It was about to be a month since you have introduced jungkook to your grandmother. They both get along very well and get to know each other each time you visit her to help out at the hotel.

And you kind of get mad or annoyed now that their closer because now jungkook is slowly becoming your grandmothers favorite. But then you think about it, she does it to tease you.

She use to do that to you but with Jonathan.

Tomorrow was April the first and you have this urge to tell Jonathan about what happened fifteen years ago because a voice inside of you was saying it's time.

You were scared of the thought of telling him because despite that he deserves to know, you don't want him to get hurt by this but he's your brother.

And he deserves to know what happened to his parents. Two parents that his memory faded about them the more he grew up.

"Hellooooo, earth to amber." Krystal says while waving both of her hands in front of your face. You glare at her but she gives you a childish smile. You chuckle with a smile due to her cuteness.

"God, your smile is beautiful." She says while fanning herself. You fight the urge of not smiling again but she sees right through you. "Anyways so like are you and jungkook dating?" You stay still at your spot.

No, after confessing and opening up to each other, you guys haven't made it official but you still get scared of the thought of falling in love with him but you don't know what's that like.

You don't know the feeling of being in love with someone. But it scares you because you'll never know when you do. Your also scared that if you both were to fall in love with each other that both of your memories will be erased of each other, due to the curse.

And it scares you, because you don't want to forget him. It scares you because you enjoy his presence, his warm and soft aura. It scares you because you like him and opened up to him.

Because it's like that once you guys forget each other, all the good memories you guys made, all the real smiles and laughs were simply erased. All the courage you had to build up to tell him about your past will be just thrown away like it was not worth telling him in the first place when the both of you will simply forget each other.

It scares you because it just does... and you don't want him to be separated from you just like your parents.

You never cared about anyone leaving you because you simply didn't care...but now with jungkook in your life, you now care. And it hurts even thinking about that.

And you blame him for that.

"There you go zoning out again." Krystal says with a dramatic whine. "Oh um no, we're not together." You simply say. "Well you guys have to now if you told him something that I don't have much details about." You playfully glare at her.

You know what she's talking about. She only knows that your parents were taken away but not at a young age. You didn't tell her the full story because you had a feeling she was gonna tell it to your brother. But you knew you could trust her but you want to tell your brother first before telling her the whole story.

"Shut up and leave me alone or else I'll kick you out of here myself." Krystal chuckles. "Yes ma'am." You roll your eyes with a small smile.

It was weird. You smiling but it felt nice. It was something your not use to and you will admit that it's uncomfortable but it's slowly getting better.

You and krystal were at your house because she saw the same guy when she was dropping off Luna to Jonathan's practice four hours ago. Right now it's four in the afternoon.

You decide to go see him. Something in you was telling you to let him know about fifteen years ago and you think that maybe it's time to tell him.

He deserves to know.

___

"Amber?" Jonathan says confusedly to see you here at his practice. He jogs towards you, sweating from his face.

You give him a small smile. "Hey Johnny." You say. "What are you doing here? I thought you would be working or something." You shake your head. "Jungkook told me to take a few days off because of well..." You nervously look at him as he raises an eyebrow, waiting for you to continue.

"I'll tell you but first I want you fresh and clean so come on." Jonathan hesitantly nods his head before you both go separate ways. Him going in his car to meet you over at your place.

As you both arrive at your place. Jonathan quickly runs upstairs to take a shower. You sit on one of the couches and sigh while burying your face into your hands.

It was scaring you to tell him.

On that day when your parents were being taken away, when you wanted to cry, you let your brother cried instead because he was too young to witness that only at the age of four years old.

It was scaring you to tell him because every night since that day, Jonathan will cry and the only way for you to calm him down was to play the guitar while singing to him to sleep.

Just like your mother did.

The more he grew up, he immediately had a passion for soccer.

Just like your father. He reminds you of your father a lot as he had some of his looks from both of your mother and father while you just look like your mother but have your fathers dark hair.

You sigh as your head was beginning to hurt at the thought of your parents. You missed them.

But it hurt too much to think of them.

You decide to text jungkook to ask him if it was okay to tell Jonathan. Because your scared.

And you don't know what to do.

hey kook... Today I'm being weird but is it okay that I tell my brother about what happened 15 years ago? I-I'm scared to tell him because I don't want him to get hurt.

You wait for jungkooks reply as he was currently at the gym. You instantly hear a ding from your phone. You look to see it was jungkook.

aw. :( is my little tiny worried? It's okay little one. If you tell him this, yes it will hurt him but he'll be glad to know what happened and that'll make him stronger. He will be able to get through it because you will be by his side. You got this little one, fighting!

You didn't realize as you felt something rolling down your left eye. You touch it to see your finger tips wet. You sadly chuckle, thankful that you have Jungkook by your side to encourage you.

You hear another ding. You see jungkook sent you another message.

and if it will help you, I'll be right outside of your door, and when your done, I'll come in and take you and Jonathan out. How does that sound tiny?

You pout. He was willing to wait outside, to be there for you and Jonathan in silent and take you guys out.

thank you so much... for everything.

thank you for existing. :)

ew no go away now, you sound so cringey.

you know you secretly enjoy it. ;)

never that. 0-0

but for real tho, I'll be outside for you both okay?

thanks bunny boy. :)

yah! go away before I'll change my mind.

You roll your eyes with a small smile. You realize that maybe it's worth it. Maybe he was worth the pain. Maybe he was worth letting in if in the end you'll both will be apart.

Because he has given you strength and support to able to tell your brother what you couldn't done without jungkooks help.

You sigh before hearing footsteps coming down the steps. You look up and look towards the staircase to see Jonathan done with his shower. Wearing simple black joggers and grey shirt. You gulp nervously.

"So..." he says slowly before walking in the living room and sitting down next to you. You inhale and exhale a deep breath.

You avoid eye contact before speaking. "Have you always wondered what happened to mom and dad?" You say looking down at your lap. All you were met was silence. You hesitantly look up at Jonathan staring at you, staying still in his spot not once blinking.

"You don't need to tell me am. I can see you trying to avoid eye contact with me because your nervous." You sigh still looking down at your lap. "I need to tell you this Jonathan, it's bugging me for way to long and I just can't keep it bottled up inside anymore..." you mumble. "Im trying to change, for the better." You whisper.

You instantly see hands over your hands. You slowly look up at Jonathan. "You were already perfect for me am. But are you sure you want to tell me? Like yea, I always wanted to know but I never wanted to push it." You hesitantly nod.

"You deserve to know what happened Johnny." You see Jonathan sigh. "I'm all ears, just take it nice and slow okay?" You slowly nod.

And you begin telling him everything. And it was tearing you apart to see those flashback run through your head like a film while explaining it to him.

Suffocating you as you couldn't breathe any air even if you were.

___

After you have explained while avoiding eye contact, you look up at him to see tears were beginning to form. Your heart begins to ache, slowly shattering all over again as you watch a tear slip out of his amber eyes.

You slowly move closer to him. Before hesitantly wrapping your arms around him. Jonathan instantly wraps his arms around you tightly, shaking.

You felt like crying... crying because the hug feels exactly just like the hug that happened fifteen years ago.

You rub his back, only paying attention to his pain. This wasn't about you, it was about him and letting the information sink in. And all you had to do was embrace him and comfort him.

"W-why do you only pay attention on my pain am?" Jonathan says with a tint of crack in it as he was trying hard to not break down in your arms. "Jonathan, this isn't about me. This is about you." You feel Jonathan shake his head by your neck. "Stop that am, you always do that. You were young too. This isn't about me. This is about us am. You and me."

You stiffen as it was just similar to what jungkook had said to you when you told him.

You feel Jonathan pull away, he looks up at you, staring at your amber eyes. "I remember I had to watch you throw away your whole childhood, for me to be okay and happy. I remember I had to watch you clean room to room in grandmas hotel at a young age. I remember I had to watch you not smile and lose yourself at a very young age after grandma told us about her health. I remember me and grandma had to watch you mentally hurt yourself in silence."

You guilty look down.

"When I was fifteen and up, I had heard you cry only once a year, forbidden yourself to show any emotions on any other month or day."

"Jonathan..." You whisper while not daring to look up at his eyes. "Did you know that hurt me way more than what you told me about mom and dad just now? It hurt me because you always put my feelings, emotions first before yours. And when you wanted to cry on that very day, you let me cry instead. You were just seven years old and you dropped out of school just to work at the hotel." You silently whimper as you were trying to hold in the tears.

You look up at him as more tears fall from his eyes.

"And right now I can see you want to cry. You need to let it out am." He pleads. You quickly shake your head seeing that he needed to let it out more than you. Jonathan brings you in his embrace. "Let it all out am."

Tears begin to fall from your eyes, landing on his shirt as the both of you begin to cry in each other's embrace. "I'm sorry for hurting you Johnny." You say between cries.

"I-I just promised mom to protect you. I promised mom that you would be my top priority. I promised dad that you were to be happy. I promised myself to make sure you were living and happy with no worries." Jonathan hugs you more tightly.

"And now my promise to mom and dad is for you to focus on you. Not only me but you deserve to be happy as well. You deserve it." Jonathan says.

"Because you are MY mom as well. When you shouldn't have to be my mom. But you are my mom and sister. You worked hard and now it's your turn to be happy." You let more tears fall at his words. Every word that came out of his mouth made a knife stab your heart against your chest, letting your heart mentally bleed.

While Amber and Jonathan were crying in each other's arms, jungkook that was outside, sitting down on the floor, his back leaning against the front door while looking up at the dark blue night sky keeping his promise. He stayed out there, his heart breaking hearing both souls cry.

And what was hurting him more was how much amber was suffering in silence due to Jonathan words.

She really threw her childhood away just to provide Jonathan a home while helping her grandma. She really pushed her feelings, her emotions just to make sure that Jonathan and their grandmother were okay.

It hurt that Jonathan had seen her hurt in silence, hear her cry in silence once a year since that very day.

But what hurt as well is that, amber didn't tell him her grandmother had health problems. But it's not his business because it's personal.

He'll let amber tell him when she's ready to.

Just by everything that has happened and is happening to amber, Jonathan and their grandmother hurts.

But it hurts because he cares about amber. It hurts because Jonathan is like a friend to him besides jimin. It hurts because he cares about his grandmother, every time he visits with amber to help around the hotel, she welcomes him with open arms as if she made him apart of their little family.

Family.

His only family is jimin and his mother, besides her side of her family but it was normally always him, jimin and his mother. But he didn't care if it was small, he just appreciates them as much as he cans.

Jungkook sighs while closing his eyes as fresh wind breezes and hits against his skin as he stays still until he doesn't hear their heart breaking cries. He hesitantly stands up and places his hand over the knob.

He inhales a breath and turns the knob to the door. He's met to see both Jonathan and amber hugging but not crying their hearts anymore. Amber pulls away from Jonathan's embrace and looks up at jungkook with her broken amber eyes.

Eyes slightly red and slightly puffy. She gives him a small thumbs up with a small smile. Jungkook softly smiles at amber that she was able to do it.

Jungkook knew she could do it. She just needed some support to let her know that it was okay to tell.

"Oh uh hey kook, what's up?" Jonathan says while quickly wiping his tears, not wanting jungkook to see them. Jungkook chuckles. "It's okay john, I know about it." Jungkook says softly.

Jonathan looks at amber and was glad that jungkook was here. He can see that jungkook gave amber strength just to tell him about what happened about his parents. And he can just see that everytime jungkook is around her, her eyes hold stars in them.

Something he's never seen because he doesn't remember the last time he's seen amber holding stars in her amber eyes. He thinks he hasn't even seen them at all.

So right now he's glad that amber has jungkook by her side because he sees that ever since the incident, them meeting, she's been somewhat different and now he's seeing that amber is trying. Trying to get used to whatever this new feeling she isn't use to.

Also at the thought that she told someone else about what happened before she told him didn't bother him the slightest bit. It hurts about what happened about his parents but he can't recall nor remember any memory.

The only memory he remembers is being in ambers arms while crying.

"Okay kiddos let's go." Jonathan looks at jungkook confusedly before looking at amber, she shrugs not knowing where jungkook is gonna take them.

___

"Where are we going kook?" Amber ask as it was only her and jungkook as Jonathan was overwhelmed with the information and crying that he was tired so he wanted to get rest since he also finished soccer practice not to long ago.

"No." Jungkook says instantly as he focuses on the road. Amber rolls her eyes. "Please." Jungkook shakes his head. "No."

"Yes."

"No."

"Yes."

"Am, I just said n-"

"I don't care." Amber says as she looks at jungkook to see him roll eyes his sassily. Both jungkook and amber softly chuckle.

"We are going to LetsRun Park Busan–Gyeongnam theme park even if we are there for a bit since it closes at six so at least an hour." Amber nods her head while looking out the window at buildings moving by her fast.

"Thank you again kook, I mean it." Amber softly says. Jungkook moves his eyes from the road to amber, her head leaning against the clear, her amber eyes staring out to the world.

He softly smiles before moving his dark doe eyes back on the road. "No problem but don't thank me too much or els-" he gets interrupted. "Yah, okay I'll shut up now, so shush and let me sleep for a bit." Jungkook rolls his eyes with a smile.

She deserves a little nap.

___

Jungkook parks the car and turns off the engine before looking to his right to look at amber, sleeping with arms crossed while the orange and yellow sun, setting behind her with the sky covered with different shades and colors. Pink, purple, orange, yellow and red, those colors making her dark brown hair into golden brown under the sunset rays.

She looks beautiful and he wondered what her eyes look with the sunset rays when it shines on her.

He softly chuckles at the thought before shaking her softly to wake up.

She slowly wakes up before glaring at him. "What?" He ask in confusion as he sees her glaring at him. "You dare wake me up." He shrugs. "Well then I guess we can just leav-" his mouth is covered by soft hands.

He fights back his laughter as amber removes the seat belt and gets out the car, her eyes sparkling as they were close to the entrance to the amusement park.