It was around seven in the evening when Suho found himself standing outside Chen and Xiumin's apartment. That was the only place he could think about going to because he really didn't want to run over to Kai's and cry and give the poor man more tension than he already had since his son was ill.

The best he could think about doing was running over to Chen and Xiumin's taking in the fact that Xiumin already knew about his pregnancy and Chen being Xiumin's boyfriend was informed about it too. (Thanks to Xiumin)

Suho debated for rather five minutes whether to knock or just run back over to his house and lock himself up for two months and cry, honestly he was taking the second option into consideration more and he even did turn around and started making his way towards the elevator when the door to Chen and Xiumin's apartment opened itself.

Chen and Xiumin both oblivious to Suho's presence came out of the apartment, giggling and laughing, dressed up all fancy and Suho heart twisted a bit because he and Sehun used to be like that.

"Jun?" Xiumin was the first one to notice Suho soaked presence standing by the elevator followed by Chen who was in the process of locking the door so both he and Xiumin could go out.

"Hi." Suho squeaked, he didn't know what else to say.

"Suho , what are you doing here?, i mean we don't have a problem with you being here but what are you doing here?" Chen rambled. He was always bad with words.

"I just came to see you guys..but i'll leave because it looks like you're both heading out." Suho weakly smiled, which to be honest neither Chen nor Xiumin bought because "i've been crying for the past fucking hours because of my fucked up husband and you think i just came here to see you!" written all over his face.

"Uh, no you didn't, its raining outside Suho and we all know how much you hate rain, you would never go outside especially to visit someone in the rain." Xiumin mumbled, obviously the truth. Xiumin was one of those people who spoke before thinking and mainly the truth and that's one of the reasons why Suho loved Xiumin but also hated him in several situations for being the honest speaker mainly like this one.

"Yeah um...." Suho dragged on, he didn't know how to start and all he wanted to do was just cry and he desperately needed a shoulder to cry on.

"Let's just get inside yeah?" Chen suggested.

"No-no it's okay, i-i'll just go...."

"Hush up now Jun, nothing is important more than you okay, rest can wait, babe open the door and let's all go in before our neighbor walks out holding a rolling pin and growls at up." Xiumin chuckled.

Chen nodded quickly opening the half-locked door and Suho walked inside followed by Xiumin who was pretty sure if he left Suho behind he would run away.

"Sit down" Xiumin commanded and Suho scurried to the sofa and sat down quietly.

"Baby, make him a hot cocoa or what do you want Jun? well just make him a hot cocoa with marshmallows and chocolate syrup on top okay? yeah and for me too please babe lots of chocolate syrup thanks." Xiumin smiled at Chen who rolled his eyes at the "for me too please" part and then walked straight to the kitchen before Suho could interject saying "Don't trouble yourself..."

"Now you, wait here!" Xiumin said to Suho and ran inside his bedroom, coming out with two towels in his hands.

He gave them to Suho to wipe himself off, who took it rubbing it over his hair and face and arms and almost everywhere.

Chen came out of the kitchen holding a tray with three mugs on it and sat it on the table and sat next to Xiumin opposite to Suho.

"Aww babe, you're so sweet, i asked for one cup and you bought me two, i love you!" Xiumin giggled.

"Oh shut up Xiumin it's for me."

"Oh."

"Yeah."

"So Suho , tell us what's bothering you?" Chen asked. Suho shifted a little in his seat, thinking how he was going to break the news to the boys.

He had spent an entire hour deciding upon what to do until he came to this solution which sounded best to him.

"I-i'm planning on having an abortion." Suho mumbled.

"What?" Xiumin and Chen both said in unison.

"I'm planning on dropping the baby...."

The scenario Suho had thought when he was going to break the news to Chen and Xiumin was nothing compared to what actually happened.

Chen and Xiumin both started at Suho with their eyes wide and the cup Xiumin was holding sipping the hot cocoa from even dropped smashing all over the floor.

"WHAT THE FUCK SUHO !" Chen was the first one to react by getting up and yelling at Suho who felt smaller second by second.

"ARE YOU BLOODY OUT OF YOUR MIND, YOU CANT DO THAT!" Chen yelled again and Suho could almost feel the tears running down his cheeks.

"Calm down Dae...." Xiumin mumbled, still starstruck that Suho who has always dreamed about having kids has decided upon aborting his own child.

"HOW THE BLOODY HECK CAN I CALM DOWN WHEN HE'S PLANNING ON ABORTING HIS FUCKING CHILD XIUMIN !" Chen screamed looking at Xiumin now while pointing at Suho.

Suho was trembling like a little leaf. He wanted to pull his hair out and just yell and cry and finish his life along with the little child growing inside of him.

"Dad please love calm down, you're scaring him..." Xiumin begged and that was when Chen realised how loud he had been to the hormonal boy who was weeping quietly.

"Shit Jun i-" Chen started but stopped instantly, "Fuck i just-" he started pulling his hair because Suho wouldn't stop crying whole holding his little pudgy stomach.

Xiumin got up slowly and sat down next to Suho and instantly hugged him who let out a loud sob and started started to cry in Xiumin's touch.

Xiumin mouthed Chen to go to the bedroom or somehwere else because everyone knows what a hothead he is and has no control over himself what so ever.

Chen who was growling in anger a few minutes ago looked guilty and hell and nodded weakly and started making his way towards the bedroom.

Once Chen was gone and Xiumin had heard the door slam, he knew they were both alone now so he started to rub Suho's back lightly and did it for a whole until Suho finally let go of Xiumin and started to wipe his wet eyes and nose.

"Ready to talk?" Xiumin smiled.

Suho nodded and for the next hour or even more Suho spent Xiumin telling everything that had happened between him and Sehun in the past three days and how now Sehun had left him to go to new york.

Xiumin was beyond mad at Sehun but he kept his calm and handled the entire thing like a mature person unlike Chen or Kai who were both ready to bring out their bazooka's and shoot it straight up Sehun's ass.

Chen came out of the room soon making his way towards Suho and Xiumin looking down while fiddling with his fingers, he mumbled "I'm sorry and i'm an idiot for yelling at you." to Suho while Xiumin nodded and then he hugged Suho .

Suho wasn't mad at all, he actually understood exactly where Chen was coming from but Chen had to see things from Suho's prospective too.

"I honestly don't think you should abort Suho because just think about the soul growing inside you, the little boy or the girl; just think about it, i don't want you to make a decision with a heavy heart now that you will regret later, just consider the facts." Xiumin spoke rubbing Suho back again softly.

Suho nodded biting his bottom lip. Still weighing the whole thing, 98% of his mind was yelling at him to not abort the baby but the other 2% was telling him to get rid of it because it was of Sehun's.

"You could always give it you for adoption if you don't want it..." Chen added.

Suho shook his head quickly, he didn't want to give up his child, his blood to some random strangers who wouldn't even treat his child with the love and affection he desires.

"If you don't want to give it up for adoption then keep it Jun..."

"I-i don't know what to do, i really don't, please don't think of me as a bad person i don't want to kill my own child, i don't i'm not cruel please but it's just Sehun, he-he- it's just i'm afraid if our child will ever get the love from his other father like every other kid does or not, i'm afraid i'm so bloody afraid, he doesn't even know what his own god darn child, i just, he's gone for two months, two whole months and what he comes later and sees me all fat and swollen and throws me out because he doesn't want a kid what will i do then?"

"Don't think like that Jun, don't. don't you remember Sehun always talking about having kids when you both were young and don't think like he will throw you out of something, he won't and if he doesn't you can always come and live with us?!" Xiumin says.

"I don't know what to do i really don't, i'm a total mess and i hate it, i just have everything...." and Suho was crying because he had no control over his emotions at all.

Both Xiumin and Chen couldn't stand the sight really. "Let's just do one thing, you sleep in here with you and we'll talk about this tomorrow okay?" Chen suggested.

Suho nodded weakly wiping his eyes. Xiumin smiled then telling Chen to set up the guest bedroom so Suho was sleep in.

Suho smiled a little but all he could think about right now was that if he kept his baby would Sehun accept him?