Posted on: 11/30

Time line Dates: 11/30

Finished: 7/28/19

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12/19

It's been a month. I still have been completely distant. But it's also because Garmadon has been attacking non stop. Tomorrow is the first day of December, and according to Garmadon he wasnt going to attack till late January. Something about he was going on holiday too. However that's really hard to believe.

Its Saturday morning, and I was currently decorating my room for Christmas. KoKo had do some errands and Lloyd and the others were out. They invited me, but I declined. It's not like I'm not happy, but I just dont know how to feel. Whenever we do hang out, I'm always quite. I only talked when I was talked to directly. Lloyd had asked me on another date, just the two of us, but I just shook my head and said sorry.

At some point they found where I had been eating lunch, same place I did when I first got here. Cole legit picked me up and carried me to the lunch table. At least until the building of the school, then I was put down and dragged. I was suprised, they were definitely consistent. I didn't think they would still care this much a month in. But I did appreciate them trying. At this point it was mostly embarrassment stopping me from talking.

"I dont think your ignoring them because you know they're the Ninja." Growll said. I looked at him questionably. "I think you're really starting to get home sick. And your taking it out on them."

Maybe that was right.

"I guess. It is my first Christmas without my family." I said. "And yeah. I have been reading Nate and Marc's comic every day, and playing Max's game anytime I can, and watching Alyas memory video and tearing up at that, and I kept the Macaroon box. Uh, and I keep Rose's keychain everywhere I go. And, I've listened to every album Mylène and Ivan got me." I said slower every time I listed something. Ah.

"Just try and talk to them." Longg said. Just then a knock was heard.

"Come in." I said. Nya came in.

"Hey, I just wanted to check up on you." She said sweetly, smiling. I started tearing up, she took notice and quickly shut and locked the door, and walked over to me, sitting down. "Whats wrong?"

"Alot." I laughed, still crying. "I'm so sorry. I've just realized how homesick I actually am. And I've been a dick and took it out on you guys. And I've ruined any chance I had with Lloyd. And, uh, well, I kinda needed to think and that's why I didnt really speak to you guys the first week."

"Y/N, I completely understand. You dont need to apologize. I even told the guys, 'shes going through alot moving and this is her first Christmas so far away. Give her time' and we all agreed, you just needed space. Lloyd's a bit - well alot - more heart broken and worried than the others." She said. I smiled at her.

"Theres also one more thing." I said nervously. She gave me a 'continue' look. "I know you guys are the Ninja. Halloween, when Lloyd and I almost, ya know, kissed, and pushed me into my room and told me to stay when Garmadon attacked. I went into his room, confused as to what happened and saw his window open. KoKo and I were the only ones in the house that night. I covered for him, but I still knew."

"Uh, were not the Ninja." Nya said nervously.

"Nya. If I tell you how I know, based off personal experience, you have to promise me we will keep this between us. You only know that I know, and what I'm about to show you, never leaves this room." She gave me a suspicious look, before sighing and nodding. "Growll, Longg, come out please."

Nya just started at them.

"Those are weird bugs." She said, still wide eyed.

"These are my Kwamis. They give me my power for my Miraculous."

"You are apart if the Miraculous League you told us about?" She questioned.

"Yeah. That's how I knew Lloyd was a Ninja. I know what it's like to have to sneak out of your room to go save the day." She just smiled at me and brought me into a hug.

"Looks like my best friend is a hero." She squealed. "You kamis are so cute."

"Kwami." I corrected, laughing as she pet Growll behind her ears.

"Kwami, right." She said, still petting Growll.

"I was also upset I guess." I continued.

"What do you mean?"

"Right when were finally going to kiss, two attempts later, the Garmadon alarm rang and Lloyd pulled away and shove me into my room, then told me to stay." I said. "He knows about my fears with Garmadon."

"I understand. That was Lloyd's way of protecting you though." She said. I just shrugged.

"So. What now?" I asked.

"Well, eventually you have to go talk to the other. Especially Lloyd. But right now I need your help. Can you get dressed?" She asked. I nodded, and went to change. I slipped into my black athletic leggings which had some mesh accents. I put on my white, stressed sweater. Over top I put my army green jacket on. I slipped on my thick grey socks and put my brown combat boots on. I also put on white fingerless gloves, cause it was actually starting to get cold. I walked out of my closet and saw Nya on her phone. She smiled at me.

"Go do whatever bathroom stuff you need to do. I'm gonna go tell the boy we're going out - and that your actually alive." She teased. I smiled and shook my head at her. I walked into the bathroom and brushed my hair. I left it down and natural. I added mascara and eyeliner, and chapstick. I walked back into my room and grabbed my mini backpack. I grabbed my phone and opened Instagram. Pleased with myself that I actually left my pajamas, I took a mirror selfie. Walking out of my room and closing the door, I started adding somethings to my picture. Little doodles of snowflakes. Dropping my bag on the island I waited for Nya to come over and drag me out.

I was aware of the stares I was getting, my friends probably suprised I actually came out and it wasnt a prank. I leaned my arms against the counter as I finished the little snowflakes. Please with my work, I posted the photo and captioned it 'Winter Daze❄'. I added a photo to my story saying 'LMR'. I just scrolled through Instagram while waiting for Nya, wherever she was.

"You ready?" I looked up and saw her in her own jacket. She was honestly had alot of layers on. She looked at my outfit, seeing it better this time, and raised her brow.

"Aren't you gonna be cold?" I snorted.

"You're forgetting where I grew up. Paris is so much more colder than this in the winter." I said. I locked my phone and put it in my pocket that was in my leggings. I put my bag on and I was ready.

"Oh." She said. "Anyway, do you have any where you need to go?" I though for a second.

"Hobby Lobby. Maybe a few other stores. Depending on what comes to mind." I shrugged.

"Ok then. Let's go." She said grabbing my arm and tugging me out of the apartment. She shouted a quick 'bye' before slamming the door.

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We had just gotten to the mall. It wasnt to bad for a Saturday. I've seen worse. Paris only had one mall for the world wide stores. I did Black Friday once, and I promised on never doing it again. Although it was past that time here, most of the sales were still up, so I used that to my advantage. We had worked our way from store to store, starting from the front to the back of the mall. Nya dragged me into Victoria's Secret, something about needing more sports bras and pajamas. I was just wondering around, looking at all the Christmas stuff. I found a few things I like and just held them, debating on if I wanted to get stuff. I could use some Christmas stuff. I dont need it, but I could use it. At least that's what I'm telling myself. I grabbed the green and gold plaid pajamas that were silk. It was a two piece, a button up shirt that went to my elbows and matching shorts. I had wondered if the underwear section. I snickered holding up panties that barely covered anything. I felt like someone was watching me, normally how I feel in stores like this, but I was sure of it. I looked up and as a matter-of-fact, there was a tall burnette starring at me. Meeting his gaze, I kinda just dropped the underwear I was holding and slowly walked away. I walked into the PINK section, wanting to get away from whoever that was. Who stares at people looking at underwear. I sighed as I looked at the leggings. I grabbed a pair, then saw the sale and grabbed two. Everything was over half off. Which was rare, so I just got what I pleased. I grabbed my favorite perfume, Warm and Cozy, and walked back into VS. I saw a pair of white, fluffy, boot slippers that were 10 dollars. I huffed. Did I need them? No. Did I grab a pair? Why yes I did. Then I saw matching pajamas for both Male and female. They were silk, like the ones I picked out. But these were plain emerald green ones with tiny snowflakes. The tops were button up long sleeved, and the pants were long too. Lloyd wasnt my boyfriend, and we certainly were in quite the tricky spot. I still got them.

I was still wondering around. And managed to end up by the underwear and bras again. Maybe it wouldn't hurt. I stood there and though. I sighed, they were on sale. So what's the harm? I grabbed a green bra with gold lace designs on the cup, and the matching underwear. I saw Nya checking out and got in line. I waved her down as she looked around for me. Approaching me, she smirked as she saw the items.

"I see your taking my advice." She teased. I just let out a laugh as I got to the cashier. I put my stuff down and got my card out.

"You're boyfriends a lucky guy." The cashier said. He was a dude. Figures. I rolled my eyes.

"So I need to have a boyfriend in order to get matching underwear and bras?" He quickly apologized and got the rest of my stuff in the bag. After paying for it, I immediately left, Nya following. I just wondered into Bath and Body Works.

"Nice choice!" Nya exclaimed, going to smell the candles. I honestly didnt even know I came into this store, I had just been in VS and PINK. Maybe some candles? Definitely. I walked around and smelled the candles. Did my room stink? Maybe it does. I definitely don't have a candle addiction. I grabbed a 2 wallflower plugs, and a few of the scents. I got matching candles too. I got Vinilla Bean Noel, Cinnamon Stick, and (a random one you like because I know y'all love this store too). I saw that they had Lloyd's cologne here, and remembering Lloyd's room, it did in fact, smell. So I got the wallflower scent in his cologne and decide to just give him one of the wall flower plugs I had. I didnt need both. Or did I? No! Stay on a budget!

I bought the items, and waited for Nya. I looked up, searching for her as it's been 5 minutes. Seeing her, I quickly rushed to Nya's side, the store starting to get packed and busy places were not my favorite.

"Nya, let's go to Hobby Lobby." I said, needing painting stuff. It could keep my busy at the least. Plus I wanted to paint a few pairs of jeans.

"Ok. Let me just pay." She shrugged. She had like, 6 candles. I knitted my brows together.

"Kai is my brother. And my dad doesnt really clean up after himself either." She said. "Plus, hes fire. He smells like burning wood all the time. It's getting to much." She whispered. I just shrugged and followed her to the line.

Nya paid for her stuff and we walked out. I walked fast to Hobby Lobby. Nya was confused at my fast pace, her face said it all. I entered the store and walked straight to the painting stuff. I grabbed Nya and yanked her into the isle.

"Look at all the colors!" I squealed. Nya laughed at the fact that the multiple colors and variations of paint.

"Ok, next let's go into Holister, I want a few pairs of jeans to paint. Then maybe go to Hot Topic." I said. She nodded, agreeing.

"Ok. Let's just get what you came here for." She said. I let out a sigh and grabbed a few canvases. Looking closer at the paints next.

"Do you want me to paint one of your pockets?" I asked. She smiled.

"Sure. Can you do a cool wave?" I nodded my head and grabbed a few blues and glow in the dark fabric paints. I grabbed a few other colors and left the isle.

"Hey, do you remember the shirt you wore on your first day of school here? Could you maybe do something like that for me?" She asked nervously.

"Sure! We just have to head to the jewelry isle." She nodded her head and followed me. When we entered the isle I stopped infront of the chains.

"Pick out a color, while keeping in mind the shirt you want me flip." I said. She picked out the grayish silver, so I grabbed the matching key ring. I did need the tools, already having some at home.

"Ok, looks like I have everything ready?" I asked.

"Yeah. Let's head out." She said, walking out of the isle.

"Hey, would you mind if I called the others to come eat with us?"

"Yeah that's fine, let me pay. And we can call them on the way to Hollister. " I said. She nodded and got her phone out. I got my stuff and combined two of the bags, I only had three but it was starting to get heavy. Nya dialed Kai's number and he took forever to pick up.

"Hey sis-" He started, before a groan was heard. "Come on Jay! Lloyd, you are way to good at this game!"

"Kai." Nya hissed.

"What? Ok, what do you want?"

"Well, I was going to be nice and ask if you wanted to come to the Mall and have lunch with us." Nya started. "But if your to busy-"

"No! I could go for some Pizza. I cant stay here any longer." Kai was a pretty loud talker on the phone.

"Ok, is it just going to be you or do the others want some too?" Nya asked. There was some muffled talking before Kai came back.

"The others want Pizza, where are you guys now?" Kai asked.

"Heading in to Hollister. Going to continue shopping, Y/N is going to paint my jeans, so I'm gonna grab a pair." Nya said. Walking into the women's section, I grabbed the jeans I wanted, not wanting to stay longer than I had too. Nya grabbed two, and we headed straight to check out. Nya still had Kai on the line. Nya had checked out first, already knowing her size while I had to check my phone notes. I sighed as I grabbed the threw pairs I wanted, rushing into the line - which there was no one - I paid and got to Nya.

"Ok, we're on our way. Meet by the food court when I text you we're here." Kai said, handing up. Nya and I left the store, heading to Hot Topic.

"I honestly dont even know what I'm going to get here." I said, opening the door to Hot Topic.

"Me neither, but I'm sure I'll walk out of here with a few shirts." Nya said. I shrugged and followed her to the shirt wall. And well, I got a few shirts to. Checking out, I grabbed my bag and stuffed it in another bag I had. Nya's phone dinged, signaling the guys were here. We left the store and headed to the food court.

"Thank god. I could use some Pizza. I'm starving." I whinned.

"Me too. There they are!" Nya grabbed my hand, dragging me again over to where she saw her brother waving. Once we got to the table, Nya said next to Kai, whi was next to Jay, who was next to Cole, who was next to Zane, who was next to Lloyd. So that's where I sat. Between Lloyd and Nya.

"Lord have mercy I swear I saw my life flash." I said, resting my head on the table. "I swear I have shopped till I fucking died." I grumbled.

"We've only been out for a few hours." Nya laughed.

"I dont care. Plus, I was creeped out from the beginning. Some weird guy was watching me in Victoria's Secret. Who watches someone in that kind of store?"

"Someone who wants to get laid." Cole said casually.

"I'm 17."

"So? Kids in our school do it, and the youngest age range is 14-15."

"Fair point." I said. Cole just shrugged again.

"You should have seen Chen freshman year." Nya gagged.

"I dont want to see that image." I cringed.

"He was caught in the bathroom with this on chick-" Kai started.

"Ok! I'm gonna go get food and, just, not listen to Chens illegal stories." I said, getting up.

"I'll come with." Nya said getting up. "I'm starving."

"Pizza?" She nodded. "Do you guys want Pizza too?" I asked.

"Sure."

"I dont care."

"I guess, since we're here."

"Ok."

The only one who didnt respond was Lloyd. Not that I blamed him. I was a ass to him. I was heart broken. But he was even more. And I didnt know how to fix it. I knew for a fact his trust level was already extremely low, and I broke our trust. All I told him was 'You left me' and that was it. He didnt know what he did wrong, and I'm pretty sure that's why this hasn't ended sooner. I sighed as I just turned around and walked to the Pizza place. Ordering a mix of Pepperoni and Cheese, I waited with Nya for it to be done.

I was just casually scrolling through Instagram, when someone stopped in front of me. Assuming it was one of the guys, I responded.

"The pizza's almost done. Its should only be a few more minutes."

"I dont think you know who you think your talking to." I snapped my head up. It was the same brunette who was starring at me in VS.

"Uhhh. Can I help you?"

"Are you the Parisian that modeled for Gabriel Agreste?" He asked.

"Um, yeah that's me. Who might you be?"

"I work for a rival company." Ah. I'm about to be convinced his company is better than Gabriel Agreste. This will be funny.

"Is that so? Then why are you talking to me?"

"Because we want to hire you." Just then all four Pizza's were done. I grabbed two, and so did Nya.

"Sorry, not interested." I said walking back to our table. Once we sat down Nya started laughing. The other gave her a look, I just rolled my eyes.

"But Ma'am, we could make you famous!" The guy said, standing behind me. I turned to him, still sitting in my chair.

"I'm obviously already famous if your approaching me. Gabriel is my best friends dad, I dont plan on leaving his brand for someone who I never even got their name." I said, rolling my eyes. I turned back I grabbed a slice of Pizza. Halfway into taking a bite, I was met with quite the comment.

"My name is Gaston. And, well, you dont have to be a bitch about it."

"I'm already a bitch. Nice try, dipshit. Now scram before I call Gabriel and give him your name." I threatened. He quickly scurried off. Nya started laughing again.

"Man. The people here have no boundaries." I said. Cole snorted.

"Trust me. We already know that. But it's been fun seeing you experience it." Cole replied.

"It never gets better." Kai said. "Trust us."

"If you're not used to this kind of behavior from people, I'm moving to Paris." Nya said, grabbing a slice of Pizza. I just sighed.

"Sorry, I know your extremely homesick with the holidays and I should have-" Nya started.

"Nya, its ok. You dont have to apologize." I smiled at her.

"Have your parents tried to get you to go home during Christmas?" Jay asked. I looked down slightly.