You toss and turn the entire time when you try to relax your mind, pushing your thoughts away.

But they weren't helping.

Thoughts continue to cloud up in your mind as you begin to have flashbacks to that one night, the night where you had to grow up. The night where you had to throw away your childhood in order to take care your brother.

Why won't it go away? Why can't you get over it even if it's been years since it happened?

You should be able to get over it as it wasn't anyone's fault.

But you figured that it won't go away because the anniversary was coming up marking it another year.

You sigh as you stuff your face into your hands with your eyes close while beautiful sad music we're playing in your ears.

You pay attention to the music. You inhale and exhale a breath as your thoughts were beginning to be pushed away.

Now you felt exhausted. But before you can even fall asleep, you instantly shot up when your hear a loud and heavy thud. You take your headphones out and turn to the direction it came from and you softly chuckle as you see jungkook fell off the couch and land onto the floor but still asleep.

You roll your eyes with a smile and check the time to see it was six in the morning, you silently groan realizing that you weren't able to sleep. You stand up and go to jungkook to wake him up, when you touch his arm, you felt through his pajamas that he was hot.

You sudden get worried as you move your hand to check his forehead to feel he was burning up.

"Shit." You mumble underneath your breath. You gently shake him. "Hey kookie, wake up bud." You mentally smack yourself as you called him bud. You ignore it as you felt jungkook slowly move under your hands.

"Huh what?" He says softly while slowly sitting up. "Come sit on the couch and I need to check your temperature." His eyes were barley open but he tiredly nods before letting you help him up and lay him down on the couch.

"Stay there, I'll be right back." You tell him before leaving to your kitchen to get a thermometer. Once you find it in one of your drawers with the plastic thing to go around it, you quickly rush to jungkooks side.

You turn on the object and insert the thermometer in jungkooks mouth while you wait for a few seconds, as you hear a beep, you take the object out his mouth to see he was 103.

You look at him while you see him slowly fall back asleep. "Okay kookie, ima make your soup okay?" He tiredly nods before cuddling himself into the blanket.

You take your phone out and go to your contacts. You look for who you are looking for and wait for them to pick up. After three rings, you instantly relax and smile due to the beautiful voice on the other side on the phone that you came to love and feel safe to.

"halmeoni." ( grandma. ) You say in Korean as she prefers to talk in Korean.

"annyeong ammy, achim 6sie gamhi jeonhwa hae?" ( hello ammy, why you dare call me at six in the morning? ) Your lips form into a thin line.

"yah halmeoni, jonadan-i apeul ttae mandeun supeu lesipileul yocheonghago sipseubnida." ( yah grandma, i just want to ask for your soup recipe that you made for jonathan when he was sick. ) You say through the phone. You hear nothing but silence.

"Halmeoni?" ( grandma? ) You furrow your brows in confusion. "yah swiswi, naega achim-e simsul guj-eun yeoja. hajiman galbitang-ilagohabnida." ( yah shush, you know i get grumpy in the mornings women. but its called galbitang. )

You nod your head despite if she couldn't see you. "geulae halmeoni gomawoyo banghaehaeseo joesong haeyo." ( okay thank you grandma and I'm sorry for disturbing you. ) You apologize for disturbing her as you forgot the recipe even if you have made it before for your brother.

She hums without saying anything. You sigh. "joh-a, jal jago, yag-eul bog-yonghaneun geos-eul ij-ji malgo, jal dolbwajuseyo." ( okay well, sleep well and don't forget to take your medicine, take care and goodni- ) before you can finish saying goodnight, your grandma interrupts you.

"eotteohge jinaeni?" ( how are you doing dear? ) You sigh while you look down to your feet with your lips formed into a thin lined. "naneun joh-eun halmeonileulhago issneunde, wae mul-eo bosibnikka?" ( I'm doing fine grandma, why do you ask? ) You gently ask her. You hear her tiredly and sadly sigh on the other side of the phone.

"ginyeom-il-i dagaogo issgi ttaemun-e, yag 15 nyeon-eul." ( because the anniversary is coming up, about to mark fifteen years. ) She tells you softly while you sadly chuckle.

"naneun hullyunghan halmeoniibnida. naneun geugeos-eul bad-adeul-i gi wihae wassseubnida. hajiman jigeum-eun halmeoni geogjeonghaji maseyo. geongang man geogjeonghaseyo. god hotel-eseo dowa deulilgeyo." ( I'm fine grandma, I came to accept it. but for now, don't worry about me grandma, worry only about your health and soon I'll come by to help out at the hotel. ) You say as you never know when she will end up leaving you as well.

"aish, meongcheonghan yeoja, naneun ganghan yeoja bu-" ( aish, you dumb girl, I'm a strong women bu- ) You interrupt her. "ani." ( no. ) You say instantly. You hear your grandma sigh while small soft laughs came out of her mouth, making you able to hear them on the other side of the phone. You smile.

"dangsin-ui us-eum-eul deullyeo jusyeoseo gamsahabnida." ( thank you for letting me hear you laugh. ) You smile knowing that she's smiling on the other side of the phone even if you couldn't see, but you were glad to have her smile buried in your mind and memories.

"jal ja, nae salang." ( goodnight my darling. ) She says softly, you smile on last time before hanging up. A sigh leaves your mouth and you place your elbows onto the kitchen counter while slightly leaning on it, your face buried into your hands.

Now thoughts were beginning to cloud your mind about your grandma.

You felt bad for not calling her last month to check up on her last month nor this month until now. You just were stressing over work and all that you have forgotten to check up on her to see if she's taking her medicine since she refuse to the last time you checked up on her.

Also when you said that you have accepted what happened 14 years ago, you actually didn't. But you didn't want to tell her or worry her because you want her to be stress free, you didn't want to burden your problems and stress her out by not taking care of herself, only worry about you and Jonathan.

Because it was always like that when you were with her. You remember you use to tell her everything because she was your best friend and the closest to having a mother and father even if you weren't blood related and while you were worrying about your brother, she worried for you, and you didn't want that. You already felt bad enough that she even taken cared of you and your brother but you were thankful and didn't take it for granted as she helped you a lot taking care of Jonathan so blood or not, she was your grandma, your family.

And you couldn't be more happy enough to call her that.

Your thoughts were interrupted as you were brought back to reality when you hear a loud cough echo from the living room to the kitchen.

"Shit." You mumble. You quickly take out a small pot and take out the ingredients that you needed for the galbitang.

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After amber finished making the soup and made jungkook eat as he complained that he didn't want to eat, the both of them were sitting in a comfortable silence while they both were watching a scary movie on Netflix.

While amber was focused into the movie, jungkook on the other hand, noticed that amber haven't dared to leave him to go to the bathroom or to take a shower or ate anything in general. He even was beginning to feel bad because he wants to take care of her, not the other way around.

But despite that, he wondered how she was good at this stuff because most adults don't know what to do when someone sick and have to take them to the doctor but amber didn't hesitate and knew what to do, she checked his temperature, made him soup which helped him feel a lot better as well it was very good.

He was being more intrigued by amber as he wants to know more about her because despite she taking care of him silently, she reminded him of his mother.

Since he wants to know more, he decides to ask. "Hey um, how are you good at this stuff?" He ask, he sees amber turn to look at his way. "What stuff?" She ask confusedly. "Well you know, knowing what to do when someone sick and all." He watches as her plump lips form into a thin line before looking down quickly and back to him.

"Practice." She only says before looking back at the tv. He silently sighs and stay quiet, trying to ignore asking another question.

But it was bothering him. He silently groans.

"Why are you taking care of me?" He instantly says as he tried holding back. Amber sighs, not wanting to explain but feels bad that jungkook told her to leave but she insisted on staying and dancing in the rain, along with him.

"Because it's my fault that your sick after you told me to let's leave, now you ended up getting while I didn't. Also anyone in my house will be taken care of anddddd cause your my best friend." Amber mumbles the last part but jungkook still heard it and smiled.

"Awwww, are you going softy on me tiny?" Jungkook ask while wiggling his eye brows in a playful and teasing manner. Amber rolls her eyes and takes a pillow that she was using and throw at jungkook, ends up hitting his face. "In your dreams bunny boy." Amber says while trying to hold in her laughter.

Jungkook dramatically gets offended while glaring at the pillow. "Yah hey! I'm sick her women, jesus you got no respect. I'm hurt." Jungkook pouts but looks up at amber to see trying to fight her laughter and jungkook hearts warms, loving to her smile or laugh. Don't get him wrong, he likes the serious face but it hit differently when amber smiles or laughs.

Reminds him that he was looking at an angel.

A real one.

So he laughs, making amber burst out laughing. The both of laughing together.

Jungkook thought to himself as he was beginning to get lost into ambers angelic laughs.

Is she slowly letting me in? Or will I have to wait patiently? Jungkook thinks to himself before chuckling.

And he was willing to wait, no matter how long it took.

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Googie so cute man.🥺

But anyways, I'm looking forward for more moments of her and her grandma. :)

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Thank you for reading and hoped you enjoy this chapter.

Stay safe loves. <33