I slowly and tiredly wake up on the couch, before gently rubbing my eyes for me to wake up and my vision to get more clearer.

When my vision is good, I turn to look at you sleeping on the other couch with no blanket, with headphones over your head while it was plugged into your phone. I look at your state and see dried up tears.

Was she crying? I think to myself as my heart drops but I put the blanket that was covering me and I put it on you, letting my warmth, warm you up. You instantly cuddle against the blanket and I softly smile.

But I tiredly sigh. After me and you have played feeling something, we decided to go home and you insisted that I stay over as it was 5 in the morning that we left jeju island.

But despite that I was tired, I don't regret it as I was finally able to see your amber eyes twinkle bright for the first time, your amber eyes were it had a more glow and light in them. And I was happy enough to be able to see that despite it wouldn't last long and I don't know if I will be able to see again.

But that's okay.

Because I'll do what ever it takes to see the glow and light in your amber eyes again.

"Wait a damn minute..." I mumble under my breath. I place my right hand onto my chest where my heart is at and I feel my heart beating fast.

Shit, no no no. I think to myself before removing my hand from my heart and touching my face, I feel the heat on my cheeks.

Well shit, I'm fucked, aren't I? I though to myself before a sigh leaves my mouth.

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"JIMIN!!!" I say loudly the minute I walk into mine shared apartment. I go in the living room to see jimin look up from his phone with a confused look before he slowly puts it down. "What?" He ask confusedly. I glare at him angrily.

"You knew it would of happened, didn't you?" I say, jimin furrows his brows in confusion. "Amber." Is all I say for jimin to realize what I was talking about. He quickly stands up with a slightly mad face. "Hey don't you dare blame it on me kook, I'm not the one that has talked to her or hanged out with her, get that through your thick skull." I clench my jaw.

"But why didn't you stop me jimin?! Why are you letting me fall in love with her?!" I angrily say while going up to jimin, face to face. Jimin scoffs while rolling his eyes. "Don't you dare roll your eyes jimin, why?!" I say, he looks up at me, his next words made me freeze in my spot.

"Because I never saw you genially smile until you met her, your smile with her was truly real and the other times when girls would try to date you, you never gave it a chance because they were only going for your looks and when you met amber, I decided to not tease you, because she's different and that would of stopped you from trying to find someone jungkook. Because one day, I saw you texting her and you had a huge smile on your face, so I watched you, and I realized that you liked her, but you are slowly falling in love with her correct?" I madly nod while I gulp down an invisible feeling in my throat.

"But you know I can't fall in love with her jimin! This stupid curse will take her away from me and I can't have that jimin!" I say with a gulp. "I know this happened to my mom and just by the looks by it, it makes you feel miserable. Just look at my mom! She looks incomplete, one day she got drunk with one of her friends and when her friend brung her back home, my mom cried in my arms, saying she felt empty, like a piece in her was missing. And I have a feeling that's my dad." I madly but sadly say while I sit on the floor with my knees up to my chest, my arms wrapped around my legs.

"Jungkook, look I'm sorry but isn't it better to not take amber for granted and just enjoy the time you have with her?" My eyes dart up at jimin with a glare.

"I think it's best if I keep my distance." I say while staring at the floor but zone out, trying to keep my cool, taking slow breaths.

"But it's not your fault jimin. I know you only wanted me happy." I mumble as I calm down.

"Im not falling in love with him right?" You ask emotionless as you slowly look up at krystal.

"By what you told me of what jungkook did for you in jeju island, sounds like your about to." She says, not helping for the fact that you don't want to believe it.

You quickly shake your head. "No krissy, I can't fall in love with him, like yes I realized that I like him but I'm only supposed to focus on my job, Jonathan, and my grandma, I can't focus on jungkook too." You say while bringing your legs to your chest, wrapping your arms around them.

"Am, this is a good thing!" She excitedly says. You glare at her. "How?" You ask madly. "Because it's time for you to be happy instead of losing yourself over and over again only for your brother and grandma to be happy." Krystal says while rubbing your back.

"You know why it's important for them to be happy." You mumble while looking away. Krystal frustratedly sighs, having enough of this. "Look amber, I love you and I love the fact the you'll do anything for them but do you think it's okay to hurt them as they see you not happy and not taking care of yourself, just killing yourself mentally while physically tiring yourself out?" You stay quiet, not knowing what to respond to.

"I need to be alone right now..." you mumble while trying to stay calm. "Am..." krystal says. "Please!" You sternly say, krystal sighs before nodding her head, leaving you alone with your thoughts.

Once you hear krystal shut the door. You cry. You cry it all out, trying to let out the suffocating feeling in your chest out of your body, just needing to breathe.

"I'm sorry Johnny." You say while your voice slightly cracks between hiccups as tears continue to fall down from your eyes, just hugging yourself alone in a lonely and quiet house.

With no one to comfort you but that was okay.

Because you thought as these were your feelings and you were going to take care of them.

That jungkook doesn't and shouldn't have to acknowledge them.

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So like...sorry if this was boring or not really needed to be added but at least we know a little something about jungkooks mom.

Hoped you enjoyed this update and hoping to look forward for more. :)

Stay safe and healthy loves. <33