I dreamt of you last night

but not in the way you'd think

There was no wistful pining

and no silly hopes for you to come knocking at my door

I didn't dream of putting you through

all the hurt that's been eating me away

My dream wasn't to knock some sense

into the empty brain that cares little for me

My dream wasn't to put you on a pedestal

I'd done enough of that in real life

I dreamt of you last night

and I dreamt of all the things I could say to you

I dreamt of how I could tell you that I forgive you

How I know that people make mistakes

(I mean, I thought I was in love with you)

I only wished I wasn't an experiment for you

a toy to play with and throw away

But nevertheless

I forgive you

I dreamt of you last night

and I haven't slept a wink since

but I hope you're sleeping peacefully

and my forgiveness eases your shoulders