❦ SESSIONS ❦ WITH ❦ LOVE❦

Chapter 21

|Shocking discovery|

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Walking into the house as quietly as we can to not let Silas know that we're here or anyone else for that matter. Since, there are some people in the house but most of them leave us alone, and even some I don't see since they only come out during the night. They're vampires. That I know very well and no one can convince me otherwise and no one will be able to tell me that they aren't blood sucking creatures that only one out during the night because they burn in the sunlight.

I'm also covered in blood since those people refused to die unbloody which is a new word that I made up. While I do love it when people die with their blood all over the place, I did not want to have it on me now. Since, I would have to explain it to Silas and that would ruin my surprise for him. He can't know of the tattoo that I have gotten yet, but he will soon see it. On his birthday which I'm going to make the best one that he has ever had in his life.

The sad thing about this whole thing is that I'm going to have to overtop it again next year and then the year after that and I don't know how I'm going to do that. But, I suppose that will be the problem for future Lea which is going to be in a year or so. Hi, me. I giggle to myself when I think that I'm always going to be living in the future Lea, and then she turns into me, and then she's in the past. It's such a strange thought and I really could go on and on with it forever.

"Do you think Silas is waiting for me in our bedroom?" I ask her when we are in the hallway. I had first wanted to take the secret passageways, but I don't want her to know about them. It's only between Silas and I and it's our thing. I don't think the people here even realize that there are so many secret passageways here. Silas has been showing me more of them, but I get the feeling that there are some that he's not telling me about, but I do hope he will soon enough since I deserve to know them.

She looks at me and shakes her head. "No, if he were they there would be hundreds of people all over town looking for you" She tells me. I stop and give her a confused look. "I don't get it" I say. The voice in my head is angry at me. Well, excuse me for not understand everything in the world. "When his meeting would have ended, and he would not have been able to find you, he would go mad with anger and even other feelings that are quite deadly" She tells me. Oh, that makes sense.

I nod my head, and then we continue on with the walk there. I wonder why our bedroom is so far away from the entrance, but I'm not going to question that nor am I going to ask anyone, but it's just a thought. 'Your thoughts are annoying' She speaks in my head. I don't care, they are no thoughts and not yours and if I want to have them then I can have them because they're mine. Get your own. We walk into our bedroom which is just the room that I was staying in when I was with Silas before Adam took me away.

Silas and I even sleep in the same bed, and we hold each other when we sleep. Though, always when we are in bed I have this strange feeling inside my body and I need to let it out. The feeling is so strong between my legs, which makes it so much harder to control it. I had realized that it has something to do with Silas, but I've been far too afraid to ask him about it. 'Because you're a coward' The voice speaks in my head and I roll my eyes at her as I do around seventy times per day or something. She's quite annoying. 'Likewise' She says.

"I'm going to take a quick shower so that I can get this blood off me and then change clothes. Just make sure that Silas does not get in here" I say to Trina who nods her head. "You know, for the record, I actually had a lot of fun today" She says to me with a smile. "Reminds me of all the times that you would say things that we had done before when we had never done those things, now we did" She then says to me.

I give her a bright smile. "I had fun too. We really have to do this more often, though I think for your sake we can skip all the killing" I say and we both laugh at that. I had seen that she was not happy with what I had done, but someone had to show these people that they can't mess around with me and get away with it. "That would be better" I say, and she gives me a smile. I then head for the bathroom to take a quick shower, not caring for the fact that I had just gotten a tattoo.

That doesn't really matter to me that much, as I will need to act normally when I see Silas, he can't know if it just yet, and it would be better if I take showers and live my ordinary life as I did before. I start to hum a song while I'm in the shower. There is just something about showers that is so comforting and nice that I do like it and the warmth from the water is quite inviting as well. Overall showers are good.

Once I've showered I just go into some pajamas which Silas had bought me, and they are so comfortable. He truly does know me the best because they're comfortable to wear, and I even wear them outside when I want because I love them so much, and I love him for doing this for me. When I go back into the room Trina is sitting on the bed and go through her phone with a smile on her face, she has not even noticed that I've walked into the room. Then she lets out a giggle and I can see her cheeks redden.

I smirk as I walk over to her and peek over her shoulder as she is too distracted to even notice that I've walked over to her. I read that it is Ace that is texting her and while I'm not going to look at the messages, since she does have her personal space, I know that there is something going on between the two, as I had suspects this whole time. She may deny it, and she may think that she does not care about him, but I can see through it. 'I saw it the moment they met' The voices says.

Well, not everyone can be you, you know. And because I may be a bit slower than you, but that is just the way that I am. Besides, are you not supposed to be me? Which means that if you knew then I must have known or if I did not know then you did not know it either. She groans in my head. "Trina?" I ask. Trina jumps up and nearly falls off the bed when I speak in her ear, but I'm left laughing my head off as this was hilarious.

The look on her face is so panicked, and I love it. I only wish that I had caught that on video because then I would have been laughing at this for a long time. "That is not funny" She says, but I continue to laugh. "Yes, it was. What had you so distracted? Was it maybe Ace?" I ask her, and she is redder than she was before, if that is even possible. "Maybe" She then says with a smirk on her face. I give her a smile. I know that they belong together, and soon they will see it too.

"I think that I'm going to go to my office and wait for Silas there" I tell her. While I had been in the shower I had thought that I would surprise Silas and wait in my office, and then we would be able to have a session. Both of us love the sessions that we have. Not only because they always end up with Silas kissing me or something but also because there we can talk about anything that we want and no one and nothing can stop us. I don't know about him, but I always fall deeper in love with him after every session.

Trina gives me a bright smile. "I will see you later" She says and just like that she's out of here. That was kind of odd but no matter. I walk through the hallways towards my office. Which is one of my favorite places in this house, something about it is just so comforting, and being there with Silas does help as well. He's the best patient that I've ever had in my life, and the only one that matters so much to me, matters more to me than my own heart because he is my heart.

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I sit in the office and play with my pen and the silence should be impossible, yet I love it. On an empty paper I'm drawing the tattoos that Silas has on his body and I always wonder what they mean. He has not told me that much about them but some of them he has and that makes me happy, because he's sharing his story with me. I smile as I draw them. I'm not the best at drawing, but I think it looks good. Besides, it doesn't have to be good anyway because these are only doodles.

The door opens, and I look to see Silas there with a big smile on his face. I don't waste a second to jump out of the chair and run into his arms. Not even caring for the fact that it does hurt a little bit but not too much. I kiss his cheek as I hold him. His arms wrap around me, and he leans in and captures my lips. My body grows all warm and I just want to snuggle closer to his chest to hear his heartbeat which I've come to love more than anything.

"I could get used to this" Silas says when he breaks the kiss and looks into my eyes with eyes that are so loving. 'Me too' The voice says. I ignore her. Giving Silas a smile and nod. "I love you" I say to him. Not saying it to him when I see him will only make things worse between us because I feel like he needs to know that I do love him. "I love you" He whispers back to me. It's something that we do now. Say it to one another, brining peace and love into our hearts.

Silas sets me down on my chair, and then he goes over to his chair. As soon as he has let go of me, there is this coldness that runs through me, and I need him to hold me. I crave his touch more than I have ever craved anything. I swear that I could give up ice cream for the rest of my life only to have him hold me, even if only for a couple of minutes. His touch is the very thing that keeps me going, along with the rest of him, that I can't forget.

"Why was your meeting so long?" I ask him. His meeting had been going on all day, which is a really long time for one meeting and I wonder what it is about, I doubt he will tell me now. Saying that he doesn't want me to know, yet will someday tell me about it. He looks uncomfortable, and I can tell that he doesn't want to talk about it. Silas knows that this is a safe place, and he can talk about anything here, anything that he wants, he knows this. "There was some heated argument" He finally says. I raise an eyebrow as I write it down.

"Tell me about it" I speak to him kindly, letting him know that he can speak about anything here. This is as I said a safe place. I know very well that Silas has these demons that he has to overcome, and he's slowly getting there but not quite. He still has not told me his full past, and I'll wait until he's ready and when he is he will be the better version of himself. "The men have begun to question my authority and want me to step down, have someone else take my place" He says, and I gasp as I look up at him, I could not even write it down yet.

I'm in shock that people would want that. "They're idiots" I say, and he chuckles, a sad one that I could see, but it was there. "You're the best leader in the world" I tell him, and he is. I have maybe not seen or know what he has done, but I believe in him. Now, even more than those people. "What will you do?" I ask him. If they want him to step down they must have someone that can take over, so why not just kill that one? I would do it to protect Silas.

I would do anything for Silas and that means also killing people, it does not matter who it is or how it is done, all that matters is that they will die, and it will be by my hands. I would love every second of it. He sighs. "I don't know" He finally answers. There is this sad look about him. I don't like it. Silas is supposed to be smiling all the time, like me. I give him a warm smile.

"Can I help you?" I ask him, and he gives me an odd look. There must be something that I can do to help him, I mean I can kill people. And I can hug Silas and be there for him. He needs me now and not just his therapist but also as the one that loves him, as the one that can make his heart beat, I'm the one that he loves, and he needs me. "Yes, I believe you can" He finally says after a long pause, possibly because he was thinking about what he could do in this matter.