As soon as I kissed her, she pushed me hard.

"Enough is enough. I said leave me alone"

One thing I am really bad at is, leaving things I need most. And no matter what Sarah says, I am getting her. I need her. And her troubled behavior is an indication she is deeply affected.

"Sarah, come with me. I am not leaving your side. If you don't want to make a scene, all you have to do is walk with me, and we will talk. Once we are done, you are free to go and I will not trouble you"

Right then we heard someone coming. I dropped her hand.

"Come with me" and I walked away from her.

I need to talk to her and I don't what is at risk. She only has a fiancé but he is irrelevant to me nor her. I know I am being very insensitive.

I felt she is walking behind me. Good.

I walked to a terrace outside. It looks almost deserted. Good. I walked a little further so no one would notice us. And took the bend beside the water feature.

"Whatever you have to say, please be done with it. I cant stay here for long"

"Never a day passed by I haven't thought of you" I told her. And she laughed. She really laughed to my face.

"Well, that's nice to hear. I mean, I didn't expect you to remember me"

"Cut the sarcasm Sarah. You know pretty well what I mean" I told her forcefully.

"Okay. I am honored you remembered me. Now let me go" she stood up from the bench and I again held her hand.

"Don't play with me. And listen to me carefully, there is a reason I didn't come for you. And there is a reason why I should stay away from you. But when I see you, reason leaves me and all I want is you" I told her honestly and I think that took her by surprise.

"2 years, and I haven't touched a single woman. I tried dating but I simply cant" I told her the truth.

"Well, the woman inside talking to Ahmed would disagree" she said coldly.

"Sarcasm doesn't become you love. So drop it. Sophia was forced on me by Nana" and she gave me another of her sarcastic smiles.

"Oh, the woman who kept you rotting in jail. Happy family reunion I believe"

"Will you listen to me please? Just hear me out. Give me a chance to explain things to you" I pleaded her.

"Steve, things aren't what they were suppose to be. I am engaged and I cant just meet you or anyone like what I used to do anymore. I have to think of Ahmed and his feelings"

"Just one change to explain things to you is all I ask"

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When someone promises you that they would come for you, and you wait a better part of 1.5 years waiting for them before you decide the magic is over and now the same person loading you with heaps of crap, it is normal to feel offended.

"You are rich, you got what you want. I need to look after myself. Once I was impulsive and I thought I was invincible. But then I figured I am not that unaffected by things. You had the glorious life you were once deprived of, and now you are living a happy life. Let's leave it at that. You have your life and I have mine. Now let go of me" I said trying to free my hand which he is holding in iron grip.

"Damn the consequences. I told you Sarah, either you listen to me now or meet me latter, after the party and I will explain things to you. Choice is yours" he told me stubbornly.

What is there to tell? He was picked up from the gutter her was put in by his family, restored to former glory and now the most sought after bachelor. He just see me accidently in a party and making up stories. I am a fool in following him here. I am a fool for not feelings repulsive when he touches me. Angry- yes. Repulsive - No.

"Tell me, but be quick"

"When nana came to pick me up from Martha's 2 years ago, I refused. I didn't want money. It never did me any good. I refused her and her help. But she told me one thing which made me accept it" he said.

"She said Philip is capable of going right after the people I care which includes you and Talia"

"Right" I told him, I couldn't stop the sarcasm.

"You really ought to hold your sarcasm" he said looking pissed but I don't care.

"In return to keep Harry in Jail, keep you out of trouble and Talia alive, at that time I didn't have a choice. If I don't watch out for Philip, I know what he is capable of doing" he continued.

"So why cant Mrs. Henry de Bourbon couldn't do it?" I asked him curious.

"Her hold on him was weaning off even before I was sent to prison. I knew she couldn't do it. And Philip is capable of killing anyone , including his mother and son, if that means he remain powerful and rich"

"She gave me 10% of the company shares out of 50% she was holding. She is playing a game with Philip and I know I am just been used. But at that time, I had people I care for at stake. So I did what I had to do"

I didn't believe a single word he said. My expertise in psychology and his body language says a different story but I don't care. I don't believe him.

"I thought of you ever since. Everyday I think of you. I am crazy about you Sarah. You have become my obsession. You have no idea what I have been through. Yes, keeping away from you is a conscious choice. I didn't even want to know about you as I know if I hear about you or see you, what is happening now would happen then"

Right!! Fairy tale.

"There is more but I just cant tell you. Do you love that man?" he asked me.

"It is non of your business" I told him and he smiled.

"Well, if you loved him, you would have slapped me when I kissed you. And if you feel anything for him, a tiny bit of what you feel or felt for me, you wouldn't be here with me Sarah. You know it. We both know it" he said. And by this time, I was itching to slap him.

"You know what Steve, that is where you are wrong. I am in love with him and I will marry him. And we would forget what happened in few days and life as usual will go on" I told him finally managing to free my hand from his hold.

"That's where you are wrong my love. I seldom want anything in life, and when I do, I get it at any cost. Right now I want you" he told me with a fierce look.

"And you know as well as I do that I don't give a damn about that" and I walked away from him, feeling heavy in heart.

Why?? Why does he has to come now? Why does he has to tell things he doesn't mean and why does he has to lie? Why did he say things he did not mean? And why am I at the verge of tears?