Im still trying to figure out what just happened. Lily is upstairs sleeping but i'm down in the kitchen just leaning over the island counter.

Does Lily even understand what happened either?

I know she is a smart girl, even when she's a little, but I don't know what went over me.

Desire? Love? Lust?

What ever it was, it took possession of me and i took control of Lily. That shouldn't have happened unless i spoke to her when she was out of little space.

Now so many things are running through my mind. Will Lily be upset when she comes out of little space?

Ugh i'm a mess and i cant sleep for shit. Maybe i'll just take a sleeping pill to knock myself out and hopefully sleep a little.

I took a pill and drank a glass of water, i was desperate to some sleep so i accidentally spilled water onto my shirt.

that's when i realized i wasn't even wearing shorts, just a oversized shirt covering my lower area and part of my thighs.

I sighed and massaged my temples, wiping the dripping water from my chin and neck. I placed the glass in the sink and walked my way to the stairs.

I walked up two steps and then looked up, seeing lily peek behind the banister at the top of the steps.

"" I called her name. She snapped out of the gaze and gasped, scurrying to the bedroom.

I got confused and walked faster up the stairs and into the room but i didn't see her in the bed, the blanket was lying there flat.

"" i called out for her. I heard a small wimper from the closet and so i walked into the washroom and into the closet. I saw her kneeling down behind a dress i had, clenching onto the dress tightly.

I chuckled silently and bent down to her level.

"" i held her hand and took it off the dress, giving it little butterfly kisses on her knuckles.

"" lily said as she peeked her head a little. I gave her a reassuring smile and shook my head.

"" I asked her and moved the dress down the rack. She gave me a cute pout and nodded her head.

"" I asked her, completely forgetting that she is lactose intolerant.

"" lily whined. I sighed and mentally smacked myself in the head.

"" I apologized.

She nodded quickly and smiled, making me smile too. I helped her off the ground and she sat up on the sink while i ran the bath water for her.

"" Lily asked and jumped down from the sink. I was sitting in front of the bathtub.

" i asked her. She nodded and started to play with my hair, twirling in in her finger and running her hand through it.

"" i chuckled and pulled her into my arms. Her cute giggles that fell from her lips made me smile wide. I hugged her tightly and kissed her head multiple times, then i kissed her nose too.

"" Lily tapped her lips with a pout.

"" i playfully asked. She nodded, but i acted as if i hesitated. ""

"" lily pouted for real and looked down. I chuckled and took her chin with my finger and lifted it, placing a soft kiss on her lips, then kissing her lips passionately.

I love her sweet personality, she's so caring and kind. Sometimes she will be hardheaded but in the end it's all okay with me because i love her, and i know she loves me too.

As sweet as lily is when she isn't in little space, i don't think she will be too upset with me about what had happened tonight, but i will still take blame for my actions and be sure to tell her everything if she doesn't remember it much.

"" lily asked me.

"" I chuckled and tapped her nose. I saw her cheeks glow a rosy color, it's so cute watching her blush under me.

"" Lily said but then she hid her face in my shirt.

"" i squeezed her tightly in a hug and kissed her head. She hummed and sat up on my lap, her body facing mine, looking to my eyes with her light brown ones that sparked with stars of the universe.

"" lily exclaimed. Gosh why is the the most adorable human?

"" i dont think i could smile more widely, she always does it to me. Right when i think i'm the deepest in love i could go, she pulls something in my heart to make me fall deeper.

i'm hoping i make her feel the same way. I could care less if she broke my heart, but i wouldn't be able to live on knowing i broke her's too.

"" She yelled and kissed my lips.

"" i kissed her lips this time.

"" lily pointed to the bath. I nodded and turned off the water, helping her out of her clothes, and placed her in. She whined because i was taking to long to get in too.

"" Lily pouted while rushing me. I chuckled and hurried, getting in with her. I ran warm water on her head and ran my hands through her hair.

I could feel my sleeping pill mess with me, starting to make me feel tired. but i wanted to make sure lily was relaxed enough before i fell asleep, that's my job to do my as her caregiver and her girlfriend...making sure i put her before me, because i love her.

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