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"I thought your dad was gonna punch me" He laughs nervously, "Why?" I frown my eyebrows.

"I didn't know if he was protective or not so I had to introduce myself as your friend, which I am anyway because I'm the bestest best-friend you've ever had" He winks at me with a devilish smile.

I laugh but there's a frown still in there, "Issac-"

"I know you don't want to get romantically involved so, I'll respect your wishes and try move on" His smile is so sad, it breaks my heart.

"No, d-don't" The words come out before I've processed them but I don't regret them, "I'm sorry for what I said on the beach" I sit up from lying next to him and tuck my hair behind my ears.

"What I said wasn't true, I was just scared. I'm sorry if I hurt you" I frown, looking down at him in his lying position, "I want to be with you, but I just need some time because of Amelia and I don't want this to happen in a hospital"

His eyes shine up, "I'll give you as much time as you need" He smiles, "But why is Amelia involved?" He frowns his eyebrows.

Obviously Amelia hasn't told him, "She confessed that she had feelings for me" I say gently, I'm not sure if she ever gave off that vibe and everyone else noticed but me.

He looks confused, "Amelia? My sister Amelia?" He scratches the back of his neck, "Yes, your sister Amelia" I nod, I can't tell if he's taking this good or bad.

He looks confused, "She never said" he frowns, "Do you like her that way?" I see his face brace for the answer.

"No, at the time I was just scared. I wasn't really listening but she's my friend I've never looked at her as anything but that" I shrug, I'll have to go talk to her as soon as possible I wonder what she must be thinking.

Issac looks relieved, "So do you think she's gay or bisexual?" He ponders after a while.

"Does it matter?" I raise my eyebrows, I start to worry that he might turn against her because of her sexuality.

"No, she's my sister I'll love her no matter what, I was just wondering" He shrugs, "You'll have to talk to her, I'm sure she'll open up to you, you're pretty close" I take his hand.

"We'll clearly not that close, I had no idea about any of this" He frowns his eyebrows together almost angry, "Why wouldn't she tell me? I'm her brother"

"Issac, it's not going to be easy for her, she's probably scared" I say gently, the corridor outside seems to be dying down from the visiting hour, "It must of taken a lot for her to confess her feelings for me" I sigh, I hope after this we'll still be friends.

"You're right, I'm just upset that she didn't tell me" He gently squeezes my hand.

"Anyways, I brought you some comfy clothes to sleep in and some food" He lifts up from the bed going over to his duffle bag.

"Your brother gave me a key to the house" He waves off, "You best not of been anywhere near my underwear draw" I get up from the bed.

I'm sharing a room with five other woman, mostly old. Some are asleep and some are watching the TV over mine and Issac's private conversation.

"Well you see I had to get you fresh underwear for tomorrow so I was forced to go in there really" He gives me a cheeky smirk, "I must say you have some nice underwear" He winks.

"Shut up" I cover my face embarrassed, he laughs and passes me my change of clothes. "Thank you" I mumble shuffling into the bathroom as quick as I can before I turn into a tomato.

I put my clothes down on the surface. When I look up into the mirror I gasp, I don't recognise the person staring back at me.

My face is so pale, my eyes look drained. My whole body looks weak like I'm struggling to breath and my hair is just a mess. It slowly sinks in what I've actually done.

Before it felt like I was waking up from a dream but this is real life and I really did try to kill myself. Parts of me wanted it to happen but another is happy my eyes opened again, just because my dad is here and Issac came to the hospital doesn't make what I feel inside better.

I'm glad that they're here especially dad I haven't seen him in years but there's still so much hurt and confusion. I thought it would all go away but I'm petrified that I'm going to always feel like this.

"Darc? Are you okay?" Issac gently knocks on the door.

"Y-Yes" I choke out, I see a tear slide down my cheek.

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I've been at home all week. Stuck in bed, people keep popping in and out regularly but its mostly Mom, Dad, Ezra and Joseph because they're worried about leaving me alone for to long.

I've text Issac, we talk all the time just not face to face. He says everyone misses me at college, even Ellie. I still haven't spoke to Amelia. I feel bad but I have zero motivation to get up, I don't see the point.

"Darc, you okay?" Dad walks in with a smile, I nod from my overly fluffy blanket that i'm buried in, he sits side on next to me on my bed gently stroking my hair.

"You'll have to go to college this week" He breaks to me softly, Dad's been staying in a hotel in town just a few minutes away from us. He comes round to see me and tries to persuade me to go out for some food or to the local park to stretch my legs but I always decline.

It's been nice having him around, I never thought I'd see him again, "I know" I lye my head on his thigh as he strokes my hair. I feel like I haven't spoken a word for ages, my throat is dry and my words croak out until I cough gently.

"I'll take you somewhere after you come out of college, maybe you can meet Cindy?" He suggests carefully, "Whose Cindy?" I ask but I have a feeling I know who it is.

I lift my head up to look at him, my heart quickening, bracing myself for his response, "My partner" He sadly smiles when he seems my face fall. Every kid wants there parents back together, I know its not exactly realistic in this situation but I'd always hoped, hearing him say that really makes my little dream dead in the water.

"Yeah, okay" I nod trying to smile.

"I know this isn't easy for you to hear but I have something else to tell you" He cradles my face, I frown my eyebrows together and sit up, this doesn't sound like good news.

He takes a deep breath and straightens his back, "We never planned for this to happen but three years ago, Cindy fell pregnant" My heart feels like its breaking. All this time I knew hes had a family of his own, left us miserable here without him, whilst hes happy with his new life.

"We had a little girl" He breaks each part into small sections for me to process, I can't stop the tears welling in my eyes. I know this is selfish but I always thought I was special because I was daddy's little girl, I was his only daughter and now he has a new one.

"Darc don't cry, please" He reaches out for my hand but I move it away, "What's her name?" A tear rolls down my pale cheek.

He sighs knowing hes upsetting me, "Adelaide"

I nod, the name is beautiful and I bet she is as well. I feel bad for feeling jealous but I'm annoyed, annoyed because he left three kids that loved him more then anything and he abandoned us and had another child, why weren't we enough to stick around for?

"You can meet her, you'll love her" He smiles but that suggestion doesn't sound that appealing to me, the thought of him doing all the things he did with me with her breaks my heart.

I don't say anything for a while, processing the information is hard I can't stop thinking about him building her a tree house and reading books to her at night like he did for me.

"I love you" He kisses my forehead and slowly leaves the room, I want to be left alone but at the same time I don't.

I dig for my phone which is lost in the covers and start to type out a text, it's about time I see someone other then the people who live in my house, I want to see a fresh face.

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