Libra

As I closed the limo door behind me, I found myself thinking about all the decisions I had made so far in terms of who I wanted to be with. First, I'd broken it off with Scorpio, who sacrificed himself for me. Then I'd used Leo-yes, used him-to distract myself, writing that note and leading him on, only to leave him high and dry when I got my first choice back. I really didn't like the person I was starting to become-a cold, heartless popular who used people and disposed of them just as easily.

Just the fact that Capricorn saw me as stupid had made me realise that I acted that way just to seem innocent. I hid my opinions just to make people favour me. I wanted it all-the perfect looks, the perfect clothes, the perfect friends, the perfect reputation, the perfect boyfriend, the perfect life. Everything had to be just the way I liked it, and if it wasn't, it had to be removed. "We have arrived, Miss Libra." I smiled at the driver, opening the door to the mansion and collapsing in one of the couches.

I just sat there, thinking of all the horrible things I'd done. How I had, just like the villain in every book, lost my soul. And the worst part of it all was that I didn't even care how I'd made people feel-I just cared about what they thought of me. "Libra, don't you have places to be?" My mum walked into the room, the familiar smell of Chanel perfume lifting my spirits slightly. "I... I don't want to go anywhere tonight. I'm staying in." My mum faked a gasp. "Who are you and what have you done with my daughter?"

I sighed. "Mum, I'm serious. I don't want to go out tonight." I shuffled over to sit closer to my mum. "But why, Libra?" I sighed. "Mum, I'm a horrible person. I only look out for myself. I want everything to go right for me, and in doing that, I hurt the people I care about." My mum took a deep breath, looking into my eyes. "Libra. We all lose our way sometimes. I know I did when I was in my 20's-every night, I would go to the club and collect numbers. I'd string so many guys along."

I gasped. "I know, I know. The point I'm trying to make is it's never too late to get out there and right your wrongs. Okay?" I nodded. "Thanks, Mum. I have someone I need to apologise to."

Grabbing the keys to my own car, I made my way out of the mansion.

.....

"Anyone home?" I knocked on the oak door again, pushing back a stray strand of hair. The door creaked open. "Come in." I walked in, closing the door behind me. "Look, Libra, I-" I put a finger to Leo's lips before quickly removing it. This was yet another example of me leading Leo on. By now, it was instinct.

"Let me go first. Leo, I used you. There's no two ways about it. I've used so many people for my own satisfaction and, well, I did just that to you." Leo sighed. "I know, Libra. I know." He took a seat, his head in his hands. "Libra, you know what I did last year. I knew from the beginning that you were leading me on." I frowned, confused. "What do you mean, you knew?" Leo avoided my gaze. "I knew Scorpio was the one you wanted since day one. I could tell that I was just a second choice, a replacement, a fill-in for him.

"I should've walked away right there and then. But, the thing is, I couldn't." This confused me even further. He couldn't walk away? What was that supposed to mean?

"Libra, there's no other way to put this-I'm obsessed with you. So obsessed, it's unhealthy. But I can't stop, or walk away. And at that point, I didn't give a damn about being the second choice. I was happy to take whatever I got from you, and I still am." I found myelf sinking into an armchair, my mind still reeling from what Leo had just told me. "My point is: I don't care if I'm the second choice. I just want to be an option." This didn't make things any easier. An option? He was so far gone, he was fine with liking a girl who had a boyfriend?

"Leo, I know you're going through a lot-" He stood. "Seriously, Libra. You think it's your fault, but it isn't. I knew what I was getting myself into from the very start." I groaned, frustrated, before showing myself to the door. "I'm going to go, Leo. Please, don't waste yourself on me." He lowered his head. "I can't. Trust me, I've tried." I sighed, closing the door to Leo's place behind me.

I decided I would just head over to Scorpio's when I got a call. "Hello?" It was my mum. "Hi, Scorpio's here! He's waiting for you in the lounge!" I smiled. He'd come to cheer me up-he really was the best boyfriend in the world. "Okay, I'm coming. Bye!"

.....

Scorpio was stretched across the lounge, half-asleep, when I walked in.

"About time, Libra."

He pulled me onto the couch with him. I relaxed slightly, my head slipping onto Scorpio's shoulder.

"Hey, Scorpio?"

"Hmm?"

"I went to Leo's. To apologise."

"That's good on you-you two in the all clear now?"

"Well... kinda."

Scorpio straightened slightly. His electric blue-green eyes met mine. "What do you mean, Leebs?"

"Well, he knew. That I was stringing him along, I mean. And he said..."

"Said what, Leebs?"

"He said he knew he was my second choice all along, and he.... he was obsessed with me, and he won't stop liking me.... and I-I feel like it's all my fault and.." I couldn't stop the steady flow of tears streaming down my cheeks at this point. "Look, Scorpio. Look what I did!" My voice began to break at the end of the sentence, Scorpio's arms wrapping around my shivering body. "It's okay, it's okay..."

He held me close to him, and that made things just a little bit better. "Libra, it's okay. We'll get ourselves out of this mess." I sobbed even harder at this statement. "I'm in too deep, Scorpio! There's no getting out of this!" Scorpio ran his hands through my hair, attempting to calm me down. "Look, we'll figure it out tomorrow. Let's just stay in the moment for now, okay?" I sighed. "Okay." Scorpio smiled. "That's the Libra I know and love." Scorpio always found a way to make me smile. That's what I loved about him. "Let's watch Brooklyn 99, okay? That makes everything okay, huh?"

I smiled. "Absolutely."

Scorpio reached for the remote, my head resting on his shoulder as we enjoyed watching the 99's antics.