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"While we're young i think we should doing something crazy." I mumbled while i stuffed my clothes into my bag.

"like what?." Adonis asked as he sat on the rock and watched penny sleep.

I shrugged my shoulders "Like lets say fuck everyone and just run away from the daily routines." Adonis looked up at me and smirked . He came and wrapped his arms around me and placed his head in the crook of my neck "we should rush and do some dumb shit."

"Right , i gotta go back to work to work in a week." I frowned " i don't want to leave you i just want to spend another perfect day with you." I looked off into the woods and i could see my grandma standing there smiling at me , i smiled back at her and closed my eyes taking a deep breath.

"i won't leave you , you think we should drop penny off at the police station?." Adonis asked as he looked over at penny who was now beginning to wake up.

"I just don't want her to end her life ya' know? How

About you go to talk to her while i go write in my notebook . I just want time to myself for a couple of minutes." I removed Adonis arms from around me and he twisted his lips to the side before shaking his head and walking over to penny . I grabbed my notebook from off of the ground and started to walk through the woods.

"I can feel you nearby grandma." I mumbled while touching the trees." i met a man a two weeks ago but it seems like i known him for a lifetime , he reminds me of you." I chuckled while finally finding a spot i placed my back against the tree and slowly fell down "He reminds me of you so much grandmother."

I opened my notebook and began to tap the pencil against my cheek "did you really have to leave me?." I mumbled while writing what came to my mind.

"No wonder , the mind begins to wander , time is running over , as i am going under but cooler , can you please share my stories when i am gone?." I read out loud

A couple minutes passed by and i was done writing and reading over my poems .

We were all in the car and penny wasn't talking much " i don't think i gave you my name , it's miyoko." I smiled as i looked back her.

she was looking out the window and she glanced at me before looking back at the window again "you care to tell me what brought you out in the sea of trees , i won't judge you." I unbuckled my seatbelt and climbed in the backseat

"Miyo what the hell." Adonis snapped while. "You should've been did before the we started driving to the police station."

I rolled my eyes "boy chill out i only climbed in the back seat and you're making a big deal out of nothing." I mumbled while sitting criss cross and facing towards penny . I cleared my throat and she looked over at me and chuckled

"you're so adorable, you remember me of my sister." She giggled while twirling a curl around her finger.

"oh really ? how was your sister and you're trying to change the subjet missy."

penny sighed and looked out the window "jamila , my sister was nice , sweetheart and very kind. she was raped and beaten to death and they left her body on the street . she died." A tear slipped from penny eyes and i pulled her in close and hugged her .

I didn't bother wiping the tears away because she needed to let all of the pain out "is that why you were cutting yourself?." I whispered into her ear as i rocked us back and forth .

She shook her head yeah while sobbing " i just wanted to be with her , i thought ending my life would make me be with her."

A frowned appeared across my face "if you would've ended your life you wouldn't be where she is at , you would've been with very bad guys. I lost my grandma and i felt hopeless and i still do but i take these pills everywhere , i write poem and i make music from time to time to get me through the day and that wonderful man up there saved me." I chuckled while rubbing her back.

"I don't have any talents so i don't know what to turn to when I'm feeling down." She mumbled while moving away from me

I sighed " i was feeling like that once i felt like i was placed on this earth for no reason but then i started reading the Bible and believing in god . I asked god what was my purpose in life and i started doing mindful meditations to clear my mom and i wanted to connect with the universe and the nature."

"How do know god is real? If he was real none of this would've happen." She stressed as she hung her head low

"God does everything for a purpose sometimes god leaves us feeling empty so therefore we can turn to him , he's the only person that can us." I bit down on my lip "i do believe god sent me here today because he knew you was in trouble and he wanted to me to help you."

"How would i get closer to god what did you do?."

"I started reading the Bible at least once a day , i prayed four times a day and i did mindful meditation . I wanted to connect with nature and universe and i did . Everywhere i look I'll see numbers like 1:11 or 2:22 and that would the universe sending me messages , it would be the way of my guardians angles talking to me and sometimes i do talk to my grandmother even though she's gone." I mumbled " i haven't let her go."

I continued talking to penny on the way to the police station , they called her mother and father and they seem very disappointed. I did give penny my number to call or text me whenever she felt the need to just talk and have somebody listen.

"Your breath stank." Adonis mumbled while covering up his nose and scrunching up his face.

I covered my mouth and my eyes widened "are you serious?." I yelled while walking over to the sink and grabbing my toothbrush.

"Nah I'm just fucking with ya." He laughed while coming over to me and wrapping his arms around my body

I sucked my teeth "boy don't play like that." I rolled my eyes as i began to wet my toothbrush and then place toothpaste on it.

"It might be a lil tangy." He mumbled as he placed kisses onto my neck. I ignored him and began brushing my teeth "i have something planned tonight." He whispered into my ear as she let go of me and took a seat in the toilet

I side eyed him " hm." I stated

"It's this poetry night club the street right and i was wondering if you wanted to go to read one of your poems."

I finished brushing my teeth and wiped the side of my mouth "say what now." I said while walking over to the tub and cutting the shower on

"Yeah a poetry night club , i want you to loosen up a bit'." He mumbled while pulling out a bag of some type of stuff .

I took off my shirt shirt and tossed it in the dirty clothes basket "what's that?." I mumbled while pointing towards the bag.

"You wanted to do something crazy while were young so i decided to let you get a piece of this." He took out some and handed it towards me

I grabbed it and smelled it "it stanks." I scrunched up my noise "what is it called."

"Just eat it Igh? I wouldn't give you anything that would kill you." I nodded my head ate and ate it , i slowly chewed it and swallowed it "this shit disgusting." I mumbled while taking off the rest of my clothes.

I got into the shower and held onto the wall "damn son." I mumbled and i heard Adonis laugh

He got into the shower after me and held me tightly "you feel good huh." I heard him whisper into my ear as he sent kisses down my neck

"I feel slow as fuck man my brain moving slow dude." I blurted out while holding my hands out in front of me . I moved them side to side and frowned "Why are they moving so slow." I pouted

"When you up on the stage nothing will bother you aigh?." I nodded my head yeah and after that my mind was somewhere else.

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We got to the poetry night club and i frowned "it's alien everywhere." I placed my head into my hands "i think we should leave or they might kill us." I got up while grabbing ahold of Adonis hand

"They aren't going to kill us , those aliens are cool alright." He tapped my butt "aye listen you up now so go up there okay?." He grabbed my hand and walked me up on the stage

I sighed and grabbed ahold of the mic "okay yall listen , I'm under the influence right now." I tapped the mic and the crowd erupted with laughter "so bare with me ? I feel funny . y'all all look like aliens and i feel like I'm in the moon . I don't think i have ever been this high." I stated

I cleared my throat and tapped my foot against the the floor while tightly holding the mic " what if i just was? when you zone out, where do you go? if you look at anything long enough it turns into exactly what you were looking for.i am looking for nowhere. hiding in what was.i want to be in between the lines. of my childhood memories , in between the folds of time-in the solid swaths of color huffing on emotional echoes. i want to be in the stills from a movie, but not the running film. where do ditzy people go when they ditz? i want to live in the moment before you wake up, when you nuzzle into the void between consciousness and unconsciousness."

while we're young ..