I can't she's just.... I can't explain what she does to me my mood changes I act like this like a crazed boyfriend when really all she sees me as is a brother I can't stand it sometimes I've done-" I stop him surprised at his outburst but even more surprised we have the same feelings towards our sister "I know how you feel man I have those same feelings for her I just didn't want to tell you I thought you would judge me I didn't know you had the same feelings" the room goes silent both of us is In thought about the situation.

"So... what should we do" Ethan ask "I have no idea I want to tell her how I feel but we can't she has a boyfriend now we shouldn't come in between them" I say, me and Ethan have shared past girlfriends before but it never got to the point where we were both in love with the women it was just to have some fun but after nothing , Abby has done something to us that and she doesn't even know what. "Ha! speak for yourself I never liked that kid and now that I know what I'm feeling isn't just me I want her and I'm going to have her..." He says smiling wickedly "you on the other hand my friend I feel bad that you'll have to take this one out" confused I ask him what he means by that "Do you not remember you are in a committed relationship with Claire your girlfriend for three months"

Oh, fuck why am I keep forgetting about her I should not have done this to her.

"Look I care for Claire, but my feelings are strong for Abby I want to be with her also" I stare at him in disbelief he can't just have Abby for himself I love her also just as much as he does. "Look I'm sorry bro but Claire is a really nice girl especially for you me and Abby will be together and you're going to be with Claire it's a win, win if you ask me" Ethan says all to confidently.

"LIKE HELL I LOVE HER AS MUCH AS YOU DO IM NOT JUST GOING TO SIT AROUND WHILE YOU PRANCE HER AROUND I DESERVE TO JUST AS MUCH AS YOU ETHAN!" I yell, my anger gets the best of me, but I don't know what I'll do if I see my brother with her while I don't have a chance to actually tell her how I feel or do things with her that couples should do. "Bro just calm down okay how would it be fair if you have Claire on your lap and your supposed to be with Abby do you honestly think that would be a good idea" he says "I'll just break up with Claire" I say confidently "Well good luck breaking the poor girls heart I remember her saying you saved her made her want to live again when she thought about ending it sometimes Liam you changed her for the better how would she react when you just dump her for no reason" he says, he's right how could I do that Claire was very depressed when we first met but I broke that I made her feel things she has never felt before I know if I leave her she'll be devastated.

Bu-But Abby what about Abby, you love her so much more than Claire!

"Y-your right I have to let Abby go" I sigh in defeat, Ethan approaches putting a hand on my shoulder "you're doing the right thing brother I'm proud of you" he says sympathetically, I know he wants us both to be with her, but we have to be realistic about the situation which is Claire. "Treat her well brother" I say before walking off to take a long walk, I feel my heart shatter into pieces I can't even be with the one I truly love because of my stupid decisions five months ago I was only trying to keep my mind off of Abby but that obviously didn't work.

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