"He's having an attack" one of the doctors yell as they rush into Zayn's room.

We all look at each other before I go running to see what was going on.

"You can't be in here sir" one of the doctors yells before throwing me out and slamming the door in my face. I move to the window and can see the doctors using a defibrillator. The same doctor who slammed the door on me sees me and shuts the shades. "That's my boyfriend" I yell, banging on the window. Right then all my tears came rolling down my face as I gave up and sat on the floor.

"Baby, come on" my mom says as she helps me up and we walk back to the waiting room.

I could see the nurse walking up to us and she didn't have a good look on her face. She approached us with a slight frown.

"So as you all could tell, Mr. Malik had an attack earlier and our doctors did all they could but unfortunately we couldn't do anything to save him. I'm so sorry for your guys' loss."

I could feel my heart drop and the tears automatically came pouring out as my mom pulled me into a hug to comfort me. I didn't pay attention to anyone else. "How could he leave me? I need him. How could he just give up and leave everyone that loves and cares for him" I manage to ask through my tears.

"Some people just can't fight through how bad whatever it is. In Zayn's case... well the crash was pretty bad. He didn't leave because he wanted to, he couldn't fight anymore babe" she says as I can hear her voice crack. I look up and see her wiping her tears away, "but why him, mum? Why did this have to happen to him? Why couldn't the doctors save him, isn't that their job" I yelled before getting up and running out the hospital doors. I was running, from everything. I hated those doctors, why couldn't they save him? Why couldn't Zayn fight harder? All these thoughts were running through my head as I kept running. I didn't know where I was running to but I wanted to get away. Away from everything, I don't want to be here on this earth anymore, I want to be with Zayn, up there...

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