Forgetting and letting go is not easy sometimes it is more easy to hold on than to end, it is more painful to say goodbye when we love someone. But when can we say that love is not right when we loved to much but what we recieved is pains or when we always been hurt the most but we always choose to stay? How can you be wiser when it comes to love when you know that love is your weakness and strenght...

XENIA POV.

The rays of the sun awaken me from my deep slumber I do my routine and I wear a big white shirt since my baby bump is getting bigger I also wear a short and go downstairs but upon walking at the hallway I heard a familiar voice the voice I can't never forget, the voice that even put my child's life at risk.

As soon as I look at the owner of the voice Dwight's back is facing me he is in the office table like this stand for his support and the woman is in his body her hands is in the table what a morning.

This is a literal eye sore and all if this is too much for me I swear I will going to send them both in hell. I quickly got my small knife in the garter that hiding in my short I throw it in their direction, as soon as it pierce on his table they both look at me the woman look shock the same slutty woman and Dwight look at me without his expression.

How can I fall on a man like him his not human despite all of his behavior how can I manage not to hate him. I wanted to cry but I don't let my guard fall down I don't want to look vulnerable anymore.

I walk towards them, you let this woman enter this house what the fuck Dwight he almost kill my child if you want to see her go in her but don't let me see her I swear my blood boiled to the highest point seeing this high pitch woman. The woman just roll her eyes on me telling me that stop over reacting be thankful that she let my baby alive.

This makes my blood boiled more I open one of dwights drawer and raise the gun in front of them. The woman look nervous looking at me telling me to lower the gun but Dwight never speaking he was just looking at me with nothing.

My heart squeezing to its highest pace he wasn't even doing anything to calm me they stressing me and I am only putting my baby for more danger.

I shot the vases that was away from them so that they will never got hurt for the pieces that might pierce through their skin. I release all of my hatred all of my anger in front of them and I throw the gun exiting and disappearing from their view.

Almost an hour had past the sky slowly change its color pertaining that it is already afternoon I have made my mind this time. Despite my big baby bump I can able to hide myself in the compartment of the car this is the last thing I will going to give hardship to you my child I keep on caressing and whispering to my child.

As soon as I feel that the car stop and I heard that footsteps disappear pertaining that this secretary of Dwight is gone I open the compartment and I am grateful that no one is around.

I did this because I cant go out of the house without my body guard eyeing me. I can't jump of the tree the other way of me to escape since I'm afraid for my baby and I am well happy that this plan works. I quickly call a cab I will be going to a far place where no one knows me. I know my sister will be on a safe hands I trust Dwight mom's.

I know the place I am going the place where my mom bring me ever since I was a little she told me that day that this place is far from the city. This is the place when my mom mend her broken heart the place is so nice and I am so excited to see that place once again.

The ride was so long that makes me sleep along the way I bring some of my clothes but it is so little since I don't want to look suspected for scaping. I cant also afford to carry a heavy bags I still needs to walk for long since the house that my mom own in that land is so far. It is at the top of a little mountain and it is a little near in the white, fresh river.

This plan of mine is for the good of everyone Dwight don't need to endure my presence anymore he will be happy now with her woman. This is also for my baby I don't want to put her on risk any further the pain of seeing them both is not easy to bear.

He chooses her, he sided her he knows that she is the reason why my baby will at risk she don't even make any move to say sorry.

Ever since he know the news that we have a baby he never seem happy and I don't want my child to grow unwanted. It's better for him/her to lived with me alone than to grow on a big mansion trying to get his father's love and attention.

Dwight never show any affection to my child he always look at my bump with no expression at all. This is better for me and my child we will leave with peace and I will promise that I will love him/her so much more than my life.

I cant even notice that tears slowly cascading down my face it falls none stop. And now I let it fall mending my broken heart I let my walls fall this time. I touch my bump the same my mother do the moment my dad left.

I am now like my mother living with her child without a father cries scape my mouth because of the pains rushing in my heart.

I am an idiot hoping that he might change.

I start to walk like my mother did when she's alone, the sky look so peaceful in contrast with what I feel today. I never imagine that I will leave like this for all of my life I don't get any love aside from my mom and my sister. I will never find love anymore but instead I will give love as far as I can.

As I look at my watch I realize that I have been walking from one and a half hour I quickly unlock the door dark slowly eating the sky. I lighten the candle I am thankful that there is a lot of stocks in here before I got married I go in here bringing a lot of stocks like candles, flashlights, solar lights, lamps that needs gas so I also stock gas outside in a little cabinet that is made of stainless for more safety. If an accident that it will burn it creates no damage since there is enough distance for this house not to burn as well.

This house is cute I renovate since I renovate this, this wasn't big but the design is good to make it look like it is a big one there is a little stair upward towards my bedroom. There is also a dining room, bathroom and living room the moment you enter the house you can see all of its room. It has a modern design but there is no electricity in here since it is too far from the city.

Once my baby turns to 8 months I will going to rent in a small apartment near the small hospital in the city of this place. I will go back in here once I can be able to gain my strength to take care of my baby. I am thankful that I save my own money enough to support me as well as my baby. I have neighbor but they were too far this is really a place that is out of nowhere.

XENIA POV.

The moment the sun start to set I carry a little galloon of water that I get from the small well near the house I put all of the water in the kitchen I also get fresh vegetables from the backyard I am thankful this is still alive. I also get fresh fruits and put it in the kitchen. I open the window the view is breath taking the nature calm me from all of the loneliness.

Now I understand why mom love to go in here whenever she mend her heart. Silent tears flows from my eyes while I caress my stomach protectively. Everyday of my life in this house the warm and fresh air is my cloth that embrace me, the silence and the voice of the birds has been my lullaby.

I've been living in here for almost a month and my baby bump is 7 months this day it becoming big. No one call me since I destroy my sim and I didn't even open all of my social media account. I've been living in here with piece but the pain and the space in my heart I still feel incomplete living alone brought sadness in me sometimes. I can't wait to see my baby anymore I want to hold him/her in my arms.

Loneliness, pains and fears will always be there it never gone but I always find a way to overcome it. The weather outside slowly changing like it mixing with my moods.

The atmosphere is not good upon this day the wind blows so hard and I think that there is a storm I check all of the windows securing to close it all I even look on a roof to know if there is any damage.

I also get all of the fruits and vegetable and put it in the kitchen since the storm might destroy it all. I also put some stock of water inside despite my big bump I finish doing it all and I quickly go inside and close the door.

The heavy rain started to fall and the skies got more darker, I got a more thick blanket and envelope it in myself I keep my eyes fixated in the light while I'm eating.

A knock on the door bring me to a halt I got nervous thinking who was the person behind the doors. I keep on thinking if that would be a good or a bad person and the consequences of opening the door I am alone in here with a big baby bump. I choose to ignore the door for my baby's safety but my conscience never let me follow it what if the person needs help. I stand and put the garter with a knife under my dress.

I open the door silently since the knock never stops as I open the door I see a manly build body he have a big body I cant see his face since it is dark. I shut the door fears is embracing me but the man knock again I face my fears thinking that he might not that bad since he never do anything wrong the moment I open the door.

I open the door once again and ask him what is his problem he looks wet from the rain but he never speak so I tell him to come inside he obey me and walk inside I close the door and glance at him he was just standing at the side embracing his self the light creeps on him.

I just look at him with shock even if his hair is hiding his whole face I know who he is, his shirt is so wet that water is continuously dripping from him his muscle is visible and can be see clearly he is really a Greek god. What are you doing in here Dwight how do you know that I am here?

What the fuck comes in your mind walking in here in the middle of the rain since 3 o'clock of the afternoon the rain began to poured heavily are you out of your mind.

I keep on asking him but he remain silent his all mute this man never fails making melost my patience. I look at the dark window with disbelief despite all of the damage he do I still care for him. But the pang of pain in my chest is burning everything that makes me suffer flashback on my mind but I ignore it.

I look for anything that he can wear but there is no clothes for a man here I look at him and tell him that there is no clothes that he can wear he just show me a plastic so he have his dry clothes with him. I throw him my towel and point the bathroom. He obey what I said and I prepare a hot coffee for both of us I also prepared a food for him since I know he wasn't eating dinner as well.

Once he finish I cant stop stealing glances on him since he really looks intimidating and attractive with his messy hair. He wears a black shirt and a blue short and damn it suits him well I wonder how can I fall for a man like him. I just cant help he was really a beautiful scenery I just wish my child will inherit all of his features so that he/she will also grow with such beauty.

Why do you open the door not knowing who was behind it? He ask irritation is evident in his voice I just replied that it wasn't important to know who was behind it when he/she probably needs a help. He suddenly raise his voice a little, still you must not open the door what if he kills you he said.

I raised my brows on him, so your telling me to not open the door you must be thankful that I let you in I say to him walking out from him. But he stop me by holding my hand and making me sit telling me to finish my food first I just rolled my eyes on him and obey him since in his whole life he finally looks like pleading aside from his straight face.

As I finish my food he get all of the empty dishes and started washing it all. I began to ask him why his here he just replied that his tired and he wants to take a rest first he sleep on the couch. Seeing him sleeping I didn't notice that tears scaping from my eyes even though he makes a lot of damage on me I still cant be mad on him. Is this what my mom always told me when I was kid, you never let your heart filled with anger, sorrow and pain always find a way to forgive and freed all the negativity you feel and that moment you will know the real meaning of freeing yourself from hatred.

You will know the real meaning of love and kindness. If you really love the person even if he will break you a hundred times you will always choose not to hate him. You can't help to stop admiring him you always think of him, you will always care for him for unknown reason. Your dad left me but I don't hate him I just cant be mad on him for my whole life but I always choose to forgive him because I love him.

Now I understand my mom, life is so playful for making me feel the same I never just fall for this made of stone man but I also love this man in font of me. I wipe all of my tears and lay on my bed the moment I closed my eyes sleep overtake me. As soon as I open my eyes in the morning breakfast is set in the table the rain still pouring heavily as soon as we ate our breakfast I question Dwight once gain. I am here because there is some storm and your all alone in here.

I ask him how he know I am here he just replied that it is hard for him to locate me but his men's work hard to got all of the cctv he also hired a lot of private investigator and for months they keep on finding me last week some of his men give him a concrete evidence that I was here in this mountain.

Upon receiving that he go in here seeing me harvesting fresh fruits and when the storm announce to fall yesterday he finish all of his papers as fast as he can and he go in here. I just look at him with disbelief, why your looking for me you don't have a doll that you can play at home I ask him sarcastically. Or maybe you want to get my child for your empire why is your woman can't bear a child I laugh at him mind taking her on a doctor.

Stop all of this plays of you Dwight as soon as the rain stops go home and don't mind me I am living with a peaceful life now, I don't want to put my child at risk anymore.

Just think that I never exist anymore I left you for you to be happy, just please I don't want to leave like a toy anymore I am a human Dwight in every words that scaping my mouth aches build in my chest. For almost a months I now can voiced out what I want, I look at him and I never knew if my eyes betrayed me for all of the days I lived with Dwight this is the first time I see any emotions on his face.

Dwight your already free use your freedom to find your happiness the moment I left your house I forgot that I still your wife just sent me annulment papers.

Freeing him breaks me a lot I want to hug him the moment I see him but I know I will never do that never in my life. I want to stop him, I want him to at least fight I am hoping that he come here to see me, I am hoping that he at least care for me even if he don't feel any special for me as soon as he left the door I want to stop him I've been worried that he got soaked and catch a cold or ended up sick.

Tears falls from my eyes if love means feeling this way I don't want to love anymore. As soon as he left the house there is a swift pain in my stomach that makes me jolt a little. I touch it and it kick once again the baby is kicking I smile looking at my baby bump. Maybe he feel the same feeling I feel right now, he wants his daddy too that's why he kick the moment his dad left the door.

As I was about to shut the door a three red rose appear on my face as I look at the culprit I feel shock I thought his gone. I'm sorry for everything I've done to you and to our child I just cant stand talking and looking at you because of all of my mistakes and because of my anger towards woman so I keep on pushing you.

I make you suffer for the mistakes you didn't done because of my ex I hate all of woman's including you. I'm sorry, I know I don't deserve any of your forgiveness and trust but I am willing to earn all of it, he said with sincerity. I just look at him with disbelief I just didn't expect all of this to happen. When he didn't get any response from me he kneel in front of me while the rain pouring outside it makes my eyes release some tears. The almighty Dwight timberners that shows nothing but a straight face and who don't take any second thought of breaking anyone was now in front of me lowering his pride.

Dwight you know you create a lot of damage why don't you go to a woman your with. Because of you I suffer a lot I already give you the happiness you need. I freed you to be with her. You don't need to endure my presence anymore if your doing this because of your conscience please enough Dwight. You don't need to do this anymore maybe the pain and hate is still alive but the time will come that I will already free from it. Start a new life live happily Dwight and change for the better if you already do that your forgiven. I smile at him sincerely trying my best to look ok.

But his replied brought me at halt, no this is not only because of my conscience I am doing this because this is what I want. I'm really sorry for everything. Yes I am starting a new life and new life means making every things right.

This is the only one that will makes me feel relief and happy. I will willing to earn the piece of you that I happen to broke just please give one last chance. The look in his eyes broke me a lot this is the very first time he looks vulnerable like this. I accept the flowers and smile at him telling him to get inside before he got sick. I tell him to stand and he obey what I have said when I look at his face he smile at me brightly he quickly grab my neck and kiss me softly it makes my eyes bulge out of my socket.

It took me by surprise that I wasn't unable to respond as he puled out he look at me sincerely telling sorry he was just surprise and fluttered.

I put the flowers in the jar and put a little water from it, I also put it in the desk in my bedroom while his bathing I take a picture of the flowers he gave me. The first gift he gave to me and the first thing he gave me that comes into his heart his sincerity is what makes it more special to me.

As I was about to prepare a dinner for both of us he never let me do it he tell me to take a rest and he will be the one to do it. He is also the one who clean the dishes and arrange my bed as he finish all of his work he sit beside my chair and he looks nervous I look at him trying my best not to look dumbfounded from his sudden change.

I ask him what's wrong he just replied if he can touch my womb I just look at him showing a little nod. He quickly lower his ear and put it in my womb I feel nervous from the sudden contact. Hello my baby how are you there you grow healthy huh even if your mom have a lot of work in here living alone he said.