Music started and the TV was turned off. My legs were kept down from behind as one of Jaren's legs covered mine. His knee cocked up so that it was hanging over my legs. I had kept his thigh in position by the use of my hand. A quiet moment passed us both as our eyes grew heavy and the warm room surrounded us.

"I love scrubs," I commented and my hands rested beneath my head. My eyes had only just closed when Jaren responded. His arm was on me so I knew he was also on his phone.

"To be fair I think a lot like Kim. She has no desire to settle but I will one day but before I do I have to meet her. The type of girl who loves me and I feel the same way. The type of girl I hate to see without me. Maybe one day." Oof. I sprang my eyes open and failed to keep back my emotions. A small frown had taken residents on my face and there was no removing it.

I didn't sleep but instead pulled out my new phone. Hoping he would get the hint and get off. Only, I still wanted him to hold me close to him. I text Matt and he called me back in a moment.

"Sorry. Got to take this." I climbed from the situation and left the house. I set about finding one of the paths by my house and walking all the way up it. Hoping to find some isolation and to get away. So that Jaren couldn't hear me as I possibly cried.

What's up?

It's nothing, honestly.

So that is why you text me 'code blue?' as in, you want to cry. What is it?

Are you busy?

No. Walking home from work.

Great. I need a lot of support. Hehe, pretty weak.

You see. You need to tell me what it is.

I know.

No sarcasm? Dang girl. This got you bad. A boy?

Yeah. I started this relationship. Nothing too serious really. Just hugs and kisses. Maybe a hint more from time to time anyway, we are or were, oh I don't know anymore.

Explain it all.

I started seeing this dude. We had gotten pretty close. Turned out he is also a YouTuber like me. Even games, the same as me. We hit it off. I liked him and he liked me as well. Then, we were watching Scrubs. The one where JD ends a relationship because the girl can't handle commitment. He went off on how he felt the same. Saying how one day he will find a girl that special. Who the fuck does that?

I am going to drive up to your house as soon as I can. I have the next few days off. Not my own choice but I was told to take it off because I had like a year of holiday saved. I have some empty ass days. I will evaluate the situation. What were you doing before?

Before Scrubs, let's just say it's not safe for children's ears.

Ooh. He good?

Yeah. We didn't have sex. Not the point. I know I didn't enter the relationship thinking we were going to marry and we won't now but this sucks. He said that he wants a girl he will love and who loves him. The type he can't imagine being with anyone but him. This sucks.

I love you, Ella.

I love you, Matty.

I will see you soon. Bye.

Bye.

When I hung up the tears that had fallen, I hadn't even noticed them, were wiped and I walked around the barren land. All I could do was hope that Jaren would be none-the-wiser as to what had happened. My thoughts hadn't landed on Matt properly as he only lived an hour away and I had set off from the call almost two hours before my phone went off.

How far away are you? I assume you aren't home because he is wandering around like some sort of headless chicken.

Sorry. If I turn the corner now I will be home in one minute.

I had done almost a full circle and by the time the corner was turned, I saw Matt. His blonde hair and man bun. Making me feel so happy. Like he was there and I could be happy.

"Matt," I greeted as I walked up to the car and knocked on the window. He jumped just a little and spun. A middle finger was placed just behind the glass directly at me. I only laughed and pulled the door open, making him fall from the car slightly. I caught him just in time and once he had stood up, the pair of us headed into the house.

"Oh, hey, Ella. Who's this?" Jaren knew I was an only child and had no family, to my small knowledge and so I was completely honest with him.

"Matt. He is staying for a little bit." I walked up the steps. No more words spoken to the baffled brunette. I yanked Matt up the steps to my office where I set up a game of Jenga.

"He cute." My door was locked on the far side so he couldn't get close enough to my office door. Never mind overhear us.

"I know, Matt. I know. He is too cute and I am incredibly stupid for believing that any male could be kind. I mean, a male that I am able to sexually attract. You're all right, a guess. I have a bunch of quick kisses, nothing more than a quick kiss. One I slept with from time to time and a man about to be killed for some dodgy drugs and then Jaren. And his sexy arse." Matt laughed and managed to knock the tower over. My phone had been busy as the vibrations caught my attention but with no hesitation, I turned it off and played one more game with Matt. Only, the game didn't stop at one, we ended up playing too many games to count.

By the time we had finished, Matt held me in his arms and we stayed on the bed for some time until he really had to go. Those days he was supposed to have off ended up being busy with family. Stupid people on the edge of death. I felt bad for Matt. He didn't even know how he was related to Sam but he was required to go.

"Bye." I waved him off from the door as I had stayed against the frame. Rain and wind left me feeling less than okay with the idea of going to his car. I stood there until he was out of view.

"Why didn't you pick up the phone?" Jaren was in the background of my mind and after my thoughts compiled, I turned around. I closed the door and thought of a response. Smacking my lips in the process.

"I was with Matt. I turned my phone off. We see hardly anything of each other so I had hoped to just spend time with him. All right?" Jaren didn't look too sure with my response as I stood looking awkwardly away from his face.

"Why can't you look at me?" At that I did and we met eyes. I smiled and he stayed in the spot he had been in all along. I walked up and through the house. Passing him in the process. No movement came from him at all.

"What do you want for dinner? Or you can cook if you want. I just figured." I was busy trying to keep him with me. Because, for the first time ever I wanted, really wanted to be with someone. And it sucked that he didn't want me.

"Did you do anything with him?" I gave out a laugh and opened cupboards.

"No. He is gay and dating Alfie. Why would you think that? We played Jenga and we just talked. I needed it. Why would it matter if I had?" He turned and walked right up to me. His hands were at his side but he uttered no words.