i yawned, stretching out my body as i woke up and opening my eyes to find mattia staring at me with a smirk plastered onto his face.

'morning beautiful.' he growled quietly in his morning voice.

'hey.' i squeaked, my voice adjusting.

i stroked his face, admiring his beauty as he ate up all the attention i fed him.

'what's the date today?' i asked him.

'it's the 5th of march.' he responded.

'damn its been nearly a month already?' i said.

'i fucking know right, it's felt like so much longer but at the same time it's all going so fast..'

mattia's voice started to trail off as i tuned out, suddenly feeling nauseous.

i leapt out of the warmth of the bed, my body instinctively telling me to rush into the bathroom.

i leaned over the toilet and let myself puke, this wasn't the first time this had happened recently.

i felt mattia's hand rubbing up and down my back.

'what is going on with you, y/n?' he sighed.

i got up and washed my mouth out immediately, disgusted by myself.

'i have no idea.' i replied.

'y/n...' said mattia in a cautious tone.

'yeah?' i replied.

'do you think you could be-'

'no,' i interrupted, 'there is no fucking way, mattia.'

'are you sure?' he said, 'this has been happening too often now.'

honestly, the thought had crossed my mind quite a few times.

'i don't know..' i said, my eyes beginning to tear up.

mattia embraced me, the way his arms snaked around me and held me close almost instantly making me feel better.

'you're gonna be okay, y/n.' mattia spoke into my shoulder.

i breathed in his pretty natural scent and sighed, detaching myself from him.

'there wouldn't be any harm in testing it, right?' i whispered, staring into his eyes to catch his reaction.

'i'm with you no matter what.' he assured.

after we had gotten ready, we headed downstairs and into the kitchen.

i sat down and spoke to mattia as i watched him make our breakfast.

'so, the plan,' i began, 'next time amber comes in to check on us, we beg her to sneak in a pregnancy test?'

amber was one of the officers who would check in on us, she was our favorite because she was secretly an ally to the cause, so she was super easy on us.

'yes, our plan is fucking solid.' replied mattia, flashing a side smile at me whilst trying to cook the eggs.

i slid off my seat and walked towards him, attracted to him like he was a magnet.

i wrapped myself around his muscular back, held on tight and rocked him slightly.

'you're so hot when you cook.' i said.

'well you're hot all the time so i guess that makes us even.' he teased.

i smiled into him, causing him to giggle as i tickled him.

'and... this is finished.' he said laying two plates down, turning around and picking me up.

i clung to him as he picked up the food and placed it on the table. he put me down and planted a kiss on my forehead.

'simp.' i said.

'only for you.' he replied.

i looked at my plate and felt an overwhelming rush of gratefulness and appreciation pour over me.

'no but seriously, you're the best, i love you mattia.' i said to him.

'i love you too, bitch.' he said, sitting down next to me.

we ate our food and sat there talking for hours, even after we had finished up.

i was washing up the dishes when the sound of the door swinging open made me jump slightly.