all my fault.

It's my fault.

It's all fault.

It's all my .

I should go back inside and see Atsumu and Osamu. But I shouldn't. I should go home.

They'd be better off if I stayed out of this. Would they?I shouldn't have gotten involved. Shouldn't you? I don't want to go see them now. Don't you?

Self doubt. It's always been there but I usually just ignored it, especially in times like this but for some reason... I agree with it. Never showing that I have these thoughts was never a struggle, all I had to do was just do what it wanted.

I took one step towards the edge of the car park but looked back at the hospital. I tried to look forward, keep going. It didn't work. I ended up frozen only about 10 steps away from the door.

Something was telling me that I couldn't leave, not yet. I contemplated going back inside for another little while before deciding that I shouldn't leave. At the exact moment that I was about to head back inside the door burst open.

I turned to see who was going to come out of the door and saw a small enough figure. (H/C) hair flowing behind them, two bright (E/C) orbs peering through their (H/C) hair strands.

"Kita!" They yelled running towards me. They had a limp, probably from their weak legs. Both their arms were held out waiting for us to meet. "Y/N!" I shouted back running a few steps forwards.

Their face started to near mine, our lips practically together. I lifted them up slightly in case their feet hurt, it was just something that I did automatically. But the amount of momentum that they had made me fall over on to my back.

It didn't seem to hurt, I wasn't cold anymore. I wasn't even worrying anymore. I doubt I was focusing on anything at the time, except for the shivering body that was lying on top of me out lips joined.

They were cold, shaking but I couldn't help sinking into the kiss. As soon as we pulled away I took off my red jumper and put it around them. "You'll catch a cold." I whispered zipping up the jumper.

They didn't seem to care that they were cold, they didn't seem to care about anything. "Why are you even outside?" I asked hugging them. "I missed you." They said, their voice muffled.

"Let's just get you inside." I kept all the questions that i had balled up inside my mind as we walked inside towards their room. Their face was nuzzled into the crook of my neck, they hadn't looked around since we walked into the hospital.

I remember them saying that they hated hospitals since their mother died. That's probably why.

I could see a panicked Atsumu running around the reception when I got back to the boys. Osamu didn't seem distressed at all, the Phil guy was talking to a nurse and not paying attention to anything.

"Your brothers are here." I whispered into Y/N's ear. They looked around a bit and saw how panicked Atsumu was, immediately after that they ran to him and started to ask if he was ok.

Atsumu was looking at them like they were on drugs. Once Osamu noticed that Y/N was there he also ran towards them. Not long after that there was a family hug going on, it was a bit awkward I mean was I supposed to do something?

That went of for a good 5 minutes until one of the nurses walked up to them. I took that as a sign to head over as well. I stood beside Atsumu and one of the nurses as they explained what Y/N has.

"After speaking to Y/N we discovered that the fainting part wasn't too bad. The fainting actually came from an anxiety attack that had happened. Now the bleeding it was likely from something called hemophilia." The nurse explained.

"I'm sorry but if they had hemophilia shouldn't you have injected some-." Phil started. "Phil." Y/N stopped him. "Please continue." They added once Phil had stopped talking.

"Of course we immediately injected all the fluids needed, that's where this came in." The nurse took Y/N's arms and lifted it to show a small tube that was sticking into it. "The scars." She made a small gasping noise as she noticed all Y/n's scars.

"Luckily the scars had been cleaned recently, so our job was easy enough. Although it seems there was a small infection in them before the cleaning and traces of it were still in their arm so we had to disinfect that. As well as that some of the scar tissue was causing healing problems so we removed as much as we could without damaging them." The nurse explained putting Y/N's arm down.

"Can I go home?" Y/N whispered. A small gasp came from the nurse, she was probably surprised that Y/N wanted to go home so quickly. "I'm sorry but... Have we met before?" The nurse quickly changed the subject.

"Yes..." Y/N replied quietly. Noticing that Y/N wanted to leave Osamu interfered. "You both met when we were visiting mom." He said. "Ah yes I remember now." The nurse nodded.

"I'm sorry for your l-." The nurse was going to offer her condolences until Y/N cut her off. "It's fine, when can I leave?" They said sternly.

"Y/N!" Phil shot in loudly. The nurse quickly went to leave as soon as Phil got loud. "Y/N. Just because your not over her death do-." He started. "Shut up!" Y/N yelled.

"Young lady. What happened to your manners?" He snapped at them. "Just be quiet, I want to go home." They shouted. "You'll do as your told." He yelled.

As if those words had been a death threat Y/N hunkered down. They pulled their shoulders up to their ears and leaned backwards slightly on to their heels. "I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry." They started to repeat.